melancholia

2008-09-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

I AM ON HIATUS FOR BLOGGER FOR NOW.
I'LL SEE WHEN I DECIDE TO COME BACK. (:

for now, i'm on livejournal: LIVEJOURNAL
you can relink me if you want. (:

2008-08-30T22:05:00.003+08:00

전 진자 걱정이 해요.
난 죽었, 진자.

Can't take my eyes off you- Frankie Valli
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you leaves me weak.
There are no words left to speak,
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like Heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm a lonely night.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay..

2008-08-20T20:58:00.003+08:00

i have no idea why, but i kinda got really depressed towards the end of the day. i hoped no one noticed. i hope it seems as though i was just really tired.
okay. i am confused yet again.

yesterday night someone thought lee yong dae was my bf. i was so happy that i was like smiling/laughing throughout the night after he asked. :x oh myyy. yong dae. <333 if only aye. (:

anyone has any idea if what is the age range of the athletes for the youth olympics 2010? [in singapore if you didnt know. :x]
ahahahah i have ulterior motive, ahahaha not really luh. oh well. moses made me disappointed by saying its till 18. ): but all the rest say till hmm, 21 max? i have no idea.

okay i really need to start studying, if not quote from jason, 'i'll see you again next year luh, miss zhou!'

'we shall meet again, in a place where there is no darkness'
yes. somewhere where you will be my light, take my hand and guide me through the darkness.

2008-08-17T23:19:00.004+08:00

OMG MY YONG DAE IS SO GOOD WITH HIS TEAM MATE! (: SO AMAZING YOU KNOW

lee hyo jung [left], LEE YONG DAE! [right]

(BEIJING, August 17) -- World No. 10 Lee Hyo-jung and Lee Yong-dae of the Republic of Korea pulled off the biggest upset in the Beijing Olympic Badminton tournament after they coasted to a straight-sets win over World No. 1 pair Liliyana Natsir and Nova Widianto of Indonesia in the Mixed Doubles final on Sunday, August 17.

The final showdown, gone in 39 minutes with a 21-11, 21-17 ROK victory, turned out to be a disastrous ousting for the heavily favored World No. 1, who dominated the event in recent years.

On the previous day, the ROK's two Lees stunned another Indonesian pair, third-seeded Flandy Limpele and Vita Marissa, in a thrilling three-game match to qualify for the finals.

credits to the beijing olympics official website!
oh my yong dae~ :x

2008-08-17T15:29:00.002+08:00

URGH. ROBERT FROST AND PW IS KILLING ME.

bad thing: im starting to fan girl again. -.-

2008-08-16T20:05:00.003+08:00

bah tadatada!
i'm currently watching badminton doubles, [lee yong dae&lee hyo jung] korea versus indonesia. needless to say, im rooting for KOREA!
and i spotted another/ a NEW eye candy! badminton player, lee yong dae [이용대], in addition to park tae hwan [박태환] the marine boy! whoots. damn cool. yong dae's birthday is coming up, 11 september 1988. so is marine boy's! 27 september 1989! oh mannn. (: okay. marine boy is just plain awesome. but lee yong dae is awesome and GOOD-LOOKING. :x

lee yong dae:

and i finally got a new backpack. (:

seriously, i thought i was really efficient in my homework today, i finished gp within an hour! (((: but partly because i typed it out. :x wells.

OMG YES KOREA WON 2-1~ AND LEE YONG DAE WAS DAMN FREAKING CUTE! HE JUMPED ONTO THE COACH AND HUGGED HIM! SO CUTE!

wells. back to BIGBANG! (((((:

2008-08-14T23:29:00.001+08:00

everything freaking hurts.
first my little prink on my damn finger.
then it was my gum, i suspect another wisdom tooth is coming out. -.- and that'll be my third wisdom tooth already, annoying shizz.
after that it is my freaking ear. it is throbbing now.
horrible ending to a day man.

2008-08-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

everything is so NOT working out for me today. it is irritating me to no end.

it started out okay in the morning with fafa and oliver [we all met at the station], and fafa was spewing things over someone. so it was funny looking at her giggle and everything. and letting shermin hear haru haru, with its wrong sounding english lyrics. LOL. it was okay. until the end of econs tutorial. everything was FINE.

it started with first, ' er, your vein is too small ah, cannot draw blood.' DAMNNN. make me wait for one hour forty minutes make you feel happy is it! -.- but im glad moses and shermin didn't have this PARTICULAR problem. i swear im going to make my freaking vein bulge next year. -.- and it doesnt help that the point where they hit to 'test' your blood hurts if i hit it. and i kept hitting it by accident. wth.

then it was my phone collection. i collected and my sim card refused to work with me to copy all the damn contacts back onto the phone. freaking hell. so im trying to manually key in and save all over again when it is actually in my sim card. annoying shit! waste my time you know!

after that, which is now, i opened my mac. and guess what. i found some ant manifestation somewhere in the room ~~[i suspect it is from my sister cause she throws the food and wrappers and rubbish lying around. but why inflict on me! basket. -.-]~~ i dunno where exactly, but the freaking ants probably thought my mac was too pretty and decided to take a closer look. so when i opened, -SHOCK- yeh. and it was all back to playing arcade crocodile smashing. except that it was ants in this case. basket man. draw yourselves onto my mac for what luh. -.- also got no food. -.-

aiyah, i swear, if there was a test today i sure fail one luh. okay, ironically, i did fail the blood TEST. -.-

tomorrow will be a better day!
and seriously, i need to study!

2008-08-12T22:41:00.002+08:00

하루하루 (Haru Haru)
[credits: MADY, 파란, vip room @ BBVIPZ & STARDAISY212 @ BB THREAD, lapan + chinatown@LJ; yellowbbang@LJ.com]

떠나가

yeh finally i realize that i’m nothin’ without you
i was so wrong, forgive me

ah ah ah ah -

파도처럼 부숴진 내 맘
바람처럼 흔들리는 내 맘
연기처럼 사라진 내 사랑
문신처럼 지워지지가 않아
한숨만 땅이 꺼지라 쉬죠
내 가슴속엔 먼지만 쌓이죠 (say good bye)

네가 없인 단 하루도 못 살것만 같았던 나
생각과는 다르게도 그럭저럭 혼자 잘 살아
보고싶다고 불러봐도 넌 아무 대답없잖아
헛된 기대 걸어봐도 이젠 소용없잖아

네 옆에 있는 그 사람이 뭔지 혹시 널 울리진 않는지
그대 내가 보이긴 하는지 벌써 싹 다 잊었는지
걱정돼 다가가기조차 말을 걸 수 조차 없어 애태우고
나 홀로 긴 밤을 지새우죠 수백번 지워내죠

돌아보지말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 하루하루 무뎌져가네

oh girl i cry cry you're my all (say good bye)

길을 걷다 너와 나 우리 마주친다해도
못 본척 하고서 그대로 가던길 가줘

자꾸만 옛 생각이 떠오르면 아마도
나도 몰래 그댈 찾아갈지도 몰라

넌 늘 그 사람과 행복하게 넌 늘 내가 다른 맘 안 먹게
넌 늘 작은 미련도 안 남게끔 잘 지내줘 나 보란듯이

넌 늘 저 하늘같이 하얗게 뜬 구름과도 같이 새파랗게
넌 늘 그렇게 웃어줘 아무 일 없듯이

돌아보지말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 하루하루 무뎌져가네

나를 떠나서 맘 편해지길 (나를 잊고서 살아가줘)
그 눈물은 다 마를테니 ye (하루하루 지나면)

차라리 만나지 않았더라면 덜 아플텐데 um
영원히 함께하자던 그 약속 이젠
추억에 묻어두길 바래 baby 널 위해 기도해

돌아보지말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 하루하루 무뎌져가네

oh girl, i cry, cry. you're my all. say good bye bye
oh my love, don’t lie, lie you're my heart (say good bye)

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it's on the top of my playlist now. so like, you'll probably hear this song when you plug my earphones out of my ears. seriously. and i think i'm subconsciously trying to memorize the lyrics. [damn me. :x]
my favourite lines were definitely:
나를 떠나서 맘 편해지길 (나를 잊고서 살아가줘)
그 눈물은 다 마를테니 ye (하루하루 지나면)
translated:
i hope that by leaving me, you'll be/feel at peace [forget me and live on]
your tears will all [eventually] be dry [when the days/time pass]

i'm going to donate blood tomorrow.
i hope a bruise flowers. somehow i am kind of fascinated by bruises. i have no idea why.
i hope i will be all happy and fine after the donation tomorrow!

I FORGOT TO ANNOUNCE. I MANAGED TO FINISH 'BREAKING DAWN', 756 PAGES, ON 9 AUGUST 2008, 23:55. THAT IS A WHOOPING 5+ OR 6 HOURS! LALALA.
okay, nothing to be happy about, i missed the national day parade because of this. -faints-

okay shall sleep early today! goodnight. (:

2008-08-11T11:27:00.002+08:00

i'm exhausted.
sometimes i regret the choice i've made.
somehow, it has made me drift apart from all my friends.
it seems like, my friendship with everyone else is based on a very superficial level.
it just sucks. cause i know i am one who values loyalty like no other, with real, true friendships that runs deep.
it sucks when you feel like you're OUTSIDE the circle.
it sucks when you feel like you're nothing.
it sucks when you feel like you're all alone.
it sucks when you feel like you are helpless.
it sucks when you feel like you can't help anyone at all.
it sucks when you feel insignificant.
this sucks, totally.

but probably, the choice that i had made is really one which has made me significantly more happy than ever here.

a double-edged sword.
it draws blood, no matter how you turn it.
it draws blood.

2008-08-10T10:15:00.002+08:00

i dreamt about you, again.
and this time i woke up with tears in my eyes, crying over you.
this unconscious thing is making me go crazy.
sometimes i wished it [you] would just go away, and leave me alone.
the real you and the you in my dreams is so different that it pains me to even look at you.
i wish i could not succumb to these dreams, these conditions.
but the uncertainty of all these is making me go mad.
i'm insane, unsure of my sanity.

2008-08-09T22:18:00.003+08:00

AHAHAHAH IM A DAMN HAPPY KID TODAY!
nothing can spoil my mood. not even the fact that my phone died on me. -.-
my happiness of getting my hands on 'BREAKING DAWN' overwhelms everything else. <33333 not to mention BIGBANG. (((:
i started reading my copy of breaking dawn at 5+, i got home at 4+. [ahahha i was busy wrapping and protecting my book! :x] oh well i think im really a damn fast reader! its only been 5 hours, minus-ing the time i used to bathe and eat, i am already finishing the book already! but damn, it was at the expense of my homework-ing and revision time. damnnnnn. well, i'll start in a while!

some pictures i grabbed from debbie's blog:

thats all for today! (:
currently addicted to bigbang's new mini album, stand up!

2008-08-09T00:03:00.004+08:00

mood: tired but HAPPY!
music: bigbang- haru haru

080808
TODAYS NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS! [& BEIJING Olympics of course.]
it was really better than what i had expected. seeing how the dry run didnt go that well the night before. i mean the teachers had added that the attendance would turn out BAD. BUT LIKE ALOT OF THE JC2 CLASSES CAME! (:
everything went pretty good, despite the fact that there were some minor cork ups at the romanis montage. cause some of the classes painted the wrong sides, then our velcro wouldnt work the right way up. so we had to fix it and it didnt help that romanis had 11 classes. but we fixed it! i kinda felt bad that the teachers had to come in and help us. ): oh well. other than that, i thought everything went well. and i must really say, the montages and the hampers were REALLY WELL MADE. especially the hampers. seriously. i am IN AWE. (: COMMUNITY SINGING IS <333

for the JC1 side. we [jc2 committee] didnt get to see much. but it was good, from the time when we came in. whoots. (: and we joined in with the jc1 committee to sing again! (((((: SO EXCITING. AND 08A05 WON SECOND FOR THE FASHION DESIGN! OMG. I WAS SCREAMING LIKE MAD. :X i mean, i kinda felt bad i couldnt come help you guys with all the things. but i am REALLY HAPPY THAT WE WON. AND SHERMIN LOOKED GOOD IN THE COSTUME TOO. THANKS QIANRU AND DENISE FOR THE DESIGN!
p.s. there was one most hilarious costume, the one on victor loh. LOL.

Mr Desmond Ng came up to us and praised us for our national day celebrations programme, for the atmosphere and everything was really good. that really assured me ALOT.

To 9th HC:
I AM REALLY PROUD OF YOU GUYS! seriously, everyone of you. despite all the setbacks we faced during our planning, dry runs, budgeting, publicity and events, I am really very happy that this celebration is a success! [as least better than i had expected to be like.] I appreciate all the hard work you guys have put in, all of these have paid off! and on today, i know we all were kinda scared and unsure of how the response would be like, and we were all worried with anxiety. i'm glad everyone coped well with whatever that came in their way, especially the corkup with the romanis montage. and i just wanted to apologise, that sometimes i'm not performing up to my standard as an OIC, and i'm really sorry for that. in any case, I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH. and without ALL of you guys, today's event would have NEVER succeeded. and to wanfong, HAVE A SPEEDY RECOVERY! WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH!
jason's lame joke/comment:
us: wahlao so ego ah!
jason: where got, i also not biscuit brand!
us: OMG. -.-

To 08A05:
Just wanted to say, i am really EXHILARATED that we won SECOND. LIKE YAYE TO NO END. (: thank you you all for all the efforts you have put in to assemble the whole costume together. in any case, thank you edwin, for being there for the class with shermin and everyone else when like, i am not there. sorry about my absence.

another piece of good news would probably be that, BIG BANG'S NEW MINI ALBUM IS OUT! currently listening to it. and i am feeling the lovelovelove! and i love their haru haru mv to BITS luh. (:

anyway, i'll go collect my 'breaking dawn' tomorrow! cant wait!
today's such a great day! i shall go sleep now! night! (:

2008-08-03T16:16:00.003+08:00

i have learnt a lesson today: NEVER try to do your english literature right after doing GSC [General Studies in Chinese].
you cant even remember basic terms like enjambment and claustrophobia that you have to resort to googling it. wtf. -.-

2008-07-30T22:37:00.003+08:00

mood: tired and ~~stressed~~
current music: the ghost of you and me- BBMak

LEADERS RETREAT! [though its not really like we're stepping down yet. :x]
it was AWESOME. (: I LOVED THE FOOD& THE PROFILING. ABSOLUTELY COOL.
i thought we were going to like play REAL water games. but in the end we didnt, so like, THANK GOD. (:
GROUP 9: Debbie, Deborah, Wati, Alberta, Eunice, Siu Kian [SK JEWELRY!] and ME! WE'RE THE COOLEST. ~~AND WACKIEST.~~ MOST INNOVATIVE. (:
our version of how the 'murder' went was like: JC and JT are GAY, so they went to the garden to ahem ahem. then PH being the kpo followed them and hid in the bushes. Upon hearing rustling, JC thought it was a reporter in the bushes, so he shot a dart into the bushes. PH got hit. and JC and JT went away. GB then came on the way and saw PH there unconscious, and decides to KILL her with the shower head!

the real murder case: BS and JC are having an affair and they were making out in the garden, PH followed and hid in bushes. JC heard sounds and shot dart into bushes. PH got hit. JC and BS were shocked, so they ran away. M was doing yoga, and she heard noises. then she saw PH unconscious on the ground, called police. GB was bathing, heard noise, came down to investigate, decides to kill her with shower head he was using.

not bad aye! we got the right murderer! ((((: despite the massive and widespread use of HANTAM-NESS. (:
i guess in this type of situations, impressions change, and are rebuilt. (: like SK'S.
anyway, great workshop. though it started out abit dry. but it was good overall+ NEW FRIENDS MADE! YAYE! (:
now im back to the hectic week. im damn stressed.

The ghost of you and me- BBMAK

What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go when will this night be over

Chorus:
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call, following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

2008-07-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

today was a truly enjoyable day with my family. <333
family bonding and power! [ahaha, and i did my othello essay on the way. :x]
i miss those old times where we were able to go out as the ultimate four every weekend.
and now it comes and goes quickly, and i await with bated breath for the next one to arrive.

P.S. BREAKING DAWN IN 4 MORE DAYS [after the midnight!] <33333

More than words- Extreme
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now Ive tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

2008-07-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

Current Song playing: Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake
Mood: Tired and stressed.

i swear this blogskin is so totally MY KIND of blogskin. its so freaking SIMPLISTIC AND PLAIN. BUT SO DAMN PRETTY.
okay i was forced to change. :x cause the photobucket is lik out of band width or dunno what shit. i was perfectly happy and contented with my previous blogskin, cause its a pretty one too! but ARGH. never mind its okay! (: i have my nice nice pretty pretty skin with me now. WHOOTS.
and the song i'm listening to makes me think of TRAVIS WALL. and that final 4 group dance he did. HE WAS OH-SO-PERFECT in his dance luh! season 3's so you think you can dance aint as good. CURRENTLY. i hope it gets even better! (((((:

okay back to planning.

BYE. (:

2008-07-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

안녕하세요 ~
이것은 내 친구의 영감을합니다.
나는 바보 나는이 일을 잘 알고있습니다.
불행한 사변의 난 매우 피곤합니다. 그들을 멈추게 싶어합니다. 나는 싱가포르의 건국 기념일을 강조했다. 어쩌면 난 이상 - 성취를 너무 많이합니다.
좋은 것은 내 모든 숙제를 마친 나는 오늘! ^ ^ 그럼 주문 매운 떡보끼 내일 갈 수있습니다.
나는 내 뒤에로하는 모든 이들, 그리고 새로은 내일부터 시작합니다.
나는 지금 자러합니다.
잘자! 안녕 ~ ^ ^

2008-07-18T22:18:00.003+08:00

today's commendation was..... okay? pretty impressive at first and it started to get boring. -.- and i realised that somehow the church's architecture is made in such a way that you'll feel very small and insignificant and you'll have to always look UP. i dunno but thats my initial feeling luh. maybe it doesnt really apply to the TALLER people. -.- but man. i have to admit that the st andrew's cathedral interior looks reallyyyyyy beautiful. and it has the soothing effect as well. yep. it ended at around 1200. in between i was waiting ANXIOUSLY for the HC meeting to be confirmed! (((: and it did in the end! YAYE. and yes. moses sent a really funny message that went: 'oh you guys see the green cloth in front there? apparently to save time, they left the coffin inside there.' and i was like, -.- okay how you know. he replied 'oh can smell ma! im sitting at the second row, so even if the bishop fart i can smell/hear!' okay i have nothing to say about this tale. but its pretty unbelievable.

then GOMANIS went for LUNCH! gomanis: 3/5 romanis and 2/5 gomes. (: we settled down for lunch in the food court in the end cause everywhere else was quite full. [it was lunch peak hour then.] whoots. then we walked around and reached school at around 4. LOL.

HC MEETING: COOL. we had it in the geography room. and the attendance was not as good. -.- was regarding national day luh. okay have to start the proposal etc. (: i dont want to say much first. (:

yesterday during project work, nishanthi decided to go and take out the cedar yearbook at the library. we were sec 2 then. omg its so funny how people cant recognise me! and only edwin did. I APPLAUD THEE. (: ahahhahaha. ninny still had her bunk hair with specs. nishanthi didnt change much.

i just realised my post is filled with random pieces of information. omg. HAHAHA. im really very random.

i miss those days.

[edit]

0100: IM FINALLY DONE WITH MY OWN MINUTES.
oh damn i'm scared of screwing up National Day. I will have to do it WELL, since i got appointed.
off to sleep! i'm damn tired.

2008-07-17T21:44:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA. GOOD NEWS NUMBER ONE: EOM IS DUE NEXT WEEK! because our dearest miss zhou missed two full periods of project work with us last week due to her rhythmic gymnastics course. oh well. i think the only possible time for makeup will be next monday after all the chinese lesson, which is 1600 to 1700. >< damn the timing sucks. oh well. and i heard from denise there'll be a permanent literature lesson every thursday from 1500 to 1600. GREAT.

GOOD NEWS NUMBER TWO: THERE MIGHT BE A HC MEETING TOMORROW! that is if mrs quek approves of the national day proposal. AWESOME! it feels weird NOT having any meetings for a while. its at 1630, trophy room. (((:

GOOD NEWS NUMBER THREE: UH. okay not really a good news but oh well. TOMORROW WE HAVE ASSEMBLY AS OUR ONE AND ONLY LESSON. okay thats because of the commendation of the 31st student council. we'll have to go to st andrews cathedral. i have no idea what they're going to do there. heard there's going to be a lot of praying. okay okay. i have to control my eyeballs tomorrow.

