and i love you just the same, if not a little more
about
Agnes Ho.
010591.
pps.CEDARIAN. HC. vballer.
KPOP
동방신기; 준수&재중
슈퍼주니어; 시원&혁재
FT Island;
BIGBANG;
flytothesky; BRIAN
shinhwa;
se7en;
wishlist
wisdom.
health
동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG to come singapore.
to be able to see 동방신기/SUJU/FTISLAND/BIGBANG in person.
have LOTS and LOTS of money.
I WANT AN IPOD CLASSIC 80GB BLACK! T.T
I WANT TO GO KOREA AT THE END OF THE YEAR TO SEE BIGBANG! TTT.TTT
I WANT ULTRA GOOD A'S RESULTS. T.T
microsoft office for mac! eclipse and breaking dawn by stephenie meyer! MIDNIGHT SUN!
ALL THE BIGBANG SINGLES AND ALBUMS ETC! laptop num braziliano praia sandals.
SLEEP!
and the list goes on. thats why we have scarcity in economics, unlimited human wants VS limited resources. AHAHA.
music
Sunday, September 23, 2007
HEYYY. i found something hilarious on the web. you guys shall visit this website, anti ah lians: http://aalteam.blogspot.com/ it cracks me up. =x okay thats all i have to say. HEH.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
prelims are finally over. i dunno how should i feel towards that. should i feel happy because its like, 'yes! prelims are over!' ;or should i be worried over how my prelim results will turn out; or instead i should be depressed because its the nearer to when everyone continues on their path, eventually forgetting each other. [yes yes i know you'll say, oh no, we'll still stay in touch and we'll still be as close! but you cant deny that, with time, the closeness we once felt will be gone, and replacing it will be weirdness, and we'll be strangers once more.] maybe i'm just numb towards all these already. besides. this period is just a temporary break from the real test ahead. i dont know. i really dont know anything at all. i was really confused about myself. after the literature exam, i see almost everyone rejoicing, jumping for joy, just being totally in a joyous mood. i dont feel a single emotion, not even relief or delight, not a slightest trace. at first i had the idea of going to catch a movie with my friends. but no, i went home straight after the exam. i just sat down on my chair, not knowing what to do. i feel so 'dehumanised', i feel like a robot, totally devoid of emotions.
sometimes i really feel like doing this:
i lifted the gun and pressed it against my temple. click. bang. a sound of thunder. silence.
or:
i sat in a corner, drawing out a penknife. flicking open the penknife, i could see the reflection of a strained, stressed, girl looking back at me. i lowered the knife slowly, till it came to a stop at my wrist. the tender, unbroken skin. i exerted stress upon the knife. drip. drip. drip. i hope to purge myself to a sound and pristine health.
sometimes im really tired of living on the earth. the troubles. the stress. the irony behind life. i know. you'll say im still young ang stop being emo and everything. but it is true. i really hate how life is. i shall not say that God is being unjust to me, or say that he is treating others more equally than me, because, life is never fair and never perfect. i havent been properly feeling the emotion of happiness since a while ago, i cant remember when. the only strong feelings i have now is just, sadness, tension, irritation/frustration. my life is kinda sad right. more like, now my life only revolves around my results, my results and only my results. not even properly doing justified fan-girling to dongbang, suju, ft island. which is good, although at times i really missed the times where i laugh at the boy's silly reactions and stuff. it was a source of 'cheer-me-up medicine'. it WAS. now i dont have it, i miss it, and i think thats why i em so much more now as compared to the past.
i guess partly this damnit emo mode was cause by my headache/dizziness starting after my literature paper one. brain was lagging so much in paper two i was so frustrated with myself. =.= time management sucks. argh.
anyway. dont worry too much people. im not ever going to carry out either of the two situations i have stated above, or in any way self multilate. i cant stand self mutilation. so dont worry people. its just that i was feeling emo and thinking of everything in a not-so-nice light. but anyway. i suppose you guys dont have to worry about me so much. because im really one who can get over things fast. so just let me emo when i want to alright since i'll be fine after i emo.
i've found my current favourite quote from macbeth:
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player That struts and frets his hour upon the stage And then is heard no more. It is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing.
okay. now. ignore what i've just said. =x ahahaha.