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동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG to come singapore.
to be able to see 동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG in person.
have LOTS and LOTS of money.
I WANT AN IPOD CLASSIC 80GB BLACK! T.T I WANT TO GO KOREA AT THE END OF THE YEAR TO SEE BIGBANG! TTT.TTT I WANT ULTRA GOOD A'S RESULTS. T.T
SLEEP!
and the list goes on. thats why we have scarcity in economics, unlimited human wants VS limited resources. AHAHA.
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Friday, February 29, 2008
hey guys. today is really not my day, [nor my class' day] damn horrible. first it was the forms, then the talk, then the meeting, then the waiting. i dunno if you guys waited. but she was being really mean. even the timetable thing. damn her. afterwards it was the floorball thing. annoying. ARGH. sorry im just doing my ranting. which is pretty horrible. sometimes i dont really know if im doing my job as a class rep properly- i dont know if im being responsible enough and stuff. i dont know if im doing things correctly.
yes man. im trying to sell off my compaq pc! and i have no idea where to sell it. T.T cause im getting a laptop! i dunno if its too early to get one now, but i guess i dont mind using it- its so much more convenient and stuff. okay, i just want a laptop/notebook luh, how about that. lol. currently im deciding between FUJITSU and APPLE MACBOOK. sheesh. terrance tells me to get what i like, but apparently i like both of them! T.T [he says the word 'fickle-minded' just probably summed up me.] okay wth. AHAHAHAH. everyone should come give me advice on which laptop brand to get man! it'll be so fun.
i know, ignorance is bliss. i hope you're feeling blissful now. i arent.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
hey. today was EXTREMELY slack, one econs lecture and thats all. i dont count civics as a proper lesson cause its like wth? :x then after that got phototaking, lol. lame luh, i think my photo will look like shit AGAIN, its that fake smile. i just couldnt do a real smile in front of someone who tells me to, 'straighten your tie, sit up straight, bend down your head a little, stick out your chin' LIKE OMG CAN. so amusing. but oh well. i hate phototaking, i look damn retarded can.
and yes, shermin and i went out to meet yanhui and uma at J8 after our phototaking. ^^ i missed them alot, and looking at them just reminds me of 4Z, and yes, i miss my class TRUCKLOADS. not only them 08A02 too. damnit. 08A05 is not warmed up yet. anyway, had lunch/dinner with shermin yanhui and uma. ^^ then after that pamela came after a really long time. LOL. i bought a file at popular!
oh, and im DAMN DAMN WORRIED about H2 math. shit luh. im so damnit screwed.
why does his display names just keep on reflecting my feelings? its so, uncanning. it scares me sometimes. i dont like it, are you talking about yourself? dont be so emo, im emo too.
and i kinda expected that reaction from you, too bad i guess. it was normal luh, i mean. yeah, it was sooner or later. i was like that too. so its understandable. im just going to ignore you for now, i dont want to stress you too much, really. hope it helps at least a little. im going to pretend i didnt see you. you're just everything, and anything, but a shadow in pretence. anyway, just an instantaneous thing i thought of, kinda weird. :x
its going, going.
it cracks, it splits, it opens.
peeks out, feels the air,
looks out shyly at the world.
it struggles, and struggled,
and finally breaks free,
out of its trap,
the cocoon.
it unfolds its wings,
and flew.
its going, going.