GOOD NEWS NUMBER FOUR: i survived arranging tables for listening comprehension for level 2, D block! okay that's hyperbole alright. but anyway. IT WAS REALLY DAMN FUN! especially when you see a friend's name and you know where they're sitting! and after that you can pretend you're PSYCHIC and know where they are sitting specifically in a classroom! but apparently it didnt work in joshua's case, he said i was stalking him. -.- FOR WHAT LUH JOSHUA. -.- best joke i've heard man!

GOOD NEWS NUMBER FIVE: I FINALLY GOT RID OF MY DIZZINESS SOMEWHAT. at least almost most of it. WHICH IS GOOD. cause it has caused me SO MUCH INCONVENIENCE on monday and tuesday. being dizzy inside your head makes you feel like puking somehow but you wont puke. tuesday i couldn't take it anymore, and my mum asked me to go to the polyclinic. great thing to wait hours. but at least it wasn't more than 2 hours. uh. yes. the doctor made me do a blood test. just in case there was something wrong. yeh. but nothing wrong, in exchange i have a hole and a bruise on my arm, with a bottle of blood lesser from my bloodstream. LOL.

this post seems to be FULL of good news aye. just wanted to say:

THERE ARE TWO SIDES TO EVERY VIEW.

(((:

if you come back in my life, i'll be there till the end of time.

2008-07-14T21:34:00.003+08:00

WARNING: if you are allergic to vulgarities, please do not continue.

i've had ENOUGH.
all of your fucking lies. get away from me.
i dont want to hear your fucking voice anymore.
if you have the nerve to do all this shit, WHY DON'T YOU DARE TO ADMIT YOU DID IT.
all the fucking excuses you come up with.
i'm sick and tired of all the shit you sprout.
just, get away okay. i don't even want any contact with you, bitch.

i cannot stand how people are just oblivious to their surroundings.
it is just plain annoying. and that is just an understatement.
just thank you.

i feel miserable. and dont bother trying to do anything, lest you make it worse.
i shouldn't even have gone to school today, ended up taking the green slip to go back home to rest.

on a last note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOSES! (: sorry i didn't manage to do anything, i really wasn't feeling well.

Another wisdom tooth is coming out. and my gums hurt.

All these doesn't help.

2008-07-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO! if you see that i haven't been posting up properly/much, means that probably i'm at my LJ okay. LOL. :x in any case. i'm going to be superhero over this weekend! if you're thinking that i'm going to cosplay[?] or wear my underwear outside, nono you're wrong. by that i meant, i have ALOT of things to do and chiong out. what the hell right. ahahahaaa.

in any case. im going to be busy busy busy. lala. my eyes are probably going to pop again! T.T

i had duty for HC today, South Zone Key Personnel 360 degrees Feedback Session. i was standing over at the jacob ballas bridge, waiting for teachers to come. (: initially people who were walking past was giving me the, hello-why-are-you-standing-there-looking-like-a-emo-kid-look. but seriously, the bridge is a nice place for you to emo and reflect. [without looking at the murky yellow kallang river. :x] and i realised the KPs all came in bunches, as in, when one KP comes another few will be behind him/her. quite weird. but there wasnt much work to do. T.T and i counted. 15 people used the JB bridge. out of the possible 400 participants. ha.ha.ha.

podcast podcast podcast.
national day meeting!
SPEECH!
& the DRY RUN.
PW MEETING.
HOMEWORK!!!
STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY!!!!!

okay that's it. i'm going bonkers. madness.

music playing: walking away- craig david [this song is so the opposite of what i am/i can do now. -.-]
mood: GOING MAD!

2008-07-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

my phone bill is going to be so damn long that it'll flow ALL THE WAY TO INDONESIA, i swear, i can already foresee this. i've been relaying messages like mad for these few days/weeks i'm going crazy. LOL. i am so freaking tempted to change my damn singtel student plan to the starhub one with UNLIMITED sms-es. O.o but the forfeit sum i have to pay is crazy. i dont like it. damn.

and now i have to reduce my 3 min speech to 1 min plus when i've rushed it out yesterday night. oh well. it's okay. its not as if im so keen to crap for 3 mins, no one would want to listen to my voice luh please. :x but okay ours should be the last. uhm. the 2 weeks later. :xxxxx i'm kinda nervous. ah. ahaha.

today's event was pretty okay! (: although there weren't many people over at our side, but there are some. feel damn slackish. then before the briefing for friday's south zone key personnel meeting, most of the house councillors were in lt2. :x crapping like madness. and we had anthony [our lovely SAINTS IDOL! (((:] and jannah to sing for us! (((: damn cool. actually we were all pretty much self-entertaining. :xxx

and the supposed meeting for national day at 6 to 8++ was cancelled. and postponed to friday. [tentative] at 1730. okay. (: so the day ended on a pretty good note. but now i have no idea if im able to go collect my testimonial with yanhui shermin etc. :x should be able to luh, as long as i reach school in time for the meeting! from 1415 to 1515 is the event/duty, then 1515 to 1700 i should be able to collect my testimonial and reach in time for the meeting! (((: unless something crops up. o.o which i hope not.

and joshua just shocked me by telling me he saw me on the freaking omy website. damnnn. and i cant watch the vodcast! annoying! :x he said i am okay, so i think i didnt screw as badly as i thought i did. :x still damn shocked. though its like shot on 15 april, which feels like eons ago to me. :x

okay i realised i never did blog about college day. i shall just summarise. (: saints idol was COOL. some contestants were just pure annoying/cocky[?] okay, just one in particular. :xxx but it was pretty much enjoyable! and yes. OUR DEAREST ANTHONY LEE IS OUR SAINTS IDOL. and its real MADNESS trying to count his votes. my eyes popped and my brains burst. :x okay that was hyperbole. okay a jargon. lol.
street market was uhm. i don't know? i didnt have too much time to go around the stalls at all. most of the time was running around doing my duty. and i feel really bad to 08A05, cause like they're busy doing all the work for the lovely stall and i'm just not helping at all. T.T
FUN CHALLENGE was. to put it in a nice way, a game which shows ANOTHER SIDE of saints. heh. it was fun, i think. (: people were like running around like mad, stuffing food down their throats. :x and more more more running. :x

anyway, i thought college day was okay, for a first event. but after the debrief with mr ong, i found that we had ALOT that we could have done to improve the event more. oh well. it's over. but we'll all learn from our mistakes and make our next event more successful! (((((: 9th HC HWAITING!

next event: national day! the red-and-white pride!
ricky: MY WATER! [okay inside joke. :x]

2008-07-01T22:25:00.001+08:00

the song makes me really emotional. i miss everyone from cedar, at least those i know. everything from cedar. i miss those days. okay i'm going back to reading my proposal and timeline. bye people.

"Say Goodbye"- S club

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'd never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

2008-06-30T22:17:00.002+08:00

this is tagged by yanhui! im damn tired like shit now.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
probably tell him i'm really disappointed in him, and leave. crying comes afterwards. i don't know. ahahaha.

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
i would want all my good dreams to come true. (:

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
no one in particular for now. no energy luh. :x

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
i'll donate some to charity, bring my parents and sister to travel around the world, with korea being the first stop. then the rest i'll save up. (:

5. What's your ideal guy like?
tall, cute, has nice hands with short nice nails, nice smile, nice smiley eyes. hmm. then mr nice guy personality, and that the both of us can click so so well and that he understands me so well that he's my perfect soulmate. (((:

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
they are both blessing which brings pain in disguise.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
how would i know. -.- we'll let nature takes its course.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i'll just probably admire him from afar and forget about him.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
no not really.

10. If you can die in one way, how will it be?
dying in my sleep. but they say i wont know im dead. so okay carbon monoxide poisoning then. LOL

11. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
a fresh graduate working. (:

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?
my mum.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
my best friend in secondary school. and i miss her very much. she's the BEST.

14. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
single and rich

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
try to get myself out of bed without feeling dizzy.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
nope, i dont think so. humans are just selfish.

17. If you fall in love with two ppl simultaneously, who would you pick?
i'll wait for them to choose. LOL.

18. What type of ppl do you hate?
hypocritical people.
annoying people like me.

19. The eight ppl who you want to do this quiz?
anyone. im too tired to think.

2008-06-28T23:46:00.004+08:00

I WENT OUT WITH EUNICE CHUAH TODAY!
and i truly thoroughly enjoyed myself. i haven't felt so relaxed in such a long long long time. we watched the retarded 'get smart' movie, and it was really quite funny. though it was quite predictable. :xxx i have two movies that i want to watch now, 'WANTED' and 'TWILIGHT THE MOVIE'. (((((: i chop with eunice for twilight the movie already. (((((: its coming out on the 12 december. (: great! (: actually not so great cause its still a long way to december. i really hope the movie doesn't disappoint me. i'm sorry but i'm having high expectations! (((((: edwarddddd~ <3 anyway i pre-ordered my copy of 'breaking dawn' today at borders! thanks jannah for telling me that. but i cant wait to get my hands on it! and eunice is finally going to touch twilight. LOL. and random fact: my hands are peeling, as in the insides of my fingers, the palm side. i have no idea what is wrong with me. -.-

pictures: [okay they are almost the same, cause i look funny in both. LOL.]

2008-06-26T13:53:00.002+08:00

HAHAH i hope this isnt too late yet. (:
i'm slacking at home now. -.-

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Seeing my loved ones die before me.
2. Or just actually them dying.
3. LIZARDS.
4. Not doing well in my studies.
5. Getting some incurable disease and dying.
6. Coming into contact with lizards. -.-
7. Getting even fatter. T.T

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST
1. MUSIC! okay specifically, KPOP.
2. Spending time with family. (((:
3. Volleyball
4. 9TH HOUSE COUNCIL. (:
5. Going overseas!
6. The beach, the sea and the wind. *loves*
7. COFFEE!

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM
1. My money
2. My IC and ezlink.
3. My macbook with the internet connection of course. (:
4. My notes. :x
5. My handphone.
6. My books, as in storybooks. lol.
7. The cloth that i had since i was a baby. :xxx

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. I want to have photoshop on my macbook now. -.-
2. The sunburnt skin on my thigh is FINALLY starting to peel. =.=
3. I came back from raub, cheroh just 5 days ago, with a lot of recovering mosquito bites on me.
4. I am addicted to 19 岁的青纯.
5. I have no papers today. (((:
6. I have one more paper, GSC, left tomorrow.
7. I have to stay back in school till 7 tomorrow. T.T

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Travel around KOREA!
2. okay, bring my family travelling all around the world.
3. Learn how to speak korean.
4. Being able to plan my funeral. lol.
5. Be able to sort my assets among my family.
6. Read all the books i can!
7. uhm, i dunno! i havent really thought about it. maybe ask forgiveness from those i know.

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO
1. Play volleyball.
2. Speak/understand basic korean.
3. Have dejavu.
4. I am proudly. BILINGUAL. (:
5. Play netball.
6. Play softball.
7. Clean up my room. :x

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST
1. Uh..
2. Shit.
3. Crap.
4. I don't know/wo bu zhi dao.
5. Anything/ shui bian.
6. Okay.
7. HUH?!

SEVEN THING THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX
1. His hands. :x
2. Great smile. with that i meant nice teeth. :x
3. Height.
4. Those SMILEY EYES!
5. Personality.
6. Cuteness/boyish looks. LOL.

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES
1. Kim Junsu.
2. Kim Jaejoong.
3. Choi Shiwon.
4. Lee Hongki.
5. Choi Jonghun.
6. Lee Seung Hyun/Seungri.
7. Choi Seung Hyun/T.O.P

SEVEN PEOPLE THAT YOU'VE TAGGED:
i haven't tagged anyone. (: [x7] LOL.

2008-06-25T17:23:00.025+08:00

HEY GUYS!
this is my 100th post! ahahaha. took so long to hit a hundred aye. :x
anyway. to update you guys on my malaysia trip from the 16 June to the 21 June. [bad timing. -.-]

on the first day something really shitty happened when we reached. it's like my cousin liqi knocked into the glass door because the grills were not there, and the glass shattered. so uhm. he got really deep gashes and it was quite scary. i mean like, hello it was literally him in a pool of blood. you can even see the bones in his hand and legs. O.o yeh. so he got rushed to the hospital, and came back really late with more than 20/30 stitches on him. and he was stuck at home the whole 4 days because he cant walk. and when he finally got his crutches he was so DAMN HAPPY. lol.

oh and i was really worried when i was crossing JB. like omg. what if someone decides to grab my backpack with all my notes! then i'm just damn dead luh! :x okay this is retarded and weird.

then some of you guys might have heard me complaining about wanting to watch kungfu panda the whole time when i was in singapore. guess what. i managed to catch that in my grandma's house! but i got damn sick of it. -.- so far i watched:
kungfu panda: 6x
ah long pte ltd: 3x
kungfu slamdunk?: 3x
shrek: 1x
snakes on a plane: 1x [omg i tell you the boy cousins were salivating over this sex scene. O.O like what the shit luh!]
and some other movies that i forgot the titles already. :xxx
but yeh, it was really boring there, that i actually managed to study and do math there. like omg. -.- besides watching the movies. and the houseflies were madness. O.O the amount of houseflies on a palm size area can easily be over 50 flies. O.o and sorry i feel too disgusted taking a picture of it. :xxx

on the 2nd day there was a pasar malam. kinda cool cause its really different from singapore's type of pasar malam. its like really dark. -.- only one bulb at each stall. -.- but then the things they sell there is like what people there cant get normally. so yeh. ohoh! the scary thing is that there's one stall which sells PARANGS AND CHOPPERS AND THOSE CARVING KNIVES FOR RUBBER CUTTING. what the shit. damn terrifying. cause they dont keep them in cardboards. they put it in the open LIKE THAT. i mean like what if someone decides to grab the parang and stab you right through the stomach! o.O okay. too bad i didnt snap a picture of that. :x

oh, did you know. kids there wake up damn early. like all before 8 that kind. o.o partly because their parents have to go to rubber plantations/oil palm plantations to work luh. but omg. i didnt sleep well there. -.- and i ate wild boar meat without even knowing it luh. what the shit. -.- oh yes. most kids there have like a lot of muscles, little fats. like even my 2 year old cousin junkai, his calf muscles are so damn hard. :x random fact: my cousin, lin junjie, 12, has a GIRLFRIEND. what the hell right! :x

on the last night. something funny happened. junkai saw his daddy drinking beer and decides that he wants too. so he drank some, and became DRUNK. o.o evidence: he peed on the floor. he did this stunt every year without fail, last year also. LOL.

okay enough talking, i'll let the pictures speak for themselves! (((:

okay just to show how i went crazy at the amount of things i had to study that i scribbled on my table as well. :x

ahahha. (: from left to right: my sister, my cousin yingying, 2-year old going 3 year old cousin junkai, and 15 year old cousin ruyi.

sorry i like the reflection. :x

more pictures of junkai! he's so cute right! (:

yingying is super camera-shy. so this is a candid shot. (:

left to right: junyang and liqi. yes liqi is the one who got over 20/30 stitches.

liqi being happy on his crutches, or what they call it over there, tongkat.

candid shot of sister and yingying again. (:

sister trying to hide from the camera, resulting in this cool effect. ^^

ah boy [jingsheng] was trying to sleep.
random fact, he's 9 this year.

he realises i'm taking his photo.

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then he pretends to sleep but smile to the camera at the same time. -.-

ah boy and his father. and what we call: bu lun zhi lian. HAHAHA. :x

my waipo, maternal grandmother in other words. (: i thought i took a picture of my granddad, but apparently i didnt. -.-

ah boy demands that i take another picture of him. :x
another random fact: he's 57kg. O.o

junyang acting gangsterish. LOL.

ahahah. they are camwhores.

uhm. no comments. :x

a fake punch taking place. -.-

me, junyang, liqi.

junyang and i. (:

on the way to the guangying temple. the scenery damn nice right. but super ulu also. lol. and damn alot of mosquitoes. :x

aint the sky so nice! its the setting sun. (((((:

my sister, my mum, cousin ruyi, yingying and her mum, who's my dayi. (:

this is the old palm, if you guys didnt know. (:

more pictures of junkai! (((:

this is my lin jun jie. LOL. his name is really lin jun jie luh.

lin jun yang.

ruyi's wonderful hair tying skills. O.o

ahboy pretending to sleep again, but you see the deceptive smile.

junyang couldnt stand it anymore, so he decides to kick ahboy's face. LOL.

junyang acting cute. -.-

the two brothers! (:

junjie and junyang, the two brothers!

liqi, his mum [xiaoyi], ahboy, and the three brothers!

junkai with his daddy. (: btw, junkai is currently at that time, very drunk that he peed in the house. AHHA. as in he drank beer. :x

the three sisters. LOL. left to right [youngest to oldest], xiaoyi, my mum, dayi

junjie being naughty.

random shot of yingying which i thought is very nice. (:

look at the retarded look on my sister's face. LOL. :x

shot of everyone, who were all quite unready. :x

junkai with his new ears.

junkai and i. (((((:

junkai staring in despair at the bags, we were going home that day. T.T

yeh thats all. (:and yes. blogger's uploading makes HD pictures become shitty.

2008-06-11T22:42:00.002+08:00

hey guys. today was a bad day. seriously. i woke up feeling like shit etc. -.- but got better. thank god. then there just had to be drilling at the void deck of the opposite block. damn noisy and annoying. and great. i couldnt concentrate. damn shit. i'm just damn annoyed. doesnt help that im feeling brain dead for 2 days in a row. -.-

2008-06-02T22:07:00.003+08:00

hey guys. ^^ i just wanted to say that i'll most probably won't be blogging much from today onwards. unless i have something that i really have to get out of myself, if not i won't blog. i'm sorry about this. but i cannot help it. there's too many things i have to do, revision, house council meetings, homework etc etc etc. i NEED to concentrate on my studies. hmm. i can say this is like a sort of abstinence. haha. it's just too bad that i have so many things to do and so little time. yeh. oh yes. i'm going to stay away from my macbook and messenger too. i'm not going to touch my mac. except for the occasional email checks, and moodle, and thats all i guess. so if there's anything, message me or drop me an email. i'm like freaking busy. -.- damn bad luh. oh well. see you guys AFTER the common test. T.T I'M DEAD.

randomness: i'm scratching A LOT now, i dont know why. -.- [sounds like someone? :x] and my nose is peeling. O.O i hope my arms peel soon. :xxx

my wake up call.
i think i am drifting further and further away.

미안해요.

2008-05-31T15:36:00.003+08:00

HI GUYS IM BACK FROM HC CAMP!

i just wanted to say that i enjoyed the camp ALOT. seriously. despite the disgustingly smelling toilet where we had to bathe and all the punishments we had to do. i really liked the whole camp a lot. it has really brought the whole 9th House Council SO TIGHTLY KNITTED together. everyone got to know one another better and it was really a good experience. i love the SEA EXPEDITION like MADNESS! i was in a kayak, whoots! its like you're in this small kayak with a partner, [EMI!] and you can see the blue blue sky and feel the sun shining down on you, the wind caressing your face and the tides cradling you and your partner. i love it so much. its something i would totally want to do forever. land expedition was funfunfun too! we get to roll in mud! ad it was really cool. only downside is that we dirtied our highlighter shirt the first time we wore it. damnnn. ahhaa. i think im going to scream if i cant get the dirt out. T.T field cooking, GREAT, kudos to the cooks, the food was really GOOD, the best outdoor food cooked that i've tasted! <3 ahahaha the rest of us were carrying back the kayaks etc. forgot to say that there was this huge group of army guys[commanders/do-s too] on the beach when we came back and we were all asking debbie to choose one husband amongst them. AHAHAHA. then there was this really nice commander who decided to help us carry the kayaks! so nice can! we probably look like we were going to die under the weight of the kayaks. :x and we were too tired after kayaking/ paddling [for the rafters] for around 9km +++ HAAH.

by the way, the teachers, mr jerry chua, mr ben soh, mr jonathan yoong, ms tay, ms su, are all really nice and cool. especially mr jerry chua and mr ben soh! they're really spontaneous! and we named our new team member, [a watermelon. :x] BJ! i hope you guys see the link. :x oh yes. and we pushed mr chua into the milo[aka mud and dirty dunnowhatelse] pool! AHHAHA. :x he's our daddy, and we're his kids. loved his analogy.

i slept in the same a hut as debbie, deborah and candice. they're really funny luh! ahahahaa. (: I LOVE ROMANISSSSS! <3
i forgot to talk about high elements, specifically, the challenge pole. it was DAMN EXHILARATING! hahahaha so many people were staring luh, not just trainers teachers and hc peeps, but also others from YJ [i think] AHHAA. but i love the view up there! (: night walk was okay, but no torchlight no moonlight, so i was pretty blind the whole time. T.T

anyway, i'm STARING at my RED RED RED SKIN. AHAHA. i've got really cool [BAD TOO] SUNBURNS on my arms and legs and face~ from the sea expedition. LOL. i only put sunblock of SPF 135[O.O from emi!] on my face and still kena~ LOL. it's okay! i like. dunno why also. but recently i've been having this sudden urge of wanting to get sunburn and peel my skin. so my wish is granted! YAYE. bad thing is that i didnt manage to even out my tan line on my arms. its damn ugly. oh well whatever, HAHA. my burns are all hurting together with the abrasions and bruises and muscle aches. GREAT. hahahahha. im super tired. but im just really satisfied, cause i washed everything from the camp already! and i bathed too! omg such satisfaction from a bath. (((: im supposed to sleep. but its okay i wanna like blog finish this. :x

last words; NINTH HOUSE COUNCIL ROCKS! AND I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS!

