and i love you just the same, if not a little more
about
Agnes Ho.
010591.
pps.CEDARIAN. HC. vballer.
KPOP
동방신기; 준수&재중
슈퍼주니어; 시원&혁재
FT Island;
BIGBANG;
flytothesky; BRIAN
shinhwa;
se7en;
wishlist
wisdom.
health
동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG to come singapore.
to be able to see 동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG in person.
have LOTS and LOTS of money.
I WANT AN IPOD CLASSIC 80GB BLACK! T.T
I WANT TO GO KOREA AT THE END OF THE YEAR TO SEE BIGBANG! TTT.TTT
I WANT ULTRA GOOD A'S RESULTS. T.T
microsoft office for mac! eclipse and breaking dawn by stephenie meyer! MIDNIGHT SUN!
ALL THE BIGBANG SINGLES AND ALBUMS ETC! laptop num braziliano praia sandals.
SLEEP!
and the list goes on. thats why we have scarcity in economics, unlimited human wants VS limited resources. AHAHA.
music
Sunday, April 06, 2008
15 minutes before the end of 6 April 2008. sorry my dear yanhui, only managed to come online at this time to announce your birthday on my blog.
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST FRIEND! thank you for all the memories you have given me during these four years. they are etched deeply in my mind, all the time we've spent together, during training, lessons, and going out. it feels weird to not being able to celebrate your birthday with you this year, in school especially. i miss singing happy birthday for you. i miss so much of your crapping. i miss your singing and humming. i even miss your violence, somehow. i miss you so so so much. its just- unbearable to be unable to see you after four long years. its true when they say, only when you've lost it, you'll learn to cherish it more. sigh, the cruelty of human nature, ignorance. oh well. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and i'll love you always! remember- 'my heart for you is blue/ i want to hug you like the sky.' LOL. :x
the gaping hole that is left in me, the scar there, forever. when you guys left, you took a piece of me with you. no one is here to fill it up, you guys are irreplaceable. the emptiness within me. the loneliness surrounding me. the darkness encompassing me, engulfing me, swallowing me.
i tried to wave away the darkness, tried to tear it away, tried to claw it away, but to no avail. i tried to swim out of this darkness, i struggled, strained, strove on to swim out- but i am not resurfacing. i gave up, my hands trailing weakly down by my sides. the darkness overtook me, i didnt bother doing anything. despite the hole in me, i sank and sank. sank to the unfathomable bottom, never ever resurfacing.
darkness attacks. my body sways, swings, flips, flings, rolls. blood flows freely from the limbs, the torso. the blackness no longer engulfs me, now the crimson red, dark red, black red. i am battered, blown, busted. dead dead dead. the dead end.