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Agnes Ho.010591.
pps.CEDARIAN. HC. vballer.
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동방신기; 준수&재중
슈퍼주니어; 시원&혁재
FT Island;
BIGBANG;
flytothesky; BRIAN
shinhwa;
se7en;
wishlist
wisdom.health
동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG to come singapore.
to be able to see 동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG in person.
have LOTS and LOTS of money.
I WANT AN IPOD CLASSIC 80GB BLACK! T.T I WANT TO GO KOREA AT THE END OF THE YEAR TO SEE BIGBANG! TTT.TTT I WANT ULTRA GOOD A'S RESULTS. T.T
SLEEP!
and the list goes on. thats why we have scarcity in economics, unlimited human wants VS limited resources. AHAHA.
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Sunday, March 30, 2008
im under tremendous stress that i'm breaking out. firetruck. recently im in a EXTREMELY irritable mood, really try not to annoy me unless you want to get stared at or barked at. this is the longest time i've been in such a bad mood, since friday. cannot stand it. dunno what the hell is wrong with me. GAH. i need to study. i need to get reassurance. i need so stay steady. i cannot stand it when my boat rocks TOO MUCH, as it is doing now. BAH. sorry for the random exclaimation. when you see such short posts, it means that i have a strong surge of emotion that i have to get out of me. if the post is long, its just an experience, or just trying to show that im very free. im feel very bad to the people around me, they have to stand all these shit coming from me. i'm sorry, 진자 미안행요. sorry for being such an asshole and everything. sorry sorry sorry. i feel bad. it sucks to be surviving as a failure. i wish i were just a simple passer-by looking upon all these, and shaking my head in sympathy, then walking away- without having to heave any responsibilities. its bad enough disliking, and all these is just making me increase my dislike for it. damnit.
after reading something, i felt so pissed. like again, its the same reason. i never felt so crappy before- seriously. i totally cannot believe i lost out to her. why. why. why. i just feel like crying all over again. anyway. i deserved it, who asked me to go and read that, no one, curiosity got the better of me and curiosity killed the cat. in this case, my heart, my mind. my fault. i died- deep inside of me. 我現在是行屍走肉. uselessness. weakness. futility. i hope i can get in. ha, the great irony. i dunno why i didn't. its like weird huh. no one will know what im talking about.
p.s. to shermin: yeh goodbye. and i'll miss you loads. ):
미안해요, 진자미안해요.
Friday, March 28, 2008
i'm just a failure. at everything. i swear. this is the most firetrucking irritating day ever. i'm just so pissed, so depressed and dunno what other shit. i just want to tuck myself away from the face of the earth- i want to escape from this brutal reality. i hate it- this isn't fair. i cant freaking believe she got it while i didnt. freak freak freak. its just so. unreal. i want to die. and i swear, die crying. not that im trying to be dramatic or what, but this is how exactly i'm feeling like now. goodbye people.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
i've been feeling so freaking tired these few days. i have no idea why. it's like, energy is drained out of my not-so-minute body at such a high rate that no amount of sleep can replace this high rate of energy loss. all i can do is to get as much sleep as i can get at anytime, everywhere. you can like see my head down on the table trying to rest. its so pathetic you know- knowing that no amount of sleep can suffice my exhaustion. this sucks. i have no idea what happened to me. its like, a sudden thing. not that i've done anything crazy or what, besides going for trainings and stuff. this is like so GREAT. T.T
AHAHAH joking luh. thats SEUNGRI IN ACTION. LOL.
whatever, im going off. bye.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Happiness Meme :D :
List ten things that recently made you happy, then tag ten people to do the same.
uh, i tag anyone who wants to do. :x
1. BIGBANG!
2. LALALA MV- UBER CUTE, [all the shirt lifts and butt shaking~ <333]
3. I RAN 4.8KM++ ON THURSDAY, which is yesterday, & OTHER DRILLS[PUSHUPS,SITUPS,HEELLIFTS,FULLSSQUATS ETC]
4. i had lunch with shermin and huijuan on thursday, uh, yesterday!
5. i FINALLY went to collect my apple protection.
6. updated my phone with bigbang goodness! <3
7. STARING AT SEUNGRI! CUTE BOY. <3
8. STARING AT TEMPO! HOT[wellnotexactly] BOY. <3
9. its good friday today! holiday=SLEEP!
10. i had breakfast with my mum today. <333
okay, yesterday's PT was hmm, okay i guess, but this was the first time i ran so many rounds for any sports training, lol. 8 rounds around the track, from lane 1 to 8, then cooldown 4 rounds lane 1 to 4.
i havent started on homework/revision. GREAT. ))): [jason would be SOO CHEERED UP by this fact, i swear. -.-
anyway! i haven't been FANGIRLING for SO LONG. >< JUST LET ME FANGIRL OKAY! BIGBANGGGGGG! i swear, seungri is like SUPER CUTE. LOL. even atiqah thinks seungri is cute okay! okay im like HAHA-ING over LALALA MV+PERF. [which is like millions of years ago. im slow, i know, hahaha.] its HILAROUS I SWEAR, LOOK AT TEMPO's EXPRESSION ESPECIALLY. :X
AHAHAHA TEMPO'S THE ONE ON THE EXTREME LEFT, HIS ATTEMPT AT SEDUCTION IS A HUGE HUGE FAILURE. AHAHAHAHA. SEUNGRI'S THE SECOND ONE FROM THE EXTREME LEFT. (:
okay this is so lameeeee. :x i should post a nice nice picture of them, dont spoil their image. :x
then of course, random seungri cuteness:
hot tempoo:
ahahha yes, my happiness. <333 anyway, sorry this got image heavy. :x picture credits to: soompi bigbang official thread. (:
Sunday, March 16, 2008
I LOVE MY NEW SONGS ON THE BLOG. <3
LOL.
sudden craze on bigbang.
holidays. are. AHAHA.
homework. homework. homework.
and.