2008-05-28T22:43:00.001+08:00

hey guys!
i'll be going off for my camp from tomorrow 29 may all the way to 31 may! soo, dont miss me guys! (:

AND AHAHAH. sorry collin, cannot accompany you through these 3 days, LOVESICK ~~KID~~ COLLIN! HEH. (:

see you guys. (: on the 31. i'm damn tired.

2008-05-26T23:06:00.002+08:00

i dont know how to put this across properly. but. it feels like, because of which position you stand at, people avoid you and don't talk to you. they feel that you're putting on airs no matter how much you've tried to blend in to them; they just feel you dont belong. it really sucks to feel that way. i dont think anyone would understand how i feel.

no one does.
i miss people who truly understands me.

thank god i have my mum with me, i love her to bits.

2008-05-24T18:44:00.003+08:00

ahahha i've recently been extremely addicted to this song, 'only love' by trademark. it looks seemingly happy/optimistic, but sounds really sad to me. T.T oh well. heh. nothing much to say, except that this holiday is going to be a mad rush for me, and i'm going to be so tired and everything. -.- i'm definitely not going to have a extremely good rest. but what to do, sacrificial time for STUDIES/GRADES and HC. soo, NO PROCRASTINATION. and shit, i havent done anything but read newspapers and the many many many time magazines that were left unread. :x damn.

Only Love- Trademark
2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do

I'm really disappointed. why did you have to do this to me. i've been thinking about you. i have so much to say, but forget it. ~~blogging about this is so not private luh.~~ you've just stabbed me right into my heart. thanks a lot. you're unbelievable. *rolls eyes*

2008-05-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

i'm quite happy. cause i kinda got my urge back. and i love the feeling. must be because of the amount of homework i had to chiong during the weekend. i mean like, there isn't ALOT of homework, but it's how hard the homework is. -.- yeh. the homework was hard. especially the econs assignment. damnit. i feel like shit after doing it. but the urge is greater now. and i feel happy because of that. (: okay jiayou agnes, you can do it, and you will do it! ^^

i officially only have two weeks to study properly over the june holidays. which isn't good. damnit. T.T
that means i have to work doubly hard. cause you people have twice the amount of time as compared to me. -.-ll *screams unfairness* oh well. thats life. :x

2008-05-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

guys, I'm sorry for that sudden show of drama, i couldn't take it anymore. i'm really sorry for that unpleasant experience and yeh. thanks for all the comforting.

thanks to shermin, yiting, karen, qianru, nishanthi, wenhui, tiffany, eleanor, denise, alpha, natalie, grace, the guys: moses, jason, edwin, sirhan, basically, the whole of 08A05. i really love you guys. and yes. weida, mervin. a big big big thank you to all of you guys. i feel better now. emotionally.

미안해요.

사랑앓이- F.T. island

그리울때 눈감으면 더 잘보이는 그런사람
잊으려 하고 지우려 하면 더 많이 생각 나는 사람

그사람 꼭 올꺼라고 내가슴에 해로운 거짓말을하고
꼭 올꺼라는 말은 안했지만 기다릴수밖에 없는 사람

너무나 많이 사랑한 죄 널 너무나 많이 사랑한 죄
난 너로인해 그 죄로인해 기다림을 앓고 있다고
내가 더 많이 사랑한 죄 널 너무나 많이 그리워 한 죄
난 너로인해 그 죄로인해 눈물로 앓고 있다고 .. 이렇게

그사람 꼭 올꺼라고 내가슴에 해로운 거짓말을하고
꼭 올꺼라는 말은 안했지만 기다릴수밖에 없는 사람

너무나 많이 사랑한 죄 널 너무나 많이 사랑한 죄
난 너로인해 그 죄로인해 기다림을 안고 있다고
내가 더 많이 사랑한 죄 널 너무나 많이 그리워 한 죄
난 너로인해 그 죄로인해 눈물로 앓고 있다고 ..

헤어짐 넘 빠른 사랑 잊혀짐은 늘 더딘사랑
늘 나에게만 늘 모진사랑 나 혼자 앓고 있었다고

그대 나를 이렇게 멀리 떠나가야만 했니
그대 나를 이렇게 멀리 떠나가야만 했니

그냥 내목숨다바쳐 사랑할껄 이젠 날잊고 살아갈 무정한 너
그냥 내전불 다바쳐 사랑할껄 이젠 날잃고 살아갈 너

내목숨 다바쳐서 사랑할 사람
내게는 눈물만 주고 간 사람
늘 나에게만 늘 모진사랑 나 혼자 앓고 있었다고

내가 더 많이 사랑한 죄 널 너무나 많이 그리워 한 죄
난 너로인해 그 죄로인해 눈물로 앓고 있다고 .. 이렇게

the translations:

Love Sick- F.T. Island
translation by: HyoJung (also credit: aheeyah.com)

When you cry, you can close your eyes and clearly see that person
When you forget and ignore, you’ll remember that person even more

That person will come back, my heart is a seaway; with lies
I didn’t tell you I would come back; you’re someone who can only wait

It was a mistake to love you too much, a mistake to love you too much
Because of you, because of what I love, I suffer from waiting
To love you more was a mistake, a mistake to desire you so much

That person will come back, my heart is a seaway; with lies
I didn’t tell you I would come back; you’re someone who can only wait

It was a mistake to love you too much, a mistake to love you too much
Because of you, because of what I love, I suffer from waiting
To love you more was a mistake, a mistake to desire you so much

The breakup was so fast, if you forget love you’ll know more
To me you were my love, I knew that by myself

You left me, and went somewhere faraway
You left me, and went somewhere faraway

I should have loved you my whole life and now you’re going to forget me and go
I should have loved you all to myself and now you’re going to forget me and go

You’re the one that I loved for my entire life
But you just left me with grief
I knew it all to myself

Because I loved you more, it’s a sin, because I missed you it was a sin
Because of you, I cried because of my sins… like this

2008-05-06T21:23:00.002+08:00

she glared at her. uncontrollable anger just rose up from within her. hatred, anger, disappointment. she hated seeing her in that outfit, maybe she's secretly envious and jealous of her? maybe. probably. could be. but most of all, above all, she hated herself the most. for not being able to wear that, and being unable to get in there. she is disappointed with her academics, she hates herself for being stupid. she hates herself for not performing well at the appropriate timings. fate, she says. but she does not want to admit so. she tries to act nonchalant about it. but inside she is hurting very badly, as though a knife sliced through her inner organs, especially her heart. she feels that she cannot breathe, she feels that she is weak.

she tries to act nonchalant about it all. All about it, a nonchalant attitude.

2008-05-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

i finally got my microsoft office! thank you mummy and daddy! (((: i love my hoodie. sorry i have a lot of random thoughts now. :x i saw the inside of my dad's wallet today again. and i saw the photos of my sister and i side by side, when we were young. it was kind of heart warming. but again. why young baby photos. maybe because that time we were just so innocent and cute that we dont argue with him or anger him at all, is it just a symbolism of how much he wants to return to the past? okay maybe i'm reading too much into it. sorry. hahahaha random random random.

she sits by the window, watching seasons change, watching people past, watching, watching, watching. tears slid down her pale, perfect complexion and dripped down onto her open, frail hand. drip. drip. drip. her tears are never-ending, it is like a stream, it flows. her breathing is even. she is unresponsive, oblivious to things happening around her. her tears just flow. never-ending. never stopping.

then a flash of red.

2008-05-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

1 May 2008, Thursday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY AND GRANDDAD AND ME.
SENTOSA was cool. but it kinda made it sad too. like it's like this sudden rush of emotions when i see the 4zedders who were present. because i've seen them, it magnifies the yearning and longing to see them regularly, laugh with them, for the past to replay again. it's just overwhelming, to an extent that i almost wasn't able to take it. hearing the rest go on and indulge in their happy jc life makes me wonder why my jc life sucks so much. oh well it all boils down to perceptions again, like i told shermin. someone who loves SA will think SA is wonderful no matter what, and someone who dislikes SA will think otherwise. This is like further proven by Sirhan, who thinks TJ _____, whereas i love it to no end, and i dont know why. some things just have no explanation.

thanks to yanhui, eunice, terrance, collin, melo, shermin, atiqah, tiffany, mujia, szewaiy, simin, seon, daphne, denyse, eleanor, yiting, edwin, tian rong, nishanthi, wenhui, yiting, jiaqi, su-ann, colleen, celeste, elyssa, kevin, qianru, yuki, 4ZED and etcccccc people whom im-so-sorry-but-i-cant-remember-please-pardon-this-old-woman-who-has-short-term-memory. yeh. thank you so much for all your wishes, and some-gifts. i love you guys! *sends LOVE*

2 May 2008, Friday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN!
parliament house is damn cool. and i wish i had a house like that. T.T

3 May 2008, Saturday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY!

my mum FINALLY says yes to me putting braces. not now though wisdom tooth is killing me. -.-

2008-04-30T22:51:00.004+08:00

tomorrow's FOURZED'S GATHERING! i CANT WAIT. (: i've missed everyone like crazy.
but amidst all these, i am supposed to work and study. crap. how to! ARGHHH. :x cause like the whole day spent at sentosa with 4Z, then celebratory dinner out. whooots. tell me. how to work. AHAHAHA. okay whatever.

on my way out to safra with jason, i realised that he has REALLY INTERESTING FRIENDS. AHHAHA. finally met the OTHER victor from chs, and weida properly. ahhha. COOLIOS. (: bitch club. tsktsk. (:

CURRENT RECORD: I'VE BEEN AWAKE FOR MORE THAN 21 HOURS AND STILL COUNTING.

opps. talk about that, ahahaha i've been awake since 2+ this morning till now. :x homework kills. -.- oh well i love my mum for making coffee this morning for me. (((: a great help. and CAFFEINE ROCKS!

i guess i kinda mistook him. sorry. just wanted to apologize to him. take care okay. i know you will never read this. AHHAA. :x

I WANT MY MICROSOFT OFFICE FOR MAC! AND MY ECLIPSE AND BREAKING DAWN! DAMN. :X

2008-04-28T17:08:00.002+08:00

IRRITATION. ANNOYANCE. PISSED. ANGER. FURY. LIVID. RAGE. IRRITABILITY. WRATH. AGGRAVATED. INFURIATED. IRKED. MADDENED. ENRAGED. INCENSED. IRE. PIQUED. VEXED. CHAGRIN. EXASPERATION. SPLEEN. PEEVED. MIFFED. RILED. HATRED. CHEATED.
DISAPPOINTMENT. DISPIRITEDNESS. DESPONDENCY. DISTRESS. DISGRUNTLEMENT. REGRET. WOUNDS. BLOOD. TEARS.
DEPRESSION. UNHAPPINESS. MELANCHOLY. MISERY. WOE. DESPAIR. HOPELESSNESS. UPSET. TEARFULNESS. REPRESSED. ESCAPISM.

well. that basically sums up everything that i'm feeling for the whole day after my lunch. i hope it is emphasized well enough. and it should be crystal clear. i'm sorry for those around me who had to face my wrath. im really sorry. especially to shermin. terrance too. and wenhui. and those who are like around me and got irritated. sorry. thanks for trying to cheer me up, shermin and terrance. love you guys so much. <3 especially terrance. ahaha. thanks guys.

just wanted to say i've regretted and am still regretting, that i withdrew from my dream school. freak luh. but then again, if i had appealed, i wouldnt have met great friends like terrance. (: ahaha. oh well. time to study for lit assignment tmr.

i'm so sorry, but my heart is just so filled with hatred now. i hate the school. and take note of the diction. it is HATE. no longer dislike. or what. but HATE. thank you very much. i feel more more more of it now than ever. hate hate hate. i am not those people in 1984, i am not taught to hate the school. it is not indoctrinated. it is true. from the bottom of my heart. only those around me are able to make me feel a little better. just a little. it has taught me much. it has taught me how much hatred i have for the school, it has made me learn something about myself, i never knew so much hate existed in me, i never taught it possible. never. ever. i cant even comprehend where and how all these hatred came from. i have never hated before. all these hate that stems from my heart has made me a hateful, despicable, vile person. im sorry guys, i wasnt able to offer you a better friend, i wasnt able to be a better me, a better friend, a better class rep, a better daughter, a better person. i'm just damaged and marred. im really sorry. i dont seem to be able to wipe off the hatred. or the scars and flaws. im really sorry. i cant wait to get out. im so sorry. but i feel like some asshole. some traitor. but my life has been deceitful here, a fraud. and i cant shake off this fucking feeling that i've been cheated. but again, i have no one to blame but myself. i am one huge dumbass. too bad agnes, too bad. you're too stupid to save your own ass. just go and study.

i scream, FRAUD FRAUD FRAUD! DECEPTION! CHEATS! I HATE YOU!

2008-04-17T22:12:00.002+08:00

last time, i was afraid of my dad. not because he's fierce or what. but because he is a guy. i fear him. i didn't like him. to be more precise, i didn't like to be around him, i feel uncomfortable around him, for one reason or another, i just try to run as far away from him as possible.
but now i kinda missed him, seeing how he only reaches home after eight thirty at night regularly instead of the usual seven plus. i don't feel the awkwardness anymore. i guess it's just a adolescent stage that people go through, okay, maybe it's just me. oh well. i love my dad. and i love my mum.

this week was hell, hectic. especially the start of the week. i was totally so freaking flustered that people around me might just have thought that i was pms-ing. no i am not, just fyi. i'm just really stressed, and that led to annoyance and irritation, and in the end it became anger. sorry to those who suffered my wrath, i apologize. it's unfair for you guys to kena this kind of shit from me. damn.

i can't wait for the weekend to come.
most importantly, i can't wait for june holidays to arrive~ around one more month, 5 weeks!
i'm sure time passes very quickly. (:

2008-04-11T22:13:00.002+08:00

Life is a Bitch, as quoted from shermin. [:x] hugely agree with that. contributing factors: your surroundings, and the people around you. in the past, i never felt such hatred towards my life. thats because the people around me were all SO NICE. their kindness covered up the evil deeds of THE Bitch, you wont even notice her evil aurora and presence. but once all these nice people are gone, you'll suddenly be overwhelmed by the shit this Bitch is doing to you. 거짓말. this is the shittest time im having now. people say college life is so damn fun. i have doubts about that. doubts. doubts. and more doubts. sorry, im in self-denial now, im trying to escape. 미안해요.

다 거짓말 이야 몰랐어.

2008-04-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

15 minutes before the end of 6 April 2008.
sorry my dear yanhui, only managed to come online at this time to announce your birthday on my blog.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST FRIEND!
thank you for all the memories you have given me during these four years. they are etched deeply in my mind, all the time we've spent together, during training, lessons, and going out. it feels weird to not being able to celebrate your birthday with you this year, in school especially. i miss singing happy birthday for you. i miss so much of your crapping. i miss your singing and humming. i even miss your violence, somehow. i miss you so so so much. its just- unbearable to be unable to see you after four long years. its true when they say, only when you've lost it, you'll learn to cherish it more. sigh, the cruelty of human nature, ignorance. oh well. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and i'll love you always! remember- 'my heart for you is blue/ i want to hug you like the sky.' LOL. :x

the gaping hole that is left in me, the scar there, forever. when you guys left, you took a piece of me with you. no one is here to fill it up, you guys are irreplaceable.
the emptiness within me.
the loneliness surrounding me.
the darkness encompassing me, engulfing me, swallowing me.

i tried to wave away the darkness, tried to tear it away, tried to claw it away, but to no avail.
i tried to swim out of this darkness, i struggled, strained, strove on to swim out- but i am not resurfacing.
i gave up, my hands trailing weakly down by my sides.
the darkness overtook me, i didnt bother doing anything.
despite the hole in me, i sank and sank.
sank to the unfathomable bottom, never ever resurfacing.

darkness attacks.
my body sways, swings, flips, flings, rolls.
blood flows freely from the limbs, the torso.
the blackness no longer engulfs me, now the crimson red, dark red, black red.
i am battered, blown, busted.
dead dead dead.
the dead end.

my soul goes on, unhurt, and our legacy lives on.

2008-04-05T16:40:00.002+08:00

im having difficulty in concentrating on what i am supposed to be doing now. shit. damn irritated. i need to continue~ and try to concentrate. this sucks luh. but oh well. what can i do yo. concentrate concentrate concentrate! somehow my mind just flits around. after a while. -.- it was okay earlier on. ARGH.
CONCENTRATE!

2008-04-02T21:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SPECIAL FRIEND TODAY~ love you always! (: on this special day i want to say out all my appreciations for you. ((((: thanks for all the help and support you have given me all along. and i just want to apologise for all the tantrums, rantings and ramblings i've hurtled at you at times, i'm sorry for that. just wanted to say that i appreciate all that you've done, and yes, i thank god gladly that i've met such a great friend like you. (: wish you good luck in whatever you'll do and JIAYOU! (:

i love 2 April 2008~ <3
today's a great day. heh.

2008-04-01T22:55:00.002+08:00

when someone makes a mistake, and another person corrects it with a harsher tone, the person will just attitude at you thinking you are some shit. no matter how much you try to correct him or her, if he/she does not realise your rationale behind you correcting him/her, then just don't waste your efforts, they'll never learn. and even better, they talk behind your back, bitch about you and everything. so the moral of the story is: only 'scold/nag/lecture/reprimand' someone when he/she knows what/why are you doing this, if not you're just doing the classic 對牛彈琴. which is quite dumb, you're just wasting your saliva. he/she will just think that they're not in the wrong. always in the right. i learnt this from someone who lives under the same roof as me, the only one other who's younger than me. the inhumane one. her hamartia is horrendous. i doubt she'll ever be repentant of all that shit she's done. she ~~fucking~~ killed everyone with her damnit horrible foul temper, and i swear i'm so going to turn into a revenger one day. DDD: but yeh, my main point is that. it's THAT bad. i'm going of wash my hands off her.

2008-03-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

im under tremendous stress that i'm breaking out. firetruck. recently im in a EXTREMELY irritable mood, really try not to annoy me unless you want to get stared at or barked at. this is the longest time i've been in such a bad mood, since friday. cannot stand it. dunno what the hell is wrong with me. GAH. i need to study. i need to get reassurance. i need so stay steady. i cannot stand it when my boat rocks TOO MUCH, as it is doing now. BAH. sorry for the random exclaimation. when you see such short posts, it means that i have a strong surge of emotion that i have to get out of me. if the post is long, its just an experience, or just trying to show that im very free. im feel very bad to the people around me, they have to stand all these shit coming from me. i'm sorry, 진자 미안행요. sorry for being such an asshole and everything. sorry sorry sorry. i feel bad. it sucks to be surviving as a failure. i wish i were just a simple passer-by looking upon all these, and shaking my head in sympathy, then walking away- without having to heave any responsibilities. its bad enough disliking, and all these is just making me increase my dislike for it. damnit.