you caught me in a dilemma, you trapped me in a web, and i cant get out.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
i've gotten my new cg today, and im kinda disappointed in a way. cause like, other than sirhan jillian and jeriel, none of the rest of 08A02 is in my cg now. BUTBUTBUT IM IN THE SAME CLASS AS SHERMIN AND TIFFANY! SO COOL RIGHT. lol. its like mixed feelings luh. oh my cg now is 08A05, i LOVE the number FIVE, hope it gives my ALOT ALOT of luck! LOL. :x retarded luh. and none of the people in JAE og three is in 08A05 can, always like that one, somehow i always get thrown into a og where none of them becomes my classmates. wtf luh. but, oh man, miss zhou is my CT like AGAIN, kena her 4 times. dunno what to say. and like wtf, lessons end at 11+ tmr, and i cant get out of school. -.- timetable is screwed up. T.T
seriously im having bad convulsions of 08A02[WE ROCK!] sickness, as in you know, like homesick. i've been doodling "I LOVE 08A02!" over my lecture notes, like math, econs, lit, EVERYTHING. damnit. i miss everyone. so much. though i dont think we were SUPER SUPER SUPER CLOSE, but we were CLOSE ENOUGH. ))): i miss those who have moved on, atiqah, edna, harkhui, xinyi, sujia. [i hope i didnt miss anyone out.] and really, those who went on to the science fac, bryan and anthony. ANTHONY YOU DAMN HORRIBLE LUH, WHY DID YOU ABANDON US! ARGH. =x i really miss everyone like NUTS NUTS NUTS~ T.T
Sunday, February 24, 2008
did i ever mention that i'm having a wisdom tooth coming out from the upper right corner of my gums? ahahahah. two weeks back, it was like a quarter out, but now, its like, HALF OUT. gosh. so scary, but surprisingly, there was no pain, which was a damn great thing: 不幸中的万幸。 ^^ man, im
it was my mum's off day today. <333 went to ate dimsum together and spent quality time with my family. and i really love today. sometimes i wish my everyday would be like this. but ahahaha, if it's really going to be like that, i swear i'll gain 154346543543 kilos. and i'll die man. -.- all the fats. ))):
I MISS 08A02 ALOT! somehow, we've gotten really close to one another and its unnerving how i have to make friends in JAE OG THREE all over again, and some are really NOT making an effort to do so, it irritates me. I MISS PAE OG THREE TOO! haiyah, how.
i hate that, can you stop making me feel like a rubber band stretched to the maximum? one day i'm so going to lose control and smack you right across the face, scream at you, kick you and run away. [ahahaha, terrance, your ideas!] just stop trying to do that, you know, its so obvious, not subtle, does not make me feel happy in any way, only makes me feel freaked out and traumatised, just leave me alone right, i think i'll be more happy. just go away.
Friday, February 22, 2008
stop trying to escape from me. im gradually starting to believe in what joshua has said. the oxymoron. heh, he should know what im talking about. i would really rather you act nonchalant about it. hah, at least you dont ignore me, which is a good thing i guess. but i still feel sad looking at you. i think im like the saddest person on earth can, not only that but most retarded and dumbest.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
i swear, all of you guys are trying to hurt me right. ALL. OF. YOU. I hate this. why do we all have to end up this way? i miss everyone who were here during the first intake. i miss OG THREE [PAE]; i miss 08A02; i dunno. somehow school without table partner feels weird: feels weird to be not seeing her going crazy around me. i guess im so used to seeing her around that her absence making a gaping hole in my days, and really, no one can really fill it properly, fully. not even someone. he makes me feels sad just by looking at him, i dunno why either. i mean, he smiled and everything, but it's just,the knowledge that he might be going away. sherm too. seems like everyone's going away. now i dunno if i had made the correct choice by staying again. i feel like crawling into a corner and just cry my heart out. SA is making sad and depressed all over again. first og three, then 08A02, then i know it'll be og three's [jae] turn next. my heart is going to shatter so many times that really, it'll be impossible to mend it back again. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. why do we have to go through this. dont ever on me thinking that im always the girl who will cheer you up and everything, it doesnt always apply. i always appear to look happy and everything on the surface, but no, inside me, it's turmoil. like now. forget it. i doubt anyone can understand how i feel. its just hard to describe. and his display name was so ironic i wanted to laugh. cynical aye. more like it applies to me totally.
Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far
Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid....