SPAZZING OVER BIGBANG.
i dunno how slow i can get, seriously.
goodbye baby.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
the wet weather recently dampens everyone's mood, especially mine. T.T it's so sickening, especially when you're going out to have fun, but you can't really do so because of the rain. and i really REALLY don't like getting wet, [besides swimming.] and my best friend for the whole week has been- my umbrella. -.- i wonder what's wrong with the sun. has it been scarred by pimples such that it doesn't dare to show its face for the whole week? oh man, what the hell. :x
and yes i swear i'm going to shorten my life by 3 years at least can. stupid people around me has been smoking like shit. they should just eat the cigarette without having to light it, then there wouldn't be smoke and without smoke, poor people like me wouldn't suffer. so all in all, every smoker should just start by eating their cigarette. :x AHHAHAHA a GREAT IDEA right.
apple care is finally in stock! but i'm extremely lazy to go collect it, cause of the weather. -.- I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MY HOMEWORK! JIAYOUJIAYOU! <3
Sunday, March 09, 2008
the pile of homework on my table is making me extremely agitated. i dont feel like going out for any outings anymore. i just want to finish up my homework. quite a scary thought eh. i know its seemingly impossible that i'll ever tell everyone that, 'hey, im not going out with you guys for any outings anymore, i wanna finish my homework.' ahahaha dont worry, im not going to do that. but im scared that i cant finish my homework. lol. cause yeh, 3 outings consecutively in a week, which is like extremely crazy to me, i never do go out for so many times in a week. call me toot or whatever.
i better go do my homework or im really going to have a fit and convulsions and twitch and flip and roll on the floor and foam at the mouth and die. :x whatever to me, kudos to homework. T.T it kills, when consumed in HUGE DOSAGE.
sorry for the retardedness, i had to let some of my agitation out, or im really going to explode, and everyone is going to be extremely agitated too.
lucky atiqah, she doesnt have any homework. what is that man, so unfair. -.- oh well im going to stay up till late into the night to do my homework.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
when i look at others raving over their jcs, i wonder how is that possible- i have experienced that before in cedar, the loyalty and love to the school. but currently i feel none of that. well i guess its for the good of myself, in a way. the cedar gang in 08A05 is going to MUG. these two years are going to fast, its going to fly. and technically speaking, it isnt even a full two years. minus the pae period its like 1 3/4 year left. minus the holidays and the a level period it'll be like, around 1 1/4OR1/2 year left. not much time. so its important that i stay focused. cedar gang jiayou okay! we'll just knock out the theory of shermin's aunt! =x oh well. it was really mean to say that anyway. the branding of schools. =.= its just too bad. but im just going to prove everyone wrong.
Monday, March 03, 2008
currently, im finishing up my GP on discrimination :DDD GREAT okay. how are you supposed to write a personal response of length 400 words, which is not an essay?! hahahahaha. but i managed to do it in the end anyway. damnit. lol. i think i exceeded a little. need to go edit it. =x
i was kinda depressed just now, looking at my previous GP assignment- horrible. my grades look realllllll bad. but anyway, i know my mistakes already. so i'm going to try and improve and do better on the next assignment. ^^ JIAYOU!
YES! i cant wait for the March holidays, although i know most of it i'll be spending it drowning&suffocating&buried under all my notes, but thats okay. im going to mug luh. got all the CAs and lectures tests after march holidays. so im trying to do as well as possible. i hate bad results. [who doesnt. ahahaha.] its kinda a small teeny weeny break for me to get a little more sleep; sleep deprivation is catching up quick on me. T.T besides, im going get my laptop! *GRINS* sorry luh, my pc really spoil, so like depending on my sister's pc now, not very nice to her, cause she also has school in the afternoon. oh cause we agreed upon her using in ther afternoon, me at night. yeh. hmm. yep, think im going to get macbook. THINK. not because of seon, but ah well. its going to be my baby can. sheesh, sounds wrong, but really. its going to soooooooo important. LOL. IT FAIR YO, HERE I COME!
6-9 MARCH: IT FAIR! 12-9pm
10 MARCH: 08A02 OUTING!
12 MARCH: FOUR ZED OUTING! [tentatively]
EH! 08A05 HOWHOWHOW! okay, we shall discuss tmr! yanhui ah! SAIKANG ROCKS OKAY! LOL, i was joking.
actually i dunno what am i blogging here at such a late time, i better go sleep, if not tmr i die during ALL my lectures. T.T
Breathless- Shayne Ward
If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
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