2008-03-30T13:17:00.003+08:00

after reading something, i felt so pissed. like again, its the same reason. i never felt so crappy before- seriously. i totally cannot believe i lost out to her. why. why. why. i just feel like crying all over again. anyway. i deserved it, who asked me to go and read that, no one, curiosity got the better of me and curiosity killed the cat. in this case, my heart, my mind. my fault. i died- deep inside of me. 我現在是行屍走肉. uselessness. weakness. futility. i hope i can get in. ha, the great irony. i dunno why i didn't. its like weird huh. no one will know what im talking about. ~~maybe besides shermin. and collin.~~

p.s. to shermin: yeh goodbye. and i'll miss you loads. ):

미안해요, 진자미안해요.

2008-03-28T15:06:00.003+08:00

i'm just a failure. at everything. i swear. this is the most firetrucking irritating day ever. i'm just so pissed, so depressed and dunno what other shit. i just want to tuck myself away from the face of the earth- i want to escape from this brutal reality. i hate it- this isn't fair. i cant freaking believe she got it while i didnt. freak freak freak. its just so. unreal. i want to die. and i swear, die crying. not that im trying to be dramatic or what, but this is how exactly i'm feeling like now. goodbye people.

2008-03-25T22:28:00.003+08:00

i've been feeling so freaking tired these few days. i have no idea why. it's like, energy is drained out of my not-so-minute body at such a high rate that no amount of sleep can replace this high rate of energy loss. all i can do is to get as much sleep as i can get at anytime, everywhere. you can like see my head down on the table trying to rest. its so pathetic you know- knowing that no amount of sleep can suffice my exhaustion. this sucks. i have no idea what happened to me. its like, a sudden thing. not that i've done anything crazy or what, besides going for trainings and stuff. this is like so GREAT. T.T ~~that i feel like crying~~ i've been drifting in and out of consciousness this few days in classes. like seriously. the only thing that keeps me awake during lessons are either the teachers are THAT interesting [not THAT much of this option, to be truthful. :x] OR i've been taking my pencil to scribble BIGBANG and seungri and T.O.P and daesung and jiyong and taeyang's name on the papers. and to be honest. this sometimes doesnt work. i think i'll resort to sweets. since the damnit drinks stall decided to cut off my nescafe canned coffee supply in school, and i have no caffeine to rely on to stay awake, i'll need sweets. T.T i think caffeine would be so much of a better choice, though it's really bad for health luh, and it'll eventually become an addiction, but it's not that 'fattening', in a way. damnit, i want my coffee. ))): although it'll stain my teeth and everything, i don't care- as long as i stay ~~awake~~ conscious in lessons and can pay attention, i don't really care if my teeth or whatever is at stake. T.T i feel so desperate. i need help to stay awake. shit shit shit. :x okay i think i better go off now. before that. one picture of me in action:

AHAHAH joking luh. thats SEUNGRI IN ACTION. LOL.
whatever, im going off. bye.

2008-03-21T21:57:00.006+08:00

Happiness Meme :D :
List ten things that recently made you happy, then tag ten people to do the same.
uh, i tag anyone who wants to do. :x

1. BIGBANG!
2. LALALA MV- UBER CUTE, [all the shirt lifts and butt shaking~ <333]
3. I RAN 4.8KM++ ON THURSDAY, which is yesterday, & OTHER DRILLS[PUSHUPS,SITUPS,HEELLIFTS,FULLSSQUATS ETC]
~~as you can see, i like to self-torture. :x~~
4. i had lunch with shermin and huijuan on thursday, uh, yesterday!
5. i FINALLY went to collect my apple protection.
6. updated my phone with bigbang goodness! <3
7. STARING AT SEUNGRI! CUTE BOY. <3
8. STARING AT TEMPO! HOT[wellnotexactly] BOY. <3
9. its good friday today! holiday=SLEEP!
10. i had breakfast with my mum today. <333

okay, yesterday's PT was hmm, okay i guess, but this was the first time i ran so many rounds for any sports training, lol. 8 rounds around the track, from lane 1 to 8, then cooldown 4 rounds lane 1 to 4.~~see how slack is volleyball with running.~~ but the running was okay, it was the speed[?] training. the one with the timing and all and we're supposed to do situps, pushups, full squats, heel lifts etc, for uhm 2[?] mins and rest for 10 secs, then continue. yeh, that kills. >< but it felt good after the training ended. lol. i thought the muscle aches today would kill, but it aint that bad. (: it's more achy at my legs area only. (((: ALOT better than what i had expected. thought i would just die on my bed today totally. AHHAHA. :x have to go CCAB for hockey training tomorrow, have to reach by 0730. i should sleep by 11+ today. (:

i havent started on homework/revision. GREAT. ))): [jason would be SOO CHEERED UP by this fact, i swear. -.-

anyway! i haven't been FANGIRLING for SO LONG. >< JUST LET ME FANGIRL OKAY! BIGBANGGGGGG! i swear, seungri is like SUPER CUTE. LOL. even atiqah thinks seungri is cute okay! okay im like HAHA-ING over LALALA MV+PERF. [which is like millions of years ago. im slow, i know, hahaha.] its HILAROUS I SWEAR, LOOK AT TEMPO's EXPRESSION ESPECIALLY. :X

AHAHAHA TEMPO'S THE ONE ON THE EXTREME LEFT, HIS ATTEMPT AT SEDUCTION IS A HUGE HUGE FAILURE. AHAHAHAHA. SEUNGRI'S THE SECOND ONE FROM THE EXTREME LEFT. (:

okay this is so lameeeee. :x i should post a nice nice picture of them, dont spoil their image. :x

then of course, random seungri cuteness:

hot tempoo:

ahahha yes, my happiness. <333 anyway, sorry this got image heavy. :x picture credits to: soompi bigbang official thread. (:

2008-03-16T23:29:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY NEW SONGS ON THE BLOG. <3
LOL.
sudden craze on bigbang.
holidays. are. AHAHA.
homework. homework. homework.
and.
SPAZZING OVER BIGBANG.
i dunno how slow i can get, seriously.

goodbye baby.

2008-03-13T19:59:00.002+08:00

the wet weather recently dampens everyone's mood, especially mine. T.T it's so sickening, especially when you're going out to have fun, but you can't really do so because of the rain. and i really REALLY don't like getting wet, [besides swimming.] and my best friend for the whole week has been- my umbrella. -.- i wonder what's wrong with the sun. has it been scarred by pimples such that it doesn't dare to show its face for the whole week? oh man, what the hell. :x

and yes i swear i'm going to shorten my life by 3 years at least can. stupid people around me has been smoking like shit. they should just eat the cigarette without having to light it, then there wouldn't be smoke and without smoke, poor people like me wouldn't suffer. so all in all, every smoker should just start by eating their cigarette. :x AHHAHAHA a GREAT IDEA right.

apple care is finally in stock! but i'm extremely lazy to go collect it, cause of the weather. -.- I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MY HOMEWORK! JIAYOUJIAYOU! <3

~~it was someone's birthday.~~

2008-03-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

the pile of homework on my table is making me extremely agitated. i dont feel like going out for any outings anymore. i just want to finish up my homework. quite a scary thought eh. i know its seemingly impossible that i'll ever tell everyone that, 'hey, im not going out with you guys for any outings anymore, i wanna finish my homework.' ahahaha dont worry, im not going to do that. but im scared that i cant finish my homework. lol. cause yeh, 3 outings consecutively in a week, which is like extremely crazy to me, i never do go out for so many times in a week. call me toot or whatever.

i better go do my homework or im really going to have a fit and convulsions and twitch and flip and roll on the floor and foam at the mouth and die. :x whatever to me, kudos to homework. T.T it kills, when consumed in HUGE DOSAGE.

sorry for the retardedness, i had to let some of my agitation out, or im really going to explode, and everyone is going to be extremely agitated too.

lucky atiqah, she doesnt have any homework. what is that man, so unfair. -.- oh well im going to stay up till late into the night to do my homework. ~~and turn up like a panda tmr for 08A02's sentosa outing tmr. :x~~

2008-03-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

when i look at others raving over their jcs, i wonder how is that possible- i have experienced that before in cedar, the loyalty and love to the school. but currently i feel none of that. well i guess its for the good of myself, in a way. the cedar gang in 08A05 is going to MUG. these two years are going to fast, its going to fly. and technically speaking, it isnt even a full two years. minus the pae period its like 1 3/4 year left. minus the holidays and the a level period it'll be like, around 1 1/4OR1/2 year left. not much time. so its important that i stay focused. cedar gang jiayou okay! we'll just knock out the theory of shermin's aunt! =x oh well. it was really mean to say that anyway. the branding of schools. =.= its just too bad. but im just going to prove everyone wrong. ~~at least i hope i can~~ this really sucks. apparently im not the only one who's not so good. i miss too many people. alot alot alot. i think i need to move on. but its still a little hard for me. this sucks. my life aint going to be pretty. but oh well, im surviving, at least.

2008-03-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

currently, im finishing up my GP on discrimination :DDD GREAT okay. how are you supposed to write a personal response of length 400 words, which is not an essay?! hahahahaha. but i managed to do it in the end anyway. damnit. lol. i think i exceeded a little. need to go edit it. =x

i was kinda depressed just now, looking at my previous GP assignment- horrible. my grades look realllllll bad. but anyway, i know my mistakes already. so i'm going to try and improve and do better on the next assignment. ^^ JIAYOU!

YES! i cant wait for the March holidays, although i know most of it i'll be spending it drowning&suffocating&buried under all my notes, but thats okay. im going to mug luh. got all the CAs and lectures tests after march holidays. so im trying to do as well as possible. i hate bad results. [who doesnt. ahahaha.] its kinda a small teeny weeny break for me to get a little more sleep; sleep deprivation is catching up quick on me. T.T besides, im going get my laptop! *GRINS* sorry luh, my pc really spoil, so like depending on my sister's pc now, not very nice to her, cause she also has school in the afternoon. oh cause we agreed upon her using in ther afternoon, me at night. yeh. hmm. yep, think im going to get macbook. THINK. not because of seon, but ah well. its going to be my baby can. sheesh, sounds wrong, but really. its going to soooooooo important. LOL. IT FAIR YO, HERE I COME! ~~FLY MY MONEY, FLY. ))):~~

6-9 MARCH: IT FAIR! 12-9pm
10 MARCH: 08A02 OUTING!
12 MARCH: FOUR ZED OUTING! [tentatively]

EH! 08A05 HOWHOWHOW! okay, we shall discuss tmr! yanhui ah! SAIKANG ROCKS OKAY! LOL, i was joking.

actually i dunno what am i blogging here at such a late time, i better go sleep, if not tmr i die during ALL my lectures. T.T

Breathless- Shayne Ward
If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

2008-02-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

hey guys. today is really not my day, [nor my class' day] damn horrible. first it was the forms, then the talk, then the meeting, then the waiting. i dunno if you guys waited. but she was being really mean. even the timetable thing. damn her. afterwards it was the floorball thing. annoying. ARGH. sorry im just doing my ranting. which is pretty horrible. sometimes i dont really know if im doing my job as a class rep properly- i dont know if im being responsible enough and stuff. i dont know if im doing things correctly.

yes man. im trying to sell off my compaq pc! and i have no idea where to sell it. T.T cause im getting a laptop! i dunno if its too early to get one now, but i guess i dont mind using it- its so much more convenient and stuff. okay, i just want a laptop/notebook luh, how about that. lol. currently im deciding between FUJITSU and APPLE MACBOOK. sheesh. terrance tells me to get what i like, but apparently i like both of them! T.T [he says the word 'fickle-minded' just probably summed up me.] okay wth. AHAHAHAH. everyone should come give me advice on which laptop brand to get man! it'll be so fun.

i know, ignorance is bliss. i hope you're feeling blissful now. i arent.

2008-02-27T21:14:00.004+08:00

hey. today was EXTREMELY slack, one econs lecture and thats all. i dont count civics as a proper lesson cause its like wth? :x then after that got phototaking, lol. lame luh, i think my photo will look like shit AGAIN, its that fake smile. i just couldnt do a real smile in front of someone who tells me to, 'straighten your tie, sit up straight, bend down your head a little, stick out your chin' LIKE OMG CAN. so amusing. but oh well. i hate phototaking, i look damn retarded can.

and yes, shermin and i went out to meet yanhui and uma at J8 after our phototaking. ^^ i missed them alot, and looking at them just reminds me of 4Z, and yes, i miss my class TRUCKLOADS. not only them 08A02 too. damnit. 08A05 is not warmed up yet. anyway, had lunch/dinner with shermin yanhui and uma. ^^ then after that pamela came after a really long time. LOL. i bought a file at popular!

oh, and im DAMN DAMN WORRIED about H2 math. shit luh. im so damnit screwed.

why does his display names just keep on reflecting my feelings? its so, uncanning. it scares me sometimes. i dont like it, are you talking about yourself? dont be so emo, im emo too.
and i kinda expected that reaction from you, too bad i guess. it was normal luh, i mean. yeah, it was sooner or later. i was like that too. so its understandable. im just going to ignore you for now, i dont want to stress you too much, really. hope it helps at least a little. im going to pretend i didnt see you. you're just everything, and anything, but a shadow in pretence. anyway, just an instantaneous thing i thought of, kinda weird. :x

its going, going.
it cracks, it splits, it opens.
peeks out, feels the air,
looks out shyly at the world.
it struggles, and struggled,
and finally breaks free,
out of its trap,
the cocoon.
it unfolds its wings,
and flew.
its going, going.

you caught me in a dilemma, you trapped me in a web, and i cant get out.

2008-02-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

i've gotten my new cg today, and im kinda disappointed in a way. cause like, other than sirhan jillian and jeriel, none of the rest of 08A02 is in my cg now. BUTBUTBUT IM IN THE SAME CLASS AS SHERMIN AND TIFFANY! SO COOL RIGHT. lol. its like mixed feelings luh. oh my cg now is 08A05, i LOVE the number FIVE, hope it gives my ALOT ALOT of luck! LOL. :x retarded luh. and none of the people in JAE og three is in 08A05 can, always like that one, somehow i always get thrown into a og where none of them becomes my classmates. wtf luh. but, oh man, miss zhou is my CT like AGAIN, kena her 4 times. dunno what to say. and like wtf, lessons end at 11+ tmr, and i cant get out of school. -.- timetable is screwed up. T.T

seriously im having bad convulsions of 08A02[WE ROCK!] sickness, as in you know, like homesick. i've been doodling "I LOVE 08A02!" over my lecture notes, like math, econs, lit, EVERYTHING. damnit. i miss everyone. so much. though i dont think we were SUPER SUPER SUPER CLOSE, but we were CLOSE ENOUGH. ))): i miss those who have moved on, atiqah, edna, harkhui, xinyi, sujia. [i hope i didnt miss anyone out.] and really, those who went on to the science fac, bryan and anthony. ANTHONY YOU DAMN HORRIBLE LUH, WHY DID YOU ABANDON US! ARGH. =x i really miss everyone like NUTS NUTS NUTS~ T.T

2008-02-24T22:14:00.004+08:00

did i ever mention that i'm having a wisdom tooth coming out from the upper right corner of my gums? ahahahah. two weeks back, it was like a quarter out, but now, its like, HALF OUT. gosh. so scary, but surprisingly, there was no pain, which was a damn great thing: 不幸中的万幸。 ^^ man, im ~~still kinda in denial about the fact im in sa~~ going to miss my cedar uniform alot, so im going to wear it for all i can for this week, if not there's no more chance for me to do so already. ))): sucks big time. plus the sa uniform collar is DAMN HARD yo. sian. i miss cedar, TRUCK LOADS. 此心情是非笔墨能形容的。anyway, im going to try out for touch rugby! im like excited yo! tsk tsk. and yes. tmr there are tryouts at 4. *grins* i hope i get in or smt, and the training times DONT exceed 8 plus. thats all.

it was my mum's off day today. <333 went to ate dimsum together and spent quality time with my family. and i really love today. sometimes i wish my everyday would be like this. but ahahaha, if it's really going to be like that, i swear i'll gain 154346543543 kilos. and i'll die man. -.- all the fats. ))):

I MISS 08A02 ALOT! somehow, we've gotten really close to one another and its unnerving how i have to make friends in JAE OG THREE all over again, and some are really NOT making an effort to do so, it irritates me. I MISS PAE OG THREE TOO! haiyah, how. ~~i am antisocial luh.~~

i hate that, can you stop making me feel like a rubber band stretched to the maximum? one day i'm so going to lose control and smack you right across the face, scream at you, kick you and run away. [ahahaha, terrance, your ideas!] just stop trying to do that, you know, its so obvious, not subtle, does not make me feel happy in any way, only makes me feel freaked out and traumatised, just leave me alone right, i think i'll be more happy. just go away.

2008-02-22T22:32:00.002+08:00

stop trying to escape from me. im gradually starting to believe in what joshua has said. the oxymoron. heh, he should know what im talking about. i would really rather you act nonchalant about it. hah, at least you dont ignore me, which is a good thing i guess. but i still feel sad looking at you. i think im like the saddest person on earth can, not only that but most retarded and dumbest. ~~我为了一棵树，放弃了整个森林。暗恋一个人，真的非常，非常辛苦。~~

2008-02-21T22:24:00.004+08:00

i swear, all of you guys are trying to hurt me right. ALL. OF. YOU. I hate this. why do we all have to end up this way? i miss everyone who were here during the first intake. i miss OG THREE [PAE]; i miss 08A02; i dunno. somehow school without table partner feels weird: feels weird to be not seeing her going crazy around me. i guess im so used to seeing her around that her absence making a gaping hole in my days, and really, no one can really fill it properly, fully. not even someone. he makes me feels sad just by looking at him, i dunno why either. i mean, he smiled and everything, but it's just,the knowledge that he might be going away. sherm too. seems like everyone's going away. now i dunno if i had made the correct choice by staying again. i feel like crawling into a corner and just cry my heart out. SA is making sad and depressed all over again. first og three, then 08A02, then i know it'll be og three's [jae] turn next. my heart is going to shatter so many times that really, it'll be impossible to mend it back again. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. why do we have to go through this. dont ever on me thinking that im always the girl who will cheer you up and everything, it doesnt always apply. i always appear to look happy and everything on the surface, but no, inside me, it's turmoil. like now. forget it. i doubt anyone can understand how i feel. its just hard to describe. and his display name was so ironic i wanted to laugh. cynical aye. more like it applies to me totally.

Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid....

I lose my way and it's not to long before you point it out
I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
every night in your sleep

I was so young you should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you, I learnt to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you I am afraid
Because Of you

2008-02-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

hah, i gave it up. kinda sad. but i guess its to my advantage if i stay, although i do have an advantage of having a 'higher success rate' of getting in if i appeal. but oh well. 'big fish in small pond' VS 'small fish in big pond' analogy- it sucks. it almost made my brain explode. i chose the big fish in small pond choice in the end, after much deliberation, with opinions from my parents and friends. what to do, only can say that its too bad i did so badly in english and pulled down my overall results, its too bad im dumb. its really too bad. if i had a 10 at least i would have gone on with my appeal, but man, too bad luh. i dont want to lag behind everyone, i dont want to fail, i dont want to retain and i'll die. i want to be on around the same waveline as everyone else. i know i suck. but i know that if i went on, i'll cry everynight man, i think.

oh well. i'm just going to study DAMN DAMN DAMN HARD. i dont care already. whatever. i am going all out for my a level results. its going to be tough. but jiayou!
ps: why isnt there floorball?! ARGH. =x

2008-02-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

seriously, i think im having the worst chinese new year ever. ))): its like so freaking boring. =.= although my relative did come to my house just now, there wasnt any interesting things that happened. horrible. and my aunt was just talking to my mum, and the rest just was keeping quiet and watching tv, whereas my sister was just playing with her dumb audition. =.= seriously, i should have gone to yanhui's house and ignored my relative you know, BAHHHH. and now, im so bored that im starting to do homework, by right i should have started but oh well, the 5-day-break is making a little fuzzy and in the holiday mood, as everyone calls it. anyway i started on GSC, li jie, and i just realised that man, one whole question is ten marks. *falls* what the shit. =x okay take it that im blabbering. mannnn. okay i think i should stop slacking and really go do my work. i still have GP to do! ARGHHHHH. shitshitshit, why did i get myself into this shit. =.= im still confused. i guess i'll just wait till everything settles. im such a procrastinator. T.T

Sorry- buckcherry

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.

This time I think i'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah Sorry!

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry.

2008-02-08T21:34:00.001+08:00

hey, i dont know why, but my chinese new year feels very hollow this year. i dont feel any excitement or whatever. plus it seems like more and more of my relatives are going overseas to spend their chinese new year. horrible aint it. everything seems so superficial to me. sigh. i dont even go around visiting relatives, okay, everytime its them who come and visit, except for my grandparents and uncle, i visit them. yeah. so i feel quite bored at home. T.T anyway i went running just now! AHHAHA. stupid huh, just because i felt fat after the things i ate from the reunion lunch. =x whateverrrr to me. i just feel fat luh. T.T

anyway, i went to the airport yesterday to send my grandparents off. they went to thailand. i was supposed to go with them, but oh well, SCHOOL. -.-

shit, i just felt cheated. damnit you stupid thing. =x anyway. i have a 800-word GP essay and GSC li jie to do. DARN. =x

anyway i did some stupid quiz. LOL.

What Agnes Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

ahhahaa, sounds like me i guess? =x

You Should Be a Doctor

You are practical, sharp, and very intuitive.
Optimistic and energetic, you are a problem solver who doesn't get discouraged easily.
You are also quite compassionate and caring. You make people feel hopeful.
You're highly adaptable and capable. You do well with almost any curve ball life throws at you.

You do best when you:

- Are always learning new subjects
- Use your knowledge to solve problems

You would also be a good therapist or detective.

What Should You Be When You Grow Up?

thats just sad, i wanted to be a doctor, but my chemistry cmi, then i had to give that up. plus im a super arts student. i have a what do you call that- doctor-heartandpassion-stuck-in-a-arts-student's-mindandbrain.

2008-02-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

you are an angel sent to me with a knife, slashing my heart into shreds and sinew. i love you too much to stop you destroying me. i'll ache, and i'll bleed, but i'll still love you. i love you too much to give you up. slosh slosh slosh- all i hear is you walking away, in blood; all i can see is your back getting more and more vague, not giving a damn. i dont want to give you up. persistent? determined? or obstinate? maybe its just love, simply. appearance vs reality. sometimes i wish i could read minds.

more on normal things: miss chan [our class math tutor] ROCKS. i know how to do binomial already. happy and contented with myself. ^^ proud is too strong a word to use i guess. lol. i love the song 'teardrops on my guitar'- taylor swift. its such a beautiful song, but sad. beautifully sad. sadly beautiful. i guess its more of beautifully sad. its close to my heart.

Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

2008-01-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

hey. why does our math lecturer suck so much. not like i never listen or what, but she just cant explain like nuts. crap luh. now im darn annoyed cause some of my answers are different from the answers on the back, [not that i trust that set of answers alot either. =x] and i dont even know where the effing hell i went wrong. bullshit. =x thank god my math tutor is like 10 billion times better than her and whatsoever, if not i can go die now. wtf luh. -.- sorry for this ranting. im really darn pissed/annoyed/irritated. =x
anyway, im starting to like econs. ^^ and literature is just as lovely as ever, just that i think i can analyse it more now, and understand literature more now. heh, miss soh is so cute and nice. she reads into poems ALOT. in any case, i should go back to my math tutorial and annoy myself further. =x

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2008-01-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

' Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, creeps in this petty pace from day to day, to the last syllable of recorded time; and all of our yesterdays have lighted fools the way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more. It is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing. ' - Macbeth: William Shakespeare

'But now I am cabined, cribbed, confined, bound in to saucy doubts and fears.' - Macbeth: William Shakespeare

i guess this kinda applies, sadly.

2008-01-25T19:28:00.001+08:00

what a disappointment.

im sorry to say, but i did cry.
my heart cant take the blow, yo. this sucks.
im tired of my facade, im tired of everything.
sometimes i wish things would all stop.
or how about things would just correct themselves. wtf.

oh well, i guess i'll be fine. its too late to apologise.

2007-12-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

hey to everyone out there who actually still come here to check if i have updated. ahaaha. its been a while. =x anyway. i've been working recently at the airport with yanhui and pinghui and many others, and seriously, this job's real fun and cool, except that you have to walk around, stand around and run around alot in court shoes, which is kinda horrible if you have uncomfortable company shoes like ours. T.T yeah. and also you have to bear with the passengers' tantrums and tempers etc, which really isnt nice at all, but oh well, for the sake of thi job, i just swallow it all down and fart everything out. as in okay, NOT literally farting, but just as a figure of speech. anyway just wanted to say that I LOVE MY JOB. ^^

a few wishes:

2 december: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZEWAIY!
5 december: HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNIE DONGSAENG! YONGSUH SARANGHAE YOU. HAHAAHAHA.
8 december: HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE! youuuuu! stop being childish. =xxx ahahahaha.
9 december: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUJIA! you're finally 16! i bet you're so estatic and everything. ^^

okay actually im quite O.o at myself for coming over here to blog. =x maybe im really super bored like wth and i have nothing to do. =x and goodyyyy! i CANT WAIT for tuesday! im finally going out with dongsaeng connie. like FINALLY. IM ACTUALLY GOING OUT TO SHOP. [i make myself sound like i just came down from mars or venus or smt and i havent shopped at all before. T.T] anything. im just happy i can go out. :///// i sound like i have no life. oh well, work's like this. okay i really dont know what to blog about, i kinda lost the feeling of blogging? after not blogging for ages. T.T oh did i mention that yanhui was so CRAZY in the office just now in the morning. like O.O you wont believe she did what she did. okay nevermind, i dont make sense. :///

4Z CHALET 12 to 14 december! IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT TOOOOO. LOL. though i cant join in much of the fun cause im in the afternoon shift[ohwell. ):], BUT STILL ITS A HAPPENING EVENT! ^^ lol. im staying over, thats the thing! ^^ ahahahaha.

oh and horribly, i dont know why, somehow, i lost my appetite after i started work, its getting better now, but yikes. i cant even finish ajisen ramen just now! =.= like the meal with the side dish and drink, i cant finish it! O.o like my god. i think im going crazy or something. T.T like man, i used to be able to finish it. and now its so T.T WASTAGE OF FOOD. T.T it used to be worse. like you make macdonalds student meal? i bought the chicken nuggets one, i cant finish the nuggets nor the fries. T.T yanhui helped me finish them. like horrible. quite scary. and i dont think i got anywhere slimmer. okay dont get me wrong, i DID NOT try to slim down on purpose by not eating, but i really just lost my appetite like that. =.= so eeyer. =x

okay i have nothing else much to say except that this is going to be a HAPPENING WEEK! ^^ byeee i should go sleep, in in the morning shift tmr, must wake up at five fifteen in the morning. T.T okay byeeeee~ ^^

나좋아요 당신는 모라서?

2007-09-23T14:04:00.000+08:00

HEYYY. i found something hilarious on the web. you guys shall visit this website, anti ah lians: http://aalteam.blogspot.com/
it cracks me up. =x
okay thats all i have to say. HEH.

2007-09-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

prelims are finally over. i dunno how should i feel towards that. should i feel happy because its like, 'yes! prelims are over!' ;or should i be worried over how my prelim results will turn out; or instead i should be depressed because its the nearer to when everyone continues on their path, eventually forgetting each other. [yes yes i know you'll say, oh no, we'll still stay in touch and we'll still be as close! but you cant deny that, with time, the closeness we once felt will be gone, and replacing it will be weirdness, and we'll be strangers once more.] maybe i'm just numb towards all these already. besides. this period is just a temporary break from the real test ahead. i dont know. i really dont know anything at all. i was really confused about myself. after the literature exam, i see almost everyone rejoicing, jumping for joy, just being totally in a joyous mood. i dont feel a single emotion, not even relief or delight, not a slightest trace. at first i had the idea of going to catch a movie with my friends. but no, i went home straight after the exam. i just sat down on my chair, not knowing what to do. i feel so 'dehumanised', i feel like a robot, totally devoid of emotions.

sometimes i really feel like doing this:

i lifted the gun and pressed it against my temple.
click.
bang.
a sound of thunder.
silence.

or:

i sat in a corner, drawing out a penknife. flicking open the penknife, i could see the reflection of a strained, stressed, girl looking back at me. i lowered the knife slowly, till it came to a stop at my wrist. the tender, unbroken skin. i exerted stress upon the knife.
drip.
drip.
drip.
i hope to purge myself to a sound and pristine health.

sometimes im really tired of living on the earth. the troubles. the stress. the irony behind life. i know. you'll say im still young ang stop being emo and everything. but it is true. i really hate how life is. i shall not say that God is being unjust to me, or say that he is treating others more equally than me, because, life is never fair and never perfect. i havent been properly feeling the emotion of happiness since a while ago, i cant remember when. the only strong feelings i have now is just, sadness, tension, irritation/frustration. my life is kinda sad right. more like, now my life only revolves around my results, my results and only my results. not even properly doing justified fan-girling to dongbang, suju, ft island. which is good, although at times i really missed the times where i laugh at the boy's silly reactions and stuff. it was a source of 'cheer-me-up medicine'. it WAS. now i dont have it, i miss it, and i think thats why i em so much more now as compared to the past.

i guess partly this damnit emo mode was cause by my headache/dizziness starting after my literature paper one. brain was lagging so much in paper two i was so frustrated with myself. =.= time management sucks. argh.

anyway. dont worry too much people. im not ever going to carry out either of the two situations i have stated above, or in any way self multilate. i cant stand self mutilation. so dont worry people. its just that i was feeling emo and thinking of everything in a not-so-nice light. but anyway. i suppose you guys dont have to worry about me so much. because im really one who can get over things fast. so just let me emo when i want to alright since i'll be fine after i emo.

i've found my current favourite quote from macbeth:

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

okay. now. ignore what i've just said. =x ahahaha.

2007-08-10T16:53:00.000+08:00

hey. im bored. and really tired of studying. so here i am. =x
but it'll all be over soon.
soon.

anyway. the current song that i loved the most:

집착; JibChak; Cling
- F.T Island

i doubt anyone would understand. but haiya. heck la. =xxx but my favourite parts are:
사랑에 가슴이 찢겨진다 해도
세월에 무뎌진다 했어도
아니잖아 그 시간보다
더 많이 아파하고 울잖아

사랑했다고
너를 사랑했다고
눈물로 너를 불러봐도
이별은 나를 붙잡아도
다 거짓말 모두 다 거짓말
하루 하루 지나갈 수록
니가 더욱 생각나니까

(미안했단말 모두 다 거짓말)
날 떠나지마 널 사랑하니까
(사랑한다며 왜 떠나가)
너 없인 안되잖아
(그런 말 쉽게 하지마 사랑이 우니까.. 우니까..)

i love all their depressing songs. <333 they're so beautiful. ^^ heh. im motivated! YAY. ^^

okay bye i shall go study/do homework now. ^^ i really love the national day holidays. cause it gives me more time to study/do homework. i sound like a total toot nerd. AHAHAHA. im not. ^^ kay bye! ^^

countdown:
16 more days to prelims.
72 more days to o's.
sickening yeah. =x

2007-07-29T18:08:00.000+08:00

this was one thought that came to me when i was having a silent dinner yesterday night. okay i wasnt talking much. yeah.
i dont know but somehow i feel that all of us have drifted apart. we were all really close. when i think back, it seems sort of impossible for us to actually drift apart. we've been through thin and thick, if possible, almost everything. but it has boiled down to us going in our own ways. we dont talk as much anymore. we dont get together as much anymore. we dont squabble as much anymore. we dont complain about someone anymore. we dont get scolded anymore. we dont laugh as much together anymore. we dont do so many many things together anymore. it is very depressing. so it is kind of true when they all say, time cures everything, every single wound and every single bleeding stump. although scars are still there, it serves as a kind of memory for us to fall back on when we reminscience about our past. i was hoping this day will never come. but it still came anyway. i know saying goodbye and parting is part and parcel of life. but it is kind of hard for me to accept this right away. i dont want to say good bye to you guys. especially during grad night/prom/farewell or in whatever occasion. i dont want. but it is inevitable. i know; im struggling within myself now.
good luck to you guys no matter what you guys decide to do next time. i really love you guys. and i will miss us very much. the times we've had together. and how it sort of seems impossible to have them all back again.

countdown: 84 more days to o's

2007-07-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

hey i know i havent been blogging again. =xxx but anyway just to let you guys know. ahahaha prelims is in another 4 weeks. *freaks out*

prelim timetable:

270807 English Paper One
English Paper Two
280807 Higher Mother Tongue Paper One
Higher Mother Tongue Paper Two
290807 Mathematics Paper One
Chemistry Paper Two
100907 Social Studies
Biology Paper Two
110907 Geography
120907 Additional Mathematics Paper One
Chemistry Paper One
130907 Additional Mathematics Paper Two
Biology Paper Two
140907 Mathematics Paper Two
180907 Literature Psper One
Literature Paper Two

bingo. super nice news. sense the sacarsm please. =x
on a happier note. i found a new band to listen to! F.T Island. hurhur. ^^
and the weather nowadays is love. =x i like to have cold/cool weathers.

i really dont know what to say. but time is really just flying past, it seems like
its gaining speed everyday. or was it me who is flying back? o.o
o's is in another 85 days. this all seems unbelievable. its really stressful. T.T im really sickened at everything. GRAHH. and im very easily tired nowadays. i have no idea why. maybe it's the stress again.

i really want to just lie down in a meadow. just breathing in the small of grass, of nature, with the wind caressing my face, and not caring about anything at all. or how about. lying on a wide stretch of beach. breathing in the smell of the sea, the salt mingling with the sand. letting the seawater lap at my feet. really anything at all. i just feel like running away from everything now.
i want o levels to be over soon. i want everything to be over. but im afraid of the journey to o's. it is so confusing. i dont know. i really dont know what i want now. i want things to be going this way, but it isnt. this is making me very pissed and stressed. whywhywhy. i have no idea. seriously.

i feel like a confused kid who has lost her way back home.

2007-07-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 070707

it was a day i've been really looking forward to. the date solely already made me high. not to mention CHMA. lol. i dont remember myself being so high on 050505 though. maybe i was. just that with my poor memory i wouldnt be able to recollect it. :// hahaha. AND LIVE EARTH! save the planet. but sadly i wasnt able to watch it. ))): PLUS I HAVE NO GREEN SHIRT LIKE GRAHHH IF NOT I WOULD HAVE WORN IT. :x

777 people got married. how cool. and you know the electricity meter outside your house? mine was 070707 too. DARN COOLIO. <3

anyway. in the earlier part of the day i was doing amath. and then i was so freaking stressed up by relative velocity that i really wanted to cry. it was like BLEH. and after doing 3 out of 5 questions. i gave up. i was totally. -.-ll by it. so i did biology after that. and guess what after a while i started feeling hot. [and no its not what you were thinking eunice. =.=]so i decided to use the thermometer! and whoots i have a fever of 38.4 degrees. nice huh. but i was feeling okay. its just the hotness. =.= eunice and a few other people think the cause for it was AAHAHAH AMATH. i dunno. :/ but anyway i ate panadol for that. and the temperature came down to 37.9 which is okay i guess.

i still went to CHMA. AHHAHA. im a nice kid who doesnt go back on her promises okay. but anyway thought i was going to be super late. so went in a cab. LOL. reached on time and blah. nothing much. but i felt kinda intimidated at cat high. like eeyer everyone taller than me. :/// ahahaha. the concert was really coolio. in a sense that everything was pretty much high tech. and i was super impressed by it. lol. i think i was real quiet during the concert. I THINK. :x i dont really know la. everything was pretty much okay, except the rock bands part. it was, to be blunt, NOISY. :x love the acapella group, equilvox. and OH GOD LIANG SI JIAN. YOU HAVE AN ANGELIC VOICE. HEH. recorded his song on my cam. LOL. and its darn huge. :x it was a great show. ahahah its funny being in a guys school. its totally different from a girls school. LOL.

yeah. then after that we went for supper. uhm collin, his friends and i. yep. at macs. and obviously i wouldnt eat, like its so late already. :x i just drank cappucino. :x by then, i really found how much guys can eat. like okay. :/// kangan is the best, man, one whole meal. lol. after that took 88 back with collin and his friend. collin and i were like super worried the last bus of 88 went off already. :xxx like darn. lol but heng havent, i guess we caught the last ever bus home. HAHAHAH. uhm then like that. hahaha. reached home at around 1240, fortunately, i didnt meet any weirdos on the way. :/// went hoe to take temperature again. it was at 37.8, ate panadol AGAIN. this is the day that i ate the most panadol man. like god, i never really fell sick before. for this whole year. yeah. uhm so after that i slept at 0230. was chatting to yanhui+collin online and sms-ing eunice at the same time.

Sunday, 080707
i suppose i dont have fever anymore, cause i dont feel so hot as compared to yesterday. yesterday i thought i was on fire. :/// ahahah good right, no more fever. cause i dont wanna miss roller blading tmr. :x okay im measuring my temperature now. i'll tell you guys whenthe thermometer beeps. anyway. trying to upload lsj vid. it seems to be taking ages. :x but anyway. CURRENTLY: blogging, cause my sister's not home. [hahaha. :x], doing amath 2 more relative velocity qns, uploading lsj's vid. lets hope collin's computer likes megaupload. :// my com hates it. ahahaha. nothing much happened today. so thats it. im going to study/look through ss soon. yeah. and oh right my thermometer beeps. and it reads. 37.4 degrees, still quite warm. =.= mehh. haiya dont care liao. jiu zhe yang.

PS:i should say that i have a really good guy friend. you know who you are. ^^ and you should understand why i said that. thank you. and love ya!

oh yeah people. sorry im not in a poetic or philosophical mood today, so i didnt blog in super poetic/emo language. sorry luh. one cannot be too clear on her stuff when she's still having a slight fever. :xxx lets hope my homework doesn turn out like crap. sorry teachers if it does. :/// [i raelly really hope it doesnt turn out like shit.] bye~

agnes
080707
17:17
dongbang+suju LOVE!
[OH LOOK AT THE TIME! AHAHAHAHA. ^^]

2007-07-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

heys! isnt it nice of me to be practically updating almost on a regular basis? hah. im just using the time while scanning something to come here to blog. my sister was being irritating just now. she was accusing me of using her com while she was still in school. like what the hell. why would i want to touch her com like stealthily? if i had used her com i would ask if i could use her scanner right. she's like =.=ll cant stand her. you should have seen her ANNOYING face. *rolls eyes* it makes me boil. am i the older one or what. GRAAH.

04 July 2007
after the mock chinese paper from plmgss, eunice and i decided to go to little india to look for our racial harmony day costumes. LOL.is was an abrupt decision made by eunice. ahaahha. we were supposed to go on friday. but she decided that today would be a nice day. so first we went to pp macs to have icecream! which is lunch for me and dessert for her. LOL. then saw yanhui and gang while we were eating. and as usual. we think of SOMEONE when we see yanhui. HEH. so anyway we set off immediately after we finished savouring the icecream. ^^ and i've learnt a new SINGLISH word from eunice today, which is CHAPALANG! lol. uhm anyway. soooo. we walked around the chapalang area of little india. which is coolio again! cause i never really went to little india's chapalang shops before. lol.

surprisingly we didnt get lost. and we managed to weave our way through streets and more streets. HAHAHA. and i realised that whoa, the punjabi suits are really expensive. okay if you compare it to a saree it is understandable. in a sense that saree is a HUGE piece of cloth, while the punjabi suit consists of the top, the bottom and the scarf. which is EXTREMELY reasonable. hahaha we were walking around quite a bit, checking out the punjabi suits and their prices. after looking into several shop, a particularly kind shopkeeper told us to look for punjabi suits at the tekka area there, cause its quite cheap+ can bargain one. so we went there and i got blinded by the variety of punjabi suits there. ahaha. but i shall edit out the amount of time i was spending looking at punjabi suits. :x uhm so in the end i decided on this ncie ncie punjabi suit which is of a very nice shade of green, with a golden-ish yellow bottom+scarf. the u.p was 30 but i bought it for 20+ so yeah. the price was okay when you compare to the other prices. :xxx

after that we went to mustafa to get eunice's saree. ^^ ahahaha we had to keep our bags outside again cause i was holding a plastic bag. =.= but anyway. yay for us cause we've got eunice's pale purple saree. which is cheap. half the price of mine. LOL. but anyway, i would be the more comfortable one so who cares. :x was real happy today. though very tired. :/

05 July 2007
today was a very tiring day despite me sleeping before 1130 the night before. and i have absolutely NO IDEA WHY. this sucks big time. but the good thing was, i was tired physically, but i was pretty awake mentally. so i was looking super blur today and look as though i wasnt paying attention, but actually i am. LOL. guess today all the teachers were in a good mood. yep. thats all i can say today. and really. i NEED to study. STUDYYYYY! prelims is in another 7 weeks. i can go die now. ahahah no la. i should study and do my best! ^^

shoutouts:
lauren: YES I JUST REALISED I HAVE THE SAME BLOGSKIN AS YOU! LOL. THIS IS SO FUNNY. :x
eunice: punjabi is good. LOL. ^^ my mum says its nice, very indian. LOL.

okay thats all. byeee!

agnes
050707
07:07pm
dbsk&suju SARANG~

2007-07-03T18:23:00.000+08:00

hii. lol ive decided to grab the computer since my sister is away at tuition. ^^ anyway i just came back from LITTLE INDIA/FARRER PARK. heh. im feeling quite happy though i didnt manage to get anything for myself. it's kinda like an eye-opener to me. lol. cause i never really went into mustafa before. lol.

anyway went there with uma, as our tourist guide!, and atiqah, shermin, pamela, lauren, liki. lol. ate lunch at this chindian restaurant. their prata was good. but i couldnt finish my 2 pratas. :/// i ate one and was dying and offered the other to atiqah, since she said she was quite hungry. but she only took half. so i had to stuff the other half piece down. meh. :x but anyway. we finished lunch. and went mustafa. i never knew we had to put our bags outside, but its so coolio okay. LOL. but yayness, an 'eye-opener' for me. ^^ oh you should see yanhui's sri that i got for her. it is SUPER NICE it like a shade darker than sky blue and the design is like gold+light purple kinda thing. im like YAYYAYAYAY when i found it okay. i have good taste. LOL. :x but i ws o.o because i cant find my punjabi suit. =.= and fyi for those who dont know, punjabi suit is FEMALE WEAR. NOT NOT NOT MALE. ahhaha cause pamela[ithink!:x] had a misconception that punjabi SUIT is for guys. =.= grahhh. i dont want to die wearing a saree. cause i wont be able to sit down properly. punjabisuit can. lol. i'll see how on friday! since i'll be going out with eunice chuah! LOL.

OHOHOH! and today's lessons were quite okay. ^^ first period chem. the test is okay but i made a blunder. -.- okay i shall get over it. hmm. and then its PE! pe=ROLLERBLADING. it is so DARN FUN okay. i didnt even fall down today la. *GRINS* like yay. i can stand and fall and blade around quite a bit. which is SUPER YAYNESS. ahahahah. i cant wait for the next pe lesson, which is next monday. :// which isnt a short wait. GRAHHH. but yay. good instructors, cause i didnt even fall today. got unbalanced at some point, but still GOOD. cause i didnt fall like lalalalala. heh. i can laugh at my sister for not knowing how to cycle and rollerblade next time. LOL. :x that was mean.

thats all short post, easier reading. ^^ but i doubt anyone reads my blog. cause everyone thought it was dead already lahs. who cares. :x im so looking forwardto 070707. ^^ anyway bye!

agnes
030707[4moredays!]
dbsk&superjunior
SARANG~! <333

2007-07-01T11:39:00.000+08:00

hey! here are pictures as i've promised. hope you guys wil enjoy them. ^^ stupid camera went berserk at the WRONG time. ))): =.=

first up: junjie! sick to the core. ))): lol look at the frown on his face.

xiu nong! this is a candid shot of her. she's camera shy. ahahaha. ^^ left to right: HEIREN![idunnohisname. ))):] JUNYANG! JUNKAI!

randomness: the three brothers! heh. junjie junyang junkai. ^^ clockwise from left: heiren, xiunong[his sister]; ah boy; ruyi[us cousin] and no you do not want to see the picture of me taking me. its darn unglam. :xxx
left to right: heiren, junyang, junkai, my grandpa. back: liqi[us cousin]

ahahah so cute right! junyang and ahboy at the back with the smiley face pillow! ^^

sorry about the blurness. left to right: ahboy;junyang;heirenjunkai junyang heiren.junjie+ruyidurian season=more durians for consumption! LOL. random. ^^okay thats all i have. ))): stupid cam. but yayness for the pictures yeah? ^^ my cousins are HUGE CAMWHORES. :x oh right and i preordered my 'harry potter and the deathly hallows' yesterday! basically i went to popular yesterday to bought a helllot of pens. blackpens. and im darn happy about my new slippers like yay! <3<333>

2007-06-30T14:36:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. yes yes i know i havent been updating for like how long? almost a month. but oh wells. who asked blogger to be so dumb and not allow my computer to access the user+ password section. -.-ll and yeh. my sister HOGS the other com who can access blogger's homepage. im like GRRAHHHHS. i want to blog but my sister refused to let me touch her com or whatever. let alone blog. so that totally spoils my mood for bloggiing. like TOTALLY, cold water extinguishing fire. get it? its THAT bad. =.= anyway im like here to blog about the trip to malaysia from the 22 to 24 june.

Thursday, 21 June 2007
nothing much happened. i just revised a little. anddd. went out with my mum to get some stuff for the kids in malaysia. okay not kids. my cousins. turns out that the some stuff isnt some. but ALOT. it was mostly sweets and chocolates. i was totally. O.O at my mum okay. she got like $55.85 dollars of sweets+chocolates for them like wth. :x it is CRAZY. i dont even get a 55.85 bucks worth of chocolates! okay but still. i wouldnt eat much of it for fear or getting fat. GRAH. me and my weight issues. -.-ll and oh god. was practically dragging home the HUGE packet of tidbits. then went back to my cross stitching and i finished it! i've left only the outling/tracing part only. i was practically JUMPING WITH JOY alright. bu yao kan ta xiao xiao de, wasted like ALOT of my time okay. as in wasted= no time to study. :///// okay i just realised i sound like a total nerd. BAHHH. nvm.

Friday, 22 June 2007
i woke up at 8 in the morning just to finish up the cross stitch for my aunt/ cousin. it was bad. just tracing already took me the whole day. and it totally spoiled my plan on wanting to study bio. then my mum made me go to hougang mall ntuc with her to get ROCK MELONS for her. and im like okay fine, thinking that oh wells rock melons shouldnt be too hard to carry. AND GUESS WHAT. she came out from the store carrying HUMONGOUS MELONS. she went to work and left me to carry those askdagdaskfcsgkas melons which i so swear they weigh 50000000 kg. ahahaha i was joking. but i can swear they weigh more than 5 kg. TWO MELONS. when i reached home. i realised i forgot to bring keys. =.=ll super dumb of me yeah. but yay my sister came after a few minutes, from her tuition lalas. went home to continue with stitching/outlining. at night i had dinner. didnt eat too much for fear of getting motion sickness. :xxx my uncle was coming to fetch me btw. my mum's youngest brother who is the youngest of them se7en siblings.i havent really seen him. but ive heard that he has a gf who is a teacher and now. she broke up with him. and im like okayy.... yeah watched aja geum soon! love leeminki and kangjihwan! :x ahahah. after that went to wash clothes. which is O.O and =.= at the same time. it was like what. the day which my hands are the most tortured. BAHHHH. hated that. and now i know how my mum feels. ))):

waited very patiently for my mum to come back. and my uncle to come. uh. at the same time i was thinking how unearthly the timing was, like im going back to school on monday and im going to go malaysia now? like wth? i hated the trip at first. but im telling myself to like look on the brighter side, at least i can see LOTS of kids and how much they've grown. ^^ but really. i hated the timing. it was CRAP TIMING. like a few days before school reopen? nahhh not a good time. my mum came back with two other baskets of lychees! like WTH O.O and we were supposed to bring the 2 melons+the 2 baskets of lychees to malaysia. like WHATTTT-?!

my uncle finally came at 11++pm and everyone started rushing to get changed and everything. and then we left the house carrying a GAZILLION THINGS. >< like really ALOT ALOT. =.= even my uncle was like O.o O.O and :OOOOO cause my mum really brought alot of things like necessities there. okay for example. tissue? like 5 boxes of tissue? and some other random stuff. =.=

i never knew how easy it was to go to malaysia with a car. it was like. you just sit in the car and let the officer look at your face and thats it. you go off. and tatas done! it was amazingly fast unlike when my family take a coach. coach is DARN SLOW. you queue for your turn to get your passport stamped and scan and let yourself be scrutinised by the inspector or whoever you call him or her and BLAH. so yeah. past the woodlands checkpoint and malaysian checkpoint at 12++ midnight. which is HAHA. supposed to be the next day already so i shall continue below!

Saturday, 23 June 2007
okay so we spent around 6 hours going from the malaysian checkpoint to my maternal grandma's house. its like what? from 12+ to 6 in the morning. it shows huh, how long it takes to reach my maternal granma's house, and like how far it is. oh right it's near genting highlands, but not THAT near. but its not that far either. :x oh and on the whole way i was totally pitying my uncle. he's darn poo thing la. drive non-stop for like let see, from johor to singapore one hour from singapore to pahang its like 6 hour++. so drove for like 7+ hours non-stop. which is darn crazy. at some point during travelling i really wanted to take over the wheel. like ask my uncle to go rest while i drive that kinda thing. cause its really darn tiring. like the concentration you have to put in during driving and blah. plus its kinda like wth when you are driving for so long and you cant even stop then you turn and see everyone else sleeping. =.= annoying huh. yeah. and okay on the way we met weird policemen who wanted money.from us. -.- so he made my uncle stop the uncle and asked about our identities etc. like hello? we are not fugitives okay. -.-in the end hah, yayness for my uncle who didnt give any money. ^^ and guess how long we wasted for that dumb policeMEN to stop their weak 'extortion' of money? like 15 mintues or more? really wanted to punch them in the face la. grrrrrs.

i didnt sleep much on the trip though. was accustomed to my own sleeping time already. :x like late into the night and late into the morning. :xxxxx grah. but i caught some forty winks on the car though. poor uncle. ))): oh and my parents and sister practically slept the whole way. =.=ll reach my grandma's house finally. and i was totally PHEWW. and my grandma was awake. so was my grandpa. :OOO like wow. cause its 0545 in the morning! like O.o okay. anyway. so after a few mintues of hustling around, from the boot of the car with the luggages and bags of stuff =.=, my aunt, the one from us who kena-ed cancer, woke up too. she changed so much. oh well. i empathise with her. *sighs* yes and a little while later my female cousin woke up too. she's 2 years younger than me. and she looks like stafani, as in the stefani in my school and in enice's class. :x LOL. i was like O.O at her cause she changed so much. uh yeah. and my uncle was like darn cute. he was like super hungry. then he kept trying to hustle us to the coffeeshop. heh. but my sister just slowed down everything cause she stained. O.o like wth. so she changed. and we wentttt. like yay. xD didnt felt like drinking anything but ordered tea anyway. :/// the tea was a little too sweet. :xx but yeah chatted and dunno what for quite long and finished the tea. my uncle ate like half boiled eggs and tea. i think? :xxx cant rmb. but my mum and dad ate nasi lemak. like O.O but their nasi lemak not very big packet so its okay. [i didnt eat their nasi lemak. :x] uhm yeah. so my mum and her younger sister[my aunt] tried to catch up on stuff that happened during the years. lol. i was stoning. and felt quite happy breathing in the fresh air. :x and because i started feeling bored, i started observing people around the table again. :xxx you can see i loveeee to observe people. heh. anyway. i realised that my youngest uncle likes to stone. he always look darn stony and blur. like ahahahaha.

then we went back to the house. and while walking. my mum saw that my sister stain again. like wth. -.-ll dunno how she wear one la. =.= lala. then we waited for everyone to wake up and come to my grandma's house. oh and yeah when we just came back from the coffeeshop, my grandpa went out to the rubber plantations, to 'cut' and collect the rubber. and whoa, everyone wakes up super early there. like really. they sleep early and wake up early. because they have no computers/tv to distract them, they sleep early. then with enough sleep, they'll automatically wake up early. so like practically everyone woke up at around 7+ nearing 8. which is very early for me. considering how late i sleep and wake up. :x grahh. and its cool how they wake up to the calls of the rooster, instead of being like us, using the alarm clock. :/// and oh right my cousins came over from the house opposite! like yayness. love them. the atmosphere between us was pretty strange and weird? in a sense that because we just met after a very long period of time, like half a year. and some others i havent seen them for very very very long already. which is like whoa, when i saw them, cause they really changed ALOT. >< ahaha makes me feel darn darn old. bahh. but ahahaa. love junyang. he went like biao jie! <333 he's super cute. and my father is darn -.-ll he recognise my US cousin, li qi, as junjie. which is totally retarded. =.= so li qi went to get junjie here. but poor him, he was having a fever.))))): it was like. o.o he wasnt moving, just lying down there the whole day. quite depressing to see him that way really. i think i should do a introduction on my cousins yeah. :x

oldest uncle: 1 daughter, 1 son
xiu nong, 9 yrs
OH MAN. WE DONT KNOW THE YOUNGER SON'S NAME OR AGE. but his nickname is: HEI REN.
second uncle: 1 son
jin sheng/ahboy, 8 yrs
thrid uncle: 3 sons
lin junjie, 11 yrs
lin junyang, 9 yrs
lin junkai, 1yr
smallest uncle: SINGLE AND UNMARRIED. :x
oldest aunt: [absent though]
wei lun, 17 yrs
wei leong, 12 yrs
ying ying, 10 yrs
my mum:
me, 16 yrs
sister, 12 yrs
youngest aunt: [the one from US]
ruyi, 14 yrs
li qi, 12 yrs

so as you can see there were 8 kids in the house, not including me and my sister. amazing right. :x so it was super crazy crowded, or you can say festive. LOL. so like i remembered after watching this movie on the dvd player i went to sleep from 0930 to 1030, i too tired already, couldnt stand it anymore. :xxx but hey i slept a shorter time than my parents okay. they were sleeping like a log. -.- for HOURS. =.= anyway. i woke up and found myself watching SHREK 3~ like yay. i dont even have to go to the cinema to watch it! lala. ^^ its so super cute. then had interaction with all the cousins, played with them, talked to them. and also, checking on junjie to see if his fever have subsided. ooh and after that they got bored and switched on the cartoon version of dae jang guem! SO CUTE OKAY! and i prefer the cartoon version to the real version. cause its so much more adorable. heh. though the content differs by a little, but its still fun to watch and besides its so cute. and the 2 guys in the show darn 'shuai' can. lol. but sadly i didnt manage to watch finish the whole thing before i came back. ))): i am soooo missing the show now. GRAHHH. i wonder where to get it. :x its so cute lahs-

oh right! the many many of us began CAMWHORING. LOL. so funny la. :x but my camera went retarded after a while which really really PISSED ME OFF. -.-ll shall not talk about it. i shall post a few pictures up if possible yeah. hmmm so after that there were a few backouts in the afternoon. totally killed me with the heat. -.-ll just sat and stoned pretty much. :/// then uhm oh right in the evening my grandma+aunt+mum+ruyi wanted to go to the hairdresser's. so being the very curious person as i am, i tagged along. :x and guess what. the hairdresser's=having a haircut [or whatever else] at this person's house. uhm from how she does her stuff im guessing she's pretty much experienced. yeah. my grandma went there to perm+wash hair; aunt went to wash hair; mum went to cut hair; ruyi cousin went to curl her hair. okay so i was just sitting there in the heat, stoning, watching the auntie cutting hair, smelling the foul smell from the eutrophication of the drain water[yuck]. yeh.

after that we went down to the nearest town, RAUB, to makan dinner, celebrating my grandma's 71st birthday. quite coolio huh. ^^ though her birthday is like in october, some adjustments have been made and yeah. we occupied three tables in the restaurant. food was generally okay, but you get to eat some food that is not really available in singapore. so yeah pretty coolio experience. pooor junjie didnt get to eat anything. and he still had to get an injection from the doctor. but being the 'nice' cousin.*coughcough* i gave him a massage. not bad rightttt. ^^ ahahaa oh yeah. went back to the house after dinner andddd continued with dae jang geum. ^^ and that night was also the first ever time i've gotten a sip of champagne. more like yuck. :x my cousin said this champagne tasted bad. :/// so i dont know. :xxx but i really dont like the taste of this champagne. GRAHHH. ahahaha and i so love junkai. he was like grabbing the adult's BEER to drink. and after a few mouthfuls. he got DRUNK. LIKE PWAHAHAHHAHAHA. his face was like so red! and he couldnt walk in a straight line. AHAHHAHAA. :xxx so super cute. went to bed around 11.

Sunday, 24 June 2007
well. i woke up early today. like around 8? yeah. like eeyer. cause i was freezing despite having a jacket on la! and i really hate my sleeping position. cause the sleeping space is too small/short. I CANT STRETCH. im so freaking constrained, despite me being retardedly SHORT. T.T besides my dad had to give me a kick can, at my leg. i so wanted to totally KICK HIM BACK okay. -.-ll so irritating. :xxx but woke up after ah boy came in to wake everyone up with his imitation of the rooster's calls. then we all went to have breakfast at my oldest uncle's wife's mother's coffeehouse. ahaha i loved my trip to and fro from the coffeeshop. every child was at the back of the lorry! SO COOL OKAY. and you get the wind. extreme wind cause the speed is whoa. plus the fresh air. like yay. oh but the toast at my aunt's mother's shop is LOVELY. LIKE LOVELY GREAT. its darn nice la. hmm-hmm. yum. :x ahahaha. i missed the toast there. ahahah and junjie darn cute, he thinks im going back on monday. i wish. ))): ahahaha and it was super cute of us i guess. we occupied 2 huge tables at the coffeehouse. one for kids one for adults. ahahhaa im the KID at heart. so i sat with all my cousins. and ahaha i should say my youngest uncle is a kid at heart too. lol. my sister is the extra one la. -.-ll sit at the adults table. we didnt ostrasize her okay. really. =.=

after that we went back to grandma's house and started packing to go home. like super sad okay. i dont want to leave just yet cause its too short a break. )): ooh but i promised all the kids i'll be back very soon. must prolly around december. i would love to go back again. but i would love my uncle to come fetch. ahahaha if only lah. mm. so my youngest uncle+us continued on our journey to singapore. i thought when we are gong back to singapore, there would be lsser things to carry. but i was SO SO SO WRONG. -.-ll there were a gazillion things to carry. we even brought back 3 DURIANS. plus jackfruit, weird chillisauce that my dad bought, and mum's soysauce. =.= darn retarded. totally made me faint can. to be honest, i wasnt feeling all too well. ))): a few times, i wanted to puke but oh well. held it down. tried to sleep so the motion sickness feeling would go away but it didnt. [and it stayed until tuesday 260607*died*] btw the durian totally stink up the car. i almost fainted in the car. :x when we reached singapore. we treated our dearest uncle to dinner and he went back to johor cause he has to work the next day. poor him.

now my house REEKS of durian. =.=

some comments on stuff on the trip [some for you guys to know ^^] :
1. it is crap when you cant see anything at night when you drive. meaning. there are NO LAMP-POSTS on the way to my grandma's house. okay its like SCARCE lamp-posts. -.-ll like hello. every year i go there, it doesnt seem like there is going to be an increment of the number of lamp-posts in the like, uh countryside of malaysia. or the not-so-urbanised areas. it is darn scary cause its like dark, and uhm you really cant see anything much far far away on the road; ie, you only have a limited view of whats in front of you when you drive. thats why sometimes im kinda worried when people drive on the road, for fear of getting into an accident. -.-ll im not trying to say that i dont trust my uncle's driving skill, i have ABSOLUTE trust in his driving, like whoa. just that sometimes paranoid people [like me :x] get very paranoid over these kinda things yeah. it is GRAH. -.-ll and they use cheapo funny luminous stuff, like stickers, to stick it on the curb or dunno-what-you-call-it. like hello? AFFORD SOME LAMP-POSTS YEAH? :x

2. I LOVE THEIR SPEED LIMIT THERE. like >100 which is LOVELY. i think i love speeding. on a straight road la. would prefer it to be at night. but must definitely have street lights la. i dont want to die in a car accident okay. and its funny how the people there know exactly where the speeding cameras are, so they'll slow down at the place with cameras and continue speeding after passing it.

3. i hate their 'roadblocks' on the roads where they collect money. it is totally. irritating and ew. money money and money. and their roads are really quite bumpy. resulting in, MOTION SICKNESS. which really sucks. =.=ll

4. you really need an uncorrupt government to run the country well. hmmm hint: you have already read it. like money and policemen. :x i'll leave the rest up to your imagination.

5. before i drive, i need to get lasik surgery. cause i cant really see when light from the cars coming in opposite direction shines into my eyes at night. GRAHHHH. ))): oh btw you should be able to see by now that i have a very STRONG DESIRE to learn how to drive right.

6. the 'coffeeshops' over there in malaysia open REALLLLL early. like around 0530 in the morning, crazy early huh. :x but yay for them for being so hardworking=we have coffee/tea to drink when we reach there.

7.everyone there seems to know hakka. really. i feel like i came from mars because i didnt know how to speak hakka. -.-ll even my cousins from us knows how to speak hakka like goodness. makes me feel darn funny and dumb. boo. but good thing they all know how to speak chinese. the thing is. you MUST know how to speak their kind of chinese. like to ask for the time in chinese in singapore , it'll be xiao zai ji dian? but there, it'll be xian zai ji duo dian. :x ahahaha i've had a good laugh over their chinese.

8. i love the fresh air there, at my grandma's house area. im talking about the more rural areas of malaysia. its totally WHOA. and the green-ness there. so many trees, rubber plantations, oil palm plantations, fruit trees plantations, [ahahaha so geog.], really love it. plus you see the chickens and ducks and dogs, as in stray ones, running around. this is something you wont get to see often in singapore. and somehow. if i stay long enough at my grandma's house, the degree of my eyes will drop. its not a drastic drop la, but it's a significant one. because there's no computer or whatever. just people and nature. so any of you guys want to try this. i'll always welcome you to my grandma's house. the older one, is better. in the sense that it is the highest point of the village, you get the freshest air, alot of trees, the chickens+ducks are here, good scenery, and FRUIT TREES behind, like durian trees, jackfruits, rambutans, guavas, jambus and dunno what la. so when it's the peak season, you get ALOT ALOT ALOT of those fruits. seriously. so its good. but now my grandma is staying at a lower point of the village now, while my 2nd uncle stays at the older house. ^^ but coolios huh. the fruits still come though. ^^

9. their hygenie there isnt really good. like. when you're eating you'll get the houseflies. o.o like yeah the YUCKY houseflies. especially in some coffeeshops. you spend half the time swinging and flapping your arm around to swap the flies away. yeah. and its pretty ew to see flies flying around your food generally. you might say. oh in singapore coffeeshops there are houseflies also. i agree, that is inevitable. but you should see the AMOUNT of houseflies there and here in singapore. you will get a total SHOCK.

10. we are darn fortunate. really. we always complain that for example, our school is darn small. if you think so. you should come to my grandma's house there and look at the schools there. its like not even half the size of cedar okay.

11. kids there are darn darn innocent and easily satisfied. really. at least my cousins are. they are super innocent. like. hmm. you get them sweets and chocolates. they'll be totally happy and they'll STICK to you. even just a simple act of helping my cousin tie her hair makes her happy. you may say oh well, children are innocent generally, but its like you compare singaporean kids to malaysian kids in rural areas. there is a HUGE HUGE contrast. like kids of 9 to 12 years old. in singapore, they would want computers, handphones, high tech toys. there: they want sweets chocolates and basic toys. this makes me love my cousins alot more. really. they are so innocent and adorable. it just totally shows that in a more developed country, children lose their innocence faster than those in not as developed countries. and they WOULDNT BAWL their eyes and hearts out because their parents dont want to get a particular toy for them. they live with what they have and accept things the way they are. and seriously. students/kids/teenagers here fret about how their school results are like crap and need to get As and improve and etc. they dont really care. really. i asked my cousins. they commented that they didnt want to get into a university. i was a little shocked. but oh well. they'll still young, their mindsets mght change after they grow up.

12. you get alot of blackouts there. sudden cut of electricity. -.-ll no light/fan/tv for hours. and you totally sweat. unless you are like me who sat there as cool as a cucumber not doing anything but just observing all the people there. :xxx

13. you really will feel that you are darn darn darn lucky and fortunate after you come back to singapore from malaysia. the first thing most people would do would be *sigh* it feels good to be back in singapore again! thats what i do too. its some what a 'natural instinct'? i guess. if you dont believe you should come with me when i go back to my grandma's house to visit. yeah. you will totally feel that way and i bet you. you will appreciate singapore alot more than you do now. ^^

14. KIDS ARE CUTE OKAY. ATIQAH DOESNT THINK SO. SO MEAN RIGHT. KIDS ARE CUTE LAH. SUPER CUTE. <333

15. big families are fun to be with. it's totally brimming with love. although sometimes there are conflicts. but overall. the atmosphere is lovable. to people who doesnt really like big big families, like me, will feel very O.O when you get together with huge families. but its an all new experience. ^^ and its really cool too. ^^

uhm and and thats all i guess yeah bye. ^^

oh right. the first week of school was okay. but the first day of school was hell. :x cause i had a 'hangove' of motion sickness. -.- still had jogging+pe. which totally slaughtered me. ))): but yeh okay. i need to have lots and lots of time to study.

yeah byee people. i would be super impressed if anyone actually finished this whole lot of crap. :x

2007-05-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

hii. i know i havent been blogging again. i've been reading people's blogs. and i really feel that. i blog REAL childishly. like im a five year old kid or something. hah. i dont blog like my age. i dont look like my age. and i dont know what else i dont behave like.

yes. ive gotten back my results and im like not really satisfied. really. cause i improved in some subjects and slipped in some others. but it was really. =.= i really need to work SUPER SUPER HARD to get my single digit for l1r5. i feel real sad. i really did put in alot of effort for this midyears. not mentioning the bad time management part. i felt that my results are like inversely proportionate to my efforts. but oh well. i have only left to say that i guess i have to plan my studying properly next time. because i have bad time management. -.-

24 MAY 2007
the sec 4s had a talk with the principal. stastistics shown. bad. horrible. like crap. to put it more crudely. like shit. with the exception of those who did WELL. congrats. but the rest, just like what mrs lim has said, 'see already can puke blood ah!'
yes. and i feel really bad. not that i didnt study. but. ive been thinking. why. why cant/didnt i get an A1 for bio?! and why did my ss/ge grades drop?! i feel bad to mrs lim. i've made a resolution to get a distinction for ss/ge. for myself and for mrs lim, the ever caring teacher who has tried to make lessons interesting for us, and tried to let us understand the techniques of social studies. i felt that i have led down some teachers. or most of the teachers. cause i didnt get an distinction or something. except perhaps for han lao shi. cause i got a A2 for higher chinese. it was like. i feel really very very sickened after i got back the results. like why. and why. why isnt the results good?! why arent i smiling. i should be. but my results arent good. it is hard for me to even twitch the corners of my mouth, not to mention smile. why why why? this is something i need to find out myself. and only i myself can find out whats the best solution for it. i have a long way to go. four zed has a long way to go as well. our target of 9.5, it isnt going to be easy, i must admit, but really. we should all aim for this. this is the school's expectation for us. and we should try to commit ourselves to this and achieve this target. i would really do my best. and put in 101% of effort. i want to get AS LOW A L1R5 could go. i really want it. from now. it seems really far away. i want to GRAB it. but it is out of my reach. i am working towards it everyday. this is going to be a tough journey for me. but i am going to perservere. i am going to continue to hope and dream and aspire. and i will work REAL HARD towards my goal. no matter how bumpy this journey is going to be, or how i would bleed or bruise along this path.

macbeth play in the evening. met up with yanhui melo cihui atiqah and shermin! for dinner. but we sort of spilt. :x as in. cihui and atiqah had dinner at BK, while the rest of us went STARBUCKS! i missed the coffee there. <3 anyway. yanhui left to go look for denyse. and the rest of us had to dinf the repertory theater ourselves. got lost and spend a LONG LONG TIME trying to find the place. when we reached there, we looked like we jumped into the singapore river to have a swim before going into the theater. okay that was exaggerating, but it was just to show how sweaty we became, running along clarke quay looking like crazy women, and trying so desperately trying to find the theater and not be late. -.-
the play was quite good. although the props used are basically. simple. but i like how the actors actually protrayed the characters. their acting was pretty good and convincing. but one bad thing was that. i had to try to not fall asleep at some parts cause i was too tired from school. it was like. bad. although there were pretty cute actors, but the aircon and silence of the theater was lulling me to sleep. :x ooh. i like little fleance! he's so cute! i wanted to kidnap him to bring him home as my little brother! i want~ lol. and some people thought i was paedophile. =.= and malcolm was kinda cute too. lol. if the play was on a friday it would have been so much better. ^^ and yes. if only people SAT at their own seats according to the seat number in the ticket. if not what are tickets for man? to wipe your butt? *rolls eyes*

25 MAY 2007
last day of school and the june holidays are starting. i cant believe it. everything is going so fast. so fast that im afraid i wont be able to catch up.
removing everything from under our tables, where textbooks, files and worksheets are stashed. cleaning up the classrooms. stacking up our vandalised tables and creaking chairs. sweeping the hairy floor [if you gt what i mean]. cleaning the black whiteboard and the dusty teachers table. taking out all the things from the WET IPP box. left those which are still useable in the sun to dry off. while the others, which obviously turned mouldy[yuck], was thrown away in the garbage bag. report books were given out, and taken back. some people marvelled over their results. while others look either sullen or glum or expressionless. everything was packed up. everyone went home except us.
chemistry remedial was still held, which turned out kinda okay.
was dead beat. zonked out immediately after i laid on bed.

26 MAY 2007
i woke up feeling very lightheaded. T.T but anyway. in the afternoon i went for punggol primary's 'openhouse' as my sister claims it. but i felt it was more of a performance show/concert. saw my pri 4 form teacher, and pri 5-6 form teacher. and some other teachers whom i knew by sight. all of them looked the same from when i left them. i told my mum that all of them wouldnt recognise me except for my pri 5-6 form teacher. i guess i really changed alot over the years. from looks all the way to personality. when i was younger, i admit i was ALOT CUTER and PRETTIER than i am now. one thing to prove i have changed. i used to be quite naughty and bad to my parents. not THAT bad but i wasnt THAT good. now im more sensible. ive learnt to put myself in their shoes. and to try to understand them, want they really want. and try not to get onto their nerves. if you still didnt get what i was trying to prove. THE MOST SIMPLE CHANGE. i used to not have a phobia of lizards. but EVERSINCE i stepped on one [which didnt die] and it was wriggling like CRAZY under my foot. i got scared of lizards. point proven. lol. on a more serious note. i can really feel my personality shift/change in myself. when i was in lower sec. i was more cheerful and i was really lame then. i really am. but now im less cheerful [not that im not cheerful, but lesser than before], i arent that lame anymore, [i felt that all the lameness leaked out of me. )):] i think ALOT more than i used to, i became more depressed? in a way yes. i dont talk as much as i used to. and i dont know. really. i can really feel myself changing into someone i dont really know and im not familar with. i need time to adjust to this change. i dont know how much time i'll need.
hah. anyway. back to the topic. i went for dinner with my family after the performance/concert by punggol primary. and yes i forgot to mention that i saw lenis there. yep. anyway. after dinner i went up to cd rama and saw the dongbang korea concert dvd! oh my god. i wanted to buy it right there and then. but when i saw the price tag i freaking fainted. it was a estimation of 50 BUCKS. nice. but i'll still buy it. *falls* but at least its 50 bucks here, you find it on yesasia, its 83.84 bucks. so much better a price in singapore can. yes. ahaha so i'll still buy it. :x im such a crazy fangirl. but still not a HARDCORE fan la. =.= i cant imagine myself being a HARDCORE fan. i shudder at that perspect. :x not that because dongbang is not good enough. but because of what hardcore fans would do. :xxx i'll get the dvd tmr~ heh. :xxxxx

i dont know but ive been feeling so tired recently that its like, am i trying to catch up with sleep from january? O.o like if i sleep 10 hours a day i would still feel super tired. and why a i still here blogging when im feeling so tired? i have no idea. :x i just felt like blogging. lol. i shall post up pictures of my childhood uhm soon. in the next post or somthing.
this is supposed to be a short update. but it seemed to have turned out quite long. :x ahaha. yes. and i would give a hug to whoever's read finish this amount of ranting. and yes. i would really wow the person who read finish this. ^^

anyway i think im falling sick soon. i think. and i hope not.

okay i shall go sleep now. its like so late already. okay bye people.

agnes
270507
02:37
dongbangshinki;
superjunior;

2007-05-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

HIIII PEOPLE~! im like back finally. ahahahaa. okay. just to blog about thing i wanted to doing my mid-years but i couldn't. and yes. ahahaa. MIDYEAR IS FINALLY OVER. ^^ but i dont wanna get back the results on friday. getting back the results always scares me. cause it'll be like super sad if i worked like CRAZYYYYY HARD for that paper and i didnt do well. that is really )):

01 MAY 2007
THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAS WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! seon, yanhui, eunice, simin, szewaiy, mushroom, charlotte, daphne, michelle, melo, cihui, collin, peishi, denyse, tianrong, celeste, elyssa, connie and many others~ thank you so much.

thank you to the vballers for such a cute present. i love the pink octopus ALOT. i think im supposed to sit on it right. but i liked hugging it too much, so yes. i hug it always. ^^ ahahahaha. yay for you guys. you all are the best. ^^ I LOVE YOU ALWAYS. SARANG HAE YO!

thank you to my sister and cousin for the dongbang 'FIVE IN BLACK' album. YAYNESS. it was great. i didnt expect that gift AT ALL. and yes. i dont have to buy it! WHOOTS. AHAHHAHA. i intended to but yes. ahahahhaah. :x im happy.

thank you to my grandparents for that angpao. ^^

thank you to my mummy for the wonderful DINNER. it was delicious. plus the huo guo. yumm. ^^ and thank you to my daddy for buying the wonderful bengawan solo chocolate cake. [i forgot the name of the cake. :x] yes. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY AND MATERNAL GRANDDAD. ^^

it wasnt the greatest birthday i've had. partly because it was during the examination period and i cant uhm. go out and celebrate as i wanted to. so yes. studying during your birthday wasnt exactly a GREAT thing. :x PLUS you have disturbances from your SISTER& COUSIN &VERYYOUNGCOUSIN. ~~[it was soooooo irritating.-.-]~~ and thennnn. yes. T.T shant elaborate about it that much. since its over already. ahaha.

i cant believe im 16 already. it's like. so unbelievable. i mean. i still feel like im 15. or you can say. i feel im still living in that 15 year-old era/period. T.T bad huh. ahahaha.

02 MAY 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEISHI! ^^

WEEKEND
had dinner with dad and saw my very good primary guy friend. yay. i havent seen him for sooo long. ahahaha. coolios. ^^

08 MAY 2007
END OF EXAMS. MY GOD. I WAS FEELING EXHILATED. ALTHOUGH I DUNNO IF MY LIT PAPER WAS OKAY OR NOT. MY GOD. IM LIKE YAY OMG EXAM IS OVER I CANT BELIEVE IT. AHAHHAHAA. okay yes. and then i went out with yanhui eunice melo and atiqah. went seoul garden for lunch and yes. makaned. pwahahahaha. then my mum called to nag me back home cause i have a dinner in the night. so yes. then i went to get a mothers' day gift for both my grandma and mum. ahahaha. yes yes.
MOTHERS' DAY DINNER. emphasis. MOTHERS DAY. definitely NOT what some of you guys were thinking of. T.T yep. it was uhm simple and nothing much happened. just that i was like still feeling happy that exams are FINALLY OVER after what seemed like 561579243764 light years of studying. ahahah okay im exaggerating. ahahaha. :xxxxxx

09 MAY 2007
was slacking around at home reading dean krootz. damn cool. he really got me scared. LOL. i was like so tensed up reading his book. hahahha. he's real good at creating suspense and building up tension. my goodness. ahaha this sounds SOOOOO literature. ahahahaha. then i went to cut my hair, cause its starting to get on my nerves and my fringe and hair and whatever was SOOOO LONG and UNRULY. T.T now its short again. ahaha. but not THAT SHORT or thin anymore cause i asked the uncle not to cut so short. YAY. AHAHA.

oooh. A BEETLE JUST APPEARED IN MY ROOM! YAYE. and my sister is SCARED STIFF OF THAT BUG. pwahhahhahahahaha. im dying of laughter. i just caught the beetle and put in it front of her face and now she's screaming her HEAD OFF. AHAHHAHAhAA. THIS IS SO FUNNY. i should have recorded it down. she was like screaming threats at me like, ' OMG IF YOU DARE COME NEAR ME YOU HATE JUNSU!' AHAHAHHAAH. AND I WAS LIKE ' I DONT CARE!' :x and she screams. LOL.

okay im supposed to go make a new passport for myself tmr. i have to go all the way down to the immigration centre or something like that. 16 can go without parents right? cause my parents both not free to come with me. lol. so yeh.

BTW. I LOVE WATCHING BE STRONG GEUM SOON. IT IS INSPIRING. WATCH IT. LOVE THE DOCTOR AND GEUM SOON. [kangjihwan&hanjihye]
and do the test below!!!! AHAHAHA.

agnes
090507
21:06
dbsk; suju

2007-05-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

go try it people!
i'll do an update later!
although i still have a last lit paper. :x ahahah.
yes yes. im supposed to be studying.
be back later. my sister is staring at me already. O.o

2007-04-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

hiii everyone! i know i havent been blogging AGAIN. T.T i know im supposed to be studying now but i just felt like blogging.

time really flies. i used to feel that time crawls like a snail when i was younger. i dunno. i really found out that time REALLY flies this year, out of my 4 years in cedar. ~~maybe its just that im retarded and slow. :x~~ it's just in a blink of eye. and BAM. its already end of april. and midyears are coming. ~~and i think im DEAD. )):~~ i dunno. but i think im feling overly emo nowadays. really. just that you wont see it. not even my closest friend or whoever. bahhh. :x

what to do. i really dunno. i feel very tired. very tired. extremely tired. but i have to persevere. its just half a year later. and everything will be over. )): that makes me super sad. but as everyone will say, life still goes on. hais. i dont really know what im blogging. its like bits and pieces from a train of thought i had just now. and as you can see. i wasnt successful in trying to put them down into words.

i know im feeling stressed. 9.5 for our class. i know i dont want to pull it down. i want to bring it up there. hit 9.5. and be triumphant. GREAT 4Z 2007. the marvellous class of 2007. ~~or is it MAGNIFICIENT?~~, 9.9. jiayou. im trying to make myself happy everyday. and yes. work towards that goal. im going to do it. im going to get A1s.

im trying to get myself back into the CRAZJEE EXAM MODE. but its quite hard for me now. O.o i'm going to FORCE myself. *falls* yes yes. im going to focus. ^^

AJA AJA HWAITING! everyone will do well! we can do it!

i should continue to study now. ^^ ahahaha. bio is O.O ALOT. SO IS CHEM. AND LIT. -.-ll im going to start memorising ss/geog. and practise my maths. T.T yay for the 2 lovable languages!

seon umma! yay. jiayou for midyears too!

agnes
210407
23:45
dbsk;suju

2007-03-03T14:45:00.000+08:00

hi! i know my blog's been on hiatus for like really really long. partially because there was nothing really much interesting stuff happening around me, just the usual schooling stuff and homework and stress, with the goofing aound with the vballers, simin yanhui eunice and classmates, weiling denyse, melo, cihui and atiqah. yeah. but i have stuff to say. ^^ so i'll just blog, even if theres no one reading it. ~~im supposed to do homework now, but oh well.~~

Thursday, 010307
4Z'07 class gathering! my mum offered to cook HALAL fried rice for the class, which is like WOW, ALOT. one full rice cooker pot and another big box. ^^ i love my mummy for doing that, although she keeps saying it's going to taste not as nice cause there's not much stuff in it. but oh well, im glad the class almost finished everything. ^^ if not im gonna die trying to carry everything home. when i have already DIED carrying those to sentosa. it was like SUPER HEAVY. bleh.
i guess i shouldnt have complained so much about hoping not to have a sunburn. :/ really. ahaha. i'd really hate to get a sunburn, but oh well, i would rather get it then getting all WET. -.- the weather was. horrible. it was like raining/drizzling and not nice. )): but despite the horrible weather, all of us had fun. ^^ beach volleyball was fun. and im soooo GLAD that i successfully taught sabrina shermin and rachel how to ~~surf~~ SERVE the ball using upperhand. ^^ love you guys. ^^ ahaha. as expected, i got all wet and ew with all the sand on me and sticking onto me. cause i was practically diving for ALL the balls. yep. hope i did okay. ahaha. i hate the sand on the volleyball courts, it was so freaking rough and everything, i grazed my knee. T.T so retarded. but yeah.
left sentosa at around 6? yeah. and went to have dinner with yanhui and melo at vivocity. ahaha. it was like super cold. *shivers* although i was like dry on the outside, but not so on the inside, so i was like practically freezing to death. and i have to blame myself for not bringing a jacket/windbreaker. cause both yanhui and melo had one. T.T yeahhhh.

Friday, 020307
i had training in the morning and died cause i was late and had to take a taxi and the fare just killed me. my freak. :x but yeah. was suffering during training cause of my knee and my muscle aches. T.T i have to say oh well, why did i forget to put a plaster on my wound on my knee anyway. but i dont think a plaster would help prevent the pain anyway. :x after training i went out with connie, after going home to bathe. ahaha. it was raining AGAIN. like WTH. what is the weather doing man. we had kfc for lunch. and can you believe it? CONNIE SAID I LOOK SCRAWNY. T.T im like fat la, where got scrawny la. maybe it's because of the shirt i was wearing. met yanhui and inez at bugis. ^^ yanhui looked so TIRED. ahaha. i bought 2 jeans and 1 teeshirt for like 50 bucks. i loved the jeans~! ^^ its really nice. ahaha. and i cant believe what connie did to the poor guy she saw at the mrt station. piang. she tortured my legs la. T.T to that poor guy who looked like park joong min: i sympathise with you. :x ahaha. we had yoshinoya for dinner. okay. so much fast food. i need to diet already/ do more exercise. really. i cant afford to get any fatter. my crap. ahaha.
anyway. Collin take care of yourself okay? dont fall sick! ^^

Saturday, 030307
im feeling all pissed off and freaking irritated with someone. [dont worry. the someone is NOT my parents nor my friends. i love my parents and friends. haha. so yeah. i just need to get this off myself. :x] stop sprouting nonsense about what, i cant study? i should go work when im 18? wth. this is NOT the past anymore. i should let my sister go to university instead, because you think she's cleverer than me? and because you think im more stupid?! what crap is this?! you said everyone should be given an equal opportunity to prove themselves, by saying this, you are freaking contradicting yourself. what the hell man. you expect me to go work at 18, and get married by 19 or something?! and give birth to children and become a good mother and everything?! what the hell? lets get this straight. this IS the modern world now, NOT the past. please freaking change your lame mindset. im containing all my anger in myself now, dont agitate me anymore. i dont wanna pick up an argument or a fight with you okay. im freaking irritated. dont think whatever you said is correct, everyone has faults, no one is perfect. you THINK youre THE perfect one. my foot. you have done enough controlling and 'torturing', can you stop trying to control my life?! stop trying to control what job should i get next time. stop controlling when should i stop studying. stop controlling when should i go out or not go out. stop thinking that my friends are bad. stop thinking that im stupid and dont study because i go out. its not as though my sister doesnt go out. and stop being HYPOCRITICAL. you tell me, must study okay, but behind me, you already think im stupid and cant study and should stop studying and go get a job. wth. what kind of job can i get man, more like i can only get a job washing the toilets man. YOU ARE NOT EVEN MY MUM OR MY DAD. stop controlling me. wtf. the only thing i can say is that. IM SO GLAD MY PARENTS AREN'T LIKE YOU. im glad my parents give me the freewill to choose what i wanna do, what i wanna study. they gave both my sister and i an equal opportunity to prove ourselves. they treat both of us equally. they love us equally. they are not biased. they scold when any of us do wrong. this is real love. what you called love is not love. it is just plainly SELFISH. i hate that.
i will not be struck down by your stupid selfish comment/thinking. i will turn my fury, my anger, into motivation, motivation to do well for my o's, to prove you wrong, to prove to you i can study, that IM NOT STUPID. to injure and hurt those around you, you are either extremely selfish, cruel or really insensitive. you ASSUME all the time. we say things after thinking, filtering out all the nonsense, but you just sprout CRAP without even thinking. if you didnt know, you're killing me bit by bit. [together with my muscle aches.] i will not care anymore. you only want things to be done your way. i am not going to care anymore.
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okay i dont think anyone read that whole pile of crap. which is really crap. but i feel better now, after reliving myself of all the emotions bottled up inside of me, i was feeling really emo just now when i typed all that. oh well. i'll learn to forgive and forget. and sorry guys, for all the procrastinating. anyway, my muscle aches are really killing me. PLUS all the homework. doing bio now, finished amath. and a little of emath. i'll have to go do homework now. after crapping on my abondoned blog for SOOOOO LONGGG. refreshed my player, it should be able to play now. ^^ the wide array of kpop songs. with one ENGLISH song, 'all i know', sang by brian from fly to the sky. he has perfect english, cause he's a american born korean. AHAHA. ^^ go try him, i love his voice. ^^ i think im not so much of a fangirl anymore, sadly. cause of school. and also my com has no more space to tahan all the vids. which is damn sad. nevermind. i'll have a comeback after my o's. which is like in. *counts*around 7 to 8 months time.
okay i gtg do homework now! byebye people! i dunno when you're going to see me update again. haaha. yep. seeyou! ^^

agnes
030307
16:30
dongbangshinki
superjunior

2006-12-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

hello everyone. i know i havent been blogging again. dang. its really because i've got NOTHING to blog about you know. because my life is boring. BAH. agnes has a boring life, besides having dongbangshinki, superjunior&otherslikese7en&shinhwa&alotmoreee. yeah. recent korean awards, dongbang got TWO DAESANGS, which freaking made my day! daesang=BEST ARTIST. so yeah. and today at the golden disk, dongbang got DAESANG AGAIN. so that makes them have THREE DAESANGS. WHOOTS.

today, my circle lenses arrive. love it. pwahahaha. it's like. whoa. really made my day. plus i love how it arrives on the day before baby junsu's birthday. makes it so much more easier to remember its expiry date. pwaahahahaha. XD it was supposed to arrive like last week. but it got delayedd becaus of the festive seasns in korea. so yeah. ahaha. but it was so irritating. cause i realised that i have to throw away a 480ml bottle of multipurpose solution! cause it expired already. wtf la. im so pissed. but nevermind. im being happy today. XD

anyone watch 15 asian games at doha 2006? pwahhahaa. it's nice! i LOVE SWIMMING. cause there's PARK TAE HWAN in there. he's so cute. he's 17 only, so young. XD but his swimming is REALLY GOOD. he got so many gold medals for korea. pwahahaha. but it's starting to get sian nowadays at the games, cause there's no more swimming and some of the games are really kinda sian. :x

yay. i love the SM TOWN's WINTER ALBUM/SINGLE. it's so CHRISTMASSY and HAPPY and LOVELY. it makes me REALLY HAPPYY to listen to 'snow dream'. the mv was so cuteeee. although there wasnt much of junsu. :x but the overall look is so PRETTY and NICE. unlike their redsun mv. its sooo ugly. :x yay. im so in the christmas mood now. plus the weather today is soooo COOLING. dongbang's step by step mv{japanese} IS OUT TOO! ITS SO CUTEEEEEE. <333>meaning schools is reopening soon.

if i start to blabber and have tonnes of spelling error, please pardon me, im like falling asleep already. :x

but my main purpose here today is:

HAPPY BIRTHAY JUNSU BABY~ &JUNHO!{junsu's twin brother}

i really dunno what to say to you junsu oppa. {& listening to pi by flytothesky doesnt really help you think much. :x} it has really been great pleasure to watch you grow up. from a small boy to one HOT guy. although you are still really cutee now, but really you've become more mature. *sees from hug days to now, o jung ban hap.* although im not a member within the dongbang family, {meaning the 5 of them} it really feels as though i've been through everything with you, your pains, your happiness. although as a fan, i might not really experience whats going on between you and the other members, i cannot really experience the AMOUNT of love between you guys. although you all have shown it many a times, though the couplings, YOOSU, JAESU, JAEHO, HOSU and everything. but really as a fan, although i have tried many times to put myself in your shoes, i cannot really feel the WHOLE IMPACT of things. like junsu oppa's fake girlfriend incident, some fans might be all trying to give blessings, while other fans flare up and decides to quit the fanclub{WHICH IS REALLY CHILDISH&IMMATURE}. i ,as a fan, cannot really feel how it is like to be in your shoes, oppa. really. the stress not only on yourself, but on the whole group; the feelng of being wronged; the feeling of embarrassment trying to clear the whole situation up. seriously. it's really funny, how fans work. it's like we practically know everything about you, even your waist measurement and feet measurement; but in actual fact, we dont really know much about you personally. yeah. okay im starting to blabber already. :x

anyway. junsu oppa! i hope you'll have a really nice birthday and a fabulously NICE year ahead of you! and i really really hope you& the rest of the members wont get injured/sick anymore okay? it really hurts to see you& the rest get hurt or sick. take good care of yourself junsu baby. stay happy always~ last of all, 준수오빠 사랑해요! <333>

ps: SEON UMMA! yeah, it's been a really long time that we havent talked. :x you take care too! <3>

agnes

061215

00:00

dongbang&suju!

2006-11-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

hello everyone~ im back. xD after like three days. T.T anyway. if you'll dont see me. that means there's nothing interesting happening. T.T and i've nothing to blog about. yeah. cause im not going to write a boring post like changmin,{:x}eg: 'hows today's weather~ what have i eaten today~ how do i feel~ what did i do today{very briefly-.-}~' it'll be too boring. and most probably, those who read my blog would have fallen asleep before going through the whole blog, and those who cant sleep, can come here to have their treatment, which is to read my blog and they'll sleep. :xx im feeling lame lah. :x yeah. *dies*

i think im behaving like junsu today. T.T horrible. really horrible. cause i was cracking up every few moments. T.T seriously. and i use this: ~. AHHHH~. crap. yeahyeah. in not-so-nice words, it means im IMPERSONATING him. T.T boo me. junsu should try impersonating me someday. haha. *cracks up* okay i know not funny.

but actually my main purpose here today is to annouce something. here goes:
I BOUGHT DONGBANG'S O-JUNG BAN HAP CD TODAY! ~~*stabs self*~~
actually i was going to wait and HOPE that the type c version will come here. but you see. the most IMPORTANT word here is: HOPE. it may NEVER COME. and can practially guarantee, out of a 100%, there only 10% that type c will come here. so yeah, slim chances. never mind, since my nice sister is willing to share half the cd price with me. xD
and oh yes. i bought dongbang's poker cards. YAY. it is SUPER PRETTY. im so happy. cause on everycard is a TOTALLY DIFFERENT PICTURE. WHOOTS~ and they are nice pictures. xD and yes, i forgot to mention, i see NEW DONGBANG PUZZLE AGAIN. *DIES* i havent buy yet though. i want to spend time on puzzles. xD i love nice puzzles. esp dongbang puzzles. haha. i'm EXTREMELY HAPPY today. cause today's such a DONGBANG-FIED day. xD first, weird impersonating of junsu; secondly, so many dongbang goodies i got. {though i have no money to buy everything. but like i would. T.T}

oh yes. i forgot. I SAW MRS PEH JUST NOW IN THE LIBRARY. i wanted to borrow my books as fast as possible and scamper out of the library. T.T i dont think she saw me. my sister was trying to hide from her also. :x {her son remember, is my sister's classmate.} HAHA. so when i finally got to borrow my books, my sister and were practically running OUT of the library. T.T and there was ALOT of people in the library and i almost fainted. cause seriously, normally, there arent alot of people. but today is like, so ABNORMALLY ALOT of people. T.T
conclusion: today is a ABNORMAL day.

and i saw my primary school friend today. xD what she was wearing makes me feel immature. yeah. she was having on this really adult-looking clothes. yeah. and i was just wearing tee-shirt and pants.{super CASUAL. :x} yeah. AHAHA.

thats all i want to say today. i thought the post would be extremely short, but im happy it turned out okay. as in the length and everything. HAHA. so yeah. oh YAH. my mum suddenly had an interest in learning a LITTLE korean from me. thats happy to know. but still is was like WEIRD. cause normally when i talk about korean/korean stuff, she'll go. T.T and say,' whatever, you're talking alien language AGAIN.'

TODAY IS SERIOUSLY A SUPER WEIRD DAY. :x

agnes
061104
20:54
dongbangshinki&superjunior

2006-11-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

hello! sorry again. haha. didnt blog for exactly a week. T.T what am i doing. okay. i was busy trying to burn off the files on my com. *dies* still havent burn finish yet. okay. horrible me. i abandoned this blog for like seven days. oh wells.

30 october 2006
we had our chinese o levels. it was okay i guess. just that i seriously HATE the questions in paper one. it was like, they were FORCING you to do the newspaper report thing, cause it's the easiest. but I WANTED TO DO THE SITUATIONAL WRITING. ~~causeihatetowritenewspaperreport~~ yeah. anyway. the whole paper overall is considered do-able. as in yeah. it's easier than our school's EYE higher chinese paper. T.T i am worried i wont be able to get a A1. T.T seriously. i am VERY VERY WORRIED. okay. fine. maybe i'm seriously being ABSOLUTELY PARANOID. T.T yeah. i hope i'll get a A1. ~~who doesn't.~~ after o levels chinese, i went out for lunch with yanhui denyse and weiling. xD then after that we went to the LIBRARY. YAY. i love the library. i sound like a NERD. T.T

31 october 2006
i had the chinese conversational programme thingy which requires me to go back. T.T yeah. we were supposed to make new amendments to the original lesson plans, in other words we sort of make a 'new' lesson plans for the 2007 batch of new student trainers.

then before i went to school, i met up with yanhui and weiling for LUNCH. we had it at THAI EXPRESS. *coughAHEMweilingAHEMcough* HAHAHA. she was so depressed at first. but SOMEONE made her day. *coughCOSUMGH* AHAHAHA. sorry people. but i'm ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE at giving clues. if you want any information, go find weiling and she'll tell you if she wants. by the way, the pineapple rice at thai express is REALLY NICE. you all should go try it if you havent. it's YUMMY. cause the rice has a really fragrant smell of pineapple and it's sweet when you eat it. so yah. HAHAH. GO TRY. I COMMAND OF YOU. :x

then after that we went to school on 153. and weiling and i realised that. WE WERE KINDERGARTEN CLASSMATES. HOW COOL IS THAT. after NINE LONG YEARS. we found out we were KINDERGARTEN CLASSMATES. this is SO COOL. xD and we live next to each other like i mean NEXT BLOCK lah. HAHAHA. anyway. we went to school and went to the meeting place, leaving the crescent girls and their teacher inside the general office. hahaa. later we offered ourselves us USHERS ~~{not usher the singer usher. :x}~~and ushered them. sorry was being lame. and we brought a MOE teacher, whom i recognised, up to the TMP also at the same time. AHHA. it was super funny. cause han lao shi prepared food eg:durian puffs,cakes&manymore. and i knew that yanhui was going to eat ALOT. and BINGO. she ate like three {or is it four? o.O} durian puffs. HAHAHA. and some other stuff. so funny okay. :x

then at the starting of the meeting. we were discussing. then before we started the amendments, the teachers decided to go to aside and talk. T.T yes. we students do the work. HAHA. and the MOE teacher asked han lao shi my name. i think. cause i heard han lao shi mention my name and when i looked over, she gave me a evil GRIN. :x goodness. yeah. and i knew it was not good business. :x BAHHH. and really. it was not good business. T.T cause on the 22nd november. SOMEONE has to go present to the EIGHTY+ 2007 batch of student trainers her experience of the whole programme and blah. and GUESS WHO. O.o poor me. and I AM SO SORRY YANHUI FOR ALSO PULLING YOU DOWN INTO THE WATERS. :x so whatever. yeah. both of us have to present a speech and powerpoint presentation {that sounds extremely weird} to the future student trainers. O.O im afraid i'll freak out on that day. :x okay. im scared i do something stupid and 'throw my face'{pardon my ENGRISH}. *SIGHS* although i think i dont really think i'll freak out la. but still. okay nevermind me. i'm RANTING. T.T okay thats all.

01 november 2006
went for training today. was kinda happy towards the end of training, NOT because it was going to end soon cause i felt i ran around ALOT today. so im happy. cause im weird. T.T YAY. and when i came back and came online. went off to the MKMF {which stands for MNET.KM.MUSIC.FESTIVAL} website to vote for singers. xD there are SIXTEEN catergories. and i really voted for those WHOM i think really DESERVED THE AWARD. yeah. xD im happy cause i VOTED. YAYAYAY. okay. for those who really dunno what MKMF is like, it's like, STAR GOLDEN MELODIES AWARD. {did i get that correct? someone please correct me. :x} yeah. and at around 06:32 if i didnt get the time wrong, i started to feel DAMN TIRED. LIKE WTH. IT'S ONLY 06:32. why am i SO TIRED. T.T im EESANGHAE.
GOING TO STAY UP TO WATCH PROJECT RUNWAY LATER. WHOOTS. IM HAPPY WATCHING PROJECT RUNWAY. xD
i said i was going to do homework today. but didnt managed to. damnit. i promised to do SOME. damnitdamnitdamnit. im HORRIBLE. cause i was editing the chinese conversational programme's lesson plan for a few lessons. i started at uh. 03:00 after my bath and lunch. i reached home at around 2. yeah. then uh. i did until 06:??++ yeah. so yeah. i dunno. i am NOT going to leave my homework to last minute. i hate that. :x
anyway, i am going out with connie tomorrow. xD yay. AHAHA. then i wont be able to do homework until i come home. okay i shall do homework tomorrow. too tired to do now. if i do now. i dont think i'll know what im writing and in the end, i'll end up redo-ing the whole thing AGAIN. T.T

okay i shall stop spouting nonsense.

and oh yes. YANHUI. BON VOVAGE. xD

okay thats all. BYEE. xD

agnes
061101
22:05
dongbangshinki&superjunior.

2006-10-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

hello! i've promised to blog on a regular basis. so here i am. GAH.

i feel very tired now after training. T.T i am super weird. i need to kill myself or something. T.T rah. i realised i am just talking rubbish now. i'm really very tired to actually blog properly. so if i made no sense to you or have some spelling error please forgive me. feel free to tag and correct my errors. :x okayy. i feel full of crap. T.T

in the morning had two hours of chinese lesson. was quite okay. just doing papers and more papers. there was no one sitting beside me, so i was SUCCESSFUL in finishing my paper. YAY. then the environmental talk was CANCELLED. and the chinese teachers took over AGAIN. like whoa. so much chinese in one day. but was quite okay yet again. cause doing papers. after that it was supposed to be some nutritional talk. but it ended up to be policemen talking to us. T.T they showed us some video of real life cases of people who did crimes and the consequences they had. i mean, what can i say about this. it's like. you did something wrong. of course you have to pay the price for it. 'but in these cases, we still have judgement here- that we but teach bloody instructions, which being taught, return to plague th' inventor. this even-handed justice commends th' ingredience of our poisoned chalice to our own lips.' quoted from macbeth. it is like. karma. what goes around comes around. you hurt someone, the hurt which was inflicted will come back eventually to you, and you will pay the price for it. even though you may not believe in it. > i feel like im talking crap. :x im practically falling asleep now. -.-
after the talk. we had a sports and games cca talk with mrs ou yang. i will not reveal much about the talk. but i just have to say. CGVB SEC TWOS 05' WE ALL ROCK. XD

lunchtime. yanhui eunice simin and i talked about LOTS OF STUFF. and really. we talked about EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN. {AHEMcoughcoughAHEM} we sympathesized{HAHA} with the sec twos who were at LTC belay school. and were remininsing about the times we had been through in LTC belay school and the actual camp. simin was practically DYING of her HORRIBLE memory. :x and training. i felt ON FORM today. T.T i was like running around like some crazy swine. :x i felt really ENERGETIC and HAPPY. -.- im EESANG. saw the teachers preparing for their BBQ. T.T shall not say anything unappropriate. :x yah. thats it. :x

am going to watch project runway later. IF i am still awake by that time. HAHA. I REALLY WANT TO WATCH. i havent watched it since the end of the last season. T.T i watched the WHOLE of last season. i think. :x okay. maybe not. i missed out a FEW episodes. i wanna watch. i'm so pissed. cause i missed america's next top model and so you think you can dance on monday. GRRS. i was too busy doing my puzzle until i forgot the timing for both the programmes.

MY BURNER STILL DOESNT WORK. JUST WHEN I WAS GOING TO START BURNING SUPERJUNIOR FULL HOUSE. O.O I AM PISSED