I lose my way and it's not to long before you point it out
I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
every night in your sleep
I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learnt to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because Of you
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
hah, i gave it up. kinda sad. but i guess its to my advantage if i stay, although i do have an advantage of having a 'higher success rate' of getting in if i appeal. but oh well. 'big fish in small pond' VS 'small fish in big pond' analogy- it sucks. it almost made my brain explode. i chose the big fish in small pond choice in the end, after much deliberation, with opinions from my parents and friends. what to do, only can say that its too bad i did so badly in english and pulled down my overall results, its too bad im dumb. its really too bad. if i had a 10 at least i would have gone on with my appeal, but man, too bad luh. i dont want to lag behind everyone, i dont want to fail, i dont want to retain and i'll die. i want to be on around the same waveline as everyone else. i know i suck. but i know that if i went on, i'll cry everynight man, i think.
oh well. i'm just going to study DAMN DAMN DAMN HARD. i dont care already. whatever. i am going all out for my a level results. its going to be tough. but jiayou!
ps: why isnt there floorball?! ARGH. =x
Saturday, February 09, 2008
seriously, i think im having the worst chinese new year ever. ))): its like so freaking boring. =.= although my relative did come to my house just now, there wasnt any interesting things that happened. horrible. and my aunt was just talking to my mum, and the rest just was keeping quiet and watching tv, whereas my sister was just playing with her dumb audition. =.= seriously, i should have gone to yanhui's house and ignored my relative you know, BAHHHH. and now, im so bored that im starting to do homework, by right i should have started but oh well, the 5-day-break is making a little fuzzy and in the holiday mood, as everyone calls it. anyway i started on GSC, li jie, and i just realised that man, one whole question is ten marks. *falls* what the shit. =x okay take it that im blabbering. mannnn. okay i think i should stop slacking and really go do my work. i still have GP to do! ARGHHHHH. shitshitshit, why did i get myself into this shit. =.= im still confused. i guess i'll just wait till everything settles. im such a procrastinator. T.T
Sorry- buckcherry
Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.
I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.
This time I think i'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.
I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah Sorry!
I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry.
Friday, February 08, 2008
hey, i dont know why, but my chinese new year feels very hollow this year. i dont feel any excitement or whatever. plus it seems like more and more of my relatives are going overseas to spend their chinese new year. horrible aint it. everything seems so superficial to me. sigh. i dont even go around visiting relatives, okay, everytime its them who come and visit, except for my grandparents and uncle, i visit them. yeah. so i feel quite bored at home. T.T anyway i went running just now! AHHAHA. stupid huh, just because i felt fat after the things i ate from the reunion lunch. =x whateverrrr to me. i just feel fat luh. T.T
anyway, i went to the airport yesterday to send my grandparents off. they went to thailand. i was supposed to go with them, but oh well, SCHOOL. -.-
shit, i just felt cheated. damnit you stupid thing. =x anyway. i have a 800-word GP essay and GSC li jie to do. DARN. =x
anyway i did some stupid quiz. LOL.
| What Agnes Means |
 You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. |
ahhahaa, sounds like me i guess? =x
| You Should Be a Doctor |
 You are practical, sharp, and very intuitive. Optimistic and energetic, you are a problem solver who doesn't get discouraged easily. You are also quite compassionate and caring. You make people feel hopeful. You're highly adaptable and capable. You do well with almost any curve ball life throws at you. You do best when you: - Are always learning new subjects - Use your knowledge to solve problems You would also be a good therapist or detective. |
thats just sad, i wanted to be a doctor, but my chemistry cmi, then i had to give that up. plus im a super arts student. i have a what do you call that- doctor-heartandpassion-stuck-in-a-arts-student's-mindandbrain.
Friday, February 01, 2008
you are an angel sent to me with a knife, slashing my heart into shreds and sinew. i love you too much to stop you destroying me. i'll ache, and i'll bleed, but i'll still love you. i love you too much to give you up. slosh slosh slosh- all i hear is you walking away, in blood; all i can see is your back getting more and more vague, not giving a damn. i dont want to give you up. persistent? determined? or obstinate? maybe its just love, simply. appearance vs reality. sometimes i wish i could read minds.
more on normal things: miss chan [our class math tutor] ROCKS. i know how to do binomial already. happy and contented with myself. ^^ proud is too strong a word to use i guess. lol. i love the song 'teardrops on my guitar'- taylor swift. its such a beautiful song, but sad. beautifully sad. sadly beautiful. i guess its more of beautifully sad. its close to my heart.
Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
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