Saturday, March 03, 2007
hi! i know my blog's been on hiatus for like really really long. partially because there was nothing really much interesting stuff happening around me, just the usual schooling stuff and homework and stress, with the goofing aound with the vballers, simin yanhui eunice and classmates, weiling denyse, melo, cihui and atiqah. yeah. but i have stuff to say. ^^ so i'll just blog, even if theres no one reading it.
im supposed to do homework now, but oh well.Thursday, 0103074Z'07 class gathering! my mum offered to cook HALAL fried rice for the class, which is like WOW, ALOT. one full rice cooker pot and another big box. ^^ i love my mummy for doing that, although she keeps saying it's going to taste not as nice cause there's not much stuff in it. but oh well, im glad the class almost finished everything. ^^ if not im gonna die trying to carry everything home. when i have already DIED carrying those to sentosa. it was like SUPER HEAVY. bleh.
i guess i shouldnt have complained so much about hoping not to have a sunburn. :/ really. ahaha. i'd really hate to get a sunburn, but oh well, i would rather get it then getting all WET. -.- the weather was. horrible. it was like raining/drizzling and not nice. )): but despite the horrible weather, all of us had fun. ^^ beach volleyball was fun. and im soooo GLAD that i successfully taught sabrina shermin and rachel how to
surf SERVE the ball using upperhand. ^^ love you guys. ^^ ahaha. as expected, i got all wet and ew with all the sand on me and sticking onto me. cause i was practically diving for ALL the balls. yep. hope i did okay. ahaha. i hate the sand on the volleyball courts, it was so freaking rough and everything, i grazed my knee. T.T so retarded. but yeah.
left sentosa at around 6? yeah. and went to have dinner with yanhui and melo at vivocity. ahaha. it was like super cold. *shivers* although i was like dry on the outside, but not so on the inside, so i was like practically freezing to death. and i have to blame myself for not bringing a jacket/windbreaker. cause both yanhui and melo had one. T.T yeahhhh.
Friday, 020307i had training in the morning and died cause i was late and had to take a taxi and the fare just killed me. my freak. :x but yeah. was suffering during training cause of my knee and my muscle aches. T.T i have to say oh well, why did i forget to put a plaster on my wound on my knee anyway. but i dont think a plaster would help prevent the pain anyway. :x after training i went out with connie, after going home to bathe. ahaha. it was raining AGAIN. like WTH. what is the weather doing man. we had kfc for lunch. and can you believe it?
CONNIE SAID I LOOK SCRAWNY. T.T im like fat la, where got scrawny la. maybe it's because of the shirt i was wearing. met yanhui and inez at bugis. ^^ yanhui looked so TIRED. ahaha. i bought 2 jeans and 1 teeshirt for like 50 bucks. i loved the jeans~! ^^ its really nice. ahaha. and i cant believe what connie did to the poor guy she saw at the mrt station. piang. she tortured my legs la. T.T to that poor guy who looked like park joong min: i sympathise with you. :x ahaha. we had yoshinoya for dinner. okay. so much fast food. i need to diet already/ do more exercise. really. i cant afford to get any fatter. my crap. ahaha.
anyway.
Collin take care of yourself okay? dont fall sick! ^^Saturday, 030307im feeling all pissed off and freaking irritated with someone. [dont worry. the someone is NOT my parents nor my friends. i love my parents and friends. haha. so yeah. i just need to get this off myself. :x] stop sprouting nonsense about what, i cant study? i should go work when im 18? wth. this is NOT the past anymore. i should let my sister go to university instead, because you think she's cleverer than me? and because you think im more stupid?! what crap is this?! you said everyone should be given an equal opportunity to prove themselves, by saying this, you are freaking contradicting yourself. what the hell man. you expect me to go work at 18, and get married by 19 or something?! and give birth to children and become a good mother and everything?! what the hell? lets get this straight. this IS the modern world now, NOT the past. please freaking change your lame mindset. im containing all my anger in myself now, dont agitate me anymore. i dont wanna pick up an argument or a fight with you okay. im freaking irritated. dont think whatever you said is correct, everyone has faults, no one is perfect. you THINK youre THE perfect one. my foot. you have done enough controlling and 'torturing', can you stop trying to control my life?! stop trying to control what job should i get next time. stop controlling when should i stop studying. stop controlling when should i go out or not go out. stop thinking that my friends are bad. stop thinking that im stupid and dont study because i go out. its not as though my sister doesnt go out. and stop being HYPOCRITICAL. you tell me, must study okay, but behind me, you already think im stupid and cant study and should stop studying and go get a job. wth. what kind of job can i get man, more like i can only get a job washing the toilets man.
YOU ARE NOT EVEN MY MUM OR MY DAD. stop controlling me. wtf. the only thing i can say is that. IM SO GLAD MY PARENTS AREN'T LIKE YOU. im glad my parents give me the freewill to choose what i wanna do, what i wanna study. they gave both my sister and i an equal opportunity to prove ourselves. they treat both of us equally. they love us equally. they are not biased. they scold when any of us do wrong. this is real love. what you called love is not love. it is just plainly SELFISH. i hate that.
i will not be struck down by your stupid selfish comment/thinking. i will turn my fury, my anger, into motivation, motivation to do well for my o's, to prove you wrong, to prove to you i can study, that IM NOT STUPID. to injure and hurt those around you, you are either extremely selfish, cruel or really insensitive. you ASSUME all the time. we say things after thinking, filtering out all the nonsense, but you just sprout CRAP without even thinking. if you didnt know, you're killing me bit by bit. [together with my muscle aches.] i will not care anymore. you only want things to be done your way. i am not going to care anymore.
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okay i dont think anyone read that whole pile of crap. which is really crap. but i feel better now, after reliving myself of all the emotions bottled up inside of me, i was feeling really emo just now when i typed all that. oh well. i'll learn to forgive and forget. and sorry guys, for all the procrastinating. anyway, my muscle aches are really killing me. PLUS all the homework. doing bio now, finished amath. and a little of emath. i'll have to go do homework now. after crapping on my abondoned blog for SOOOOO LONGGG. refreshed my player, it should be able to play now. ^^ the wide array of kpop songs. with one ENGLISH song, 'all i know', sang by brian from fly to the sky. he has perfect english, cause he's a american born korean. AHAHA. ^^ go try him, i love his voice. ^^ i think im not so much of a fangirl anymore, sadly. cause of school. and also my com has no more space to tahan all the vids. which is damn sad. nevermind. i'll have a comeback after my o's. which is like in. *counts*around 7 to 8 months time.
okay i gtg do homework now! byebye people! i dunno when you're going to see me update again. haaha. yep. seeyou! ^^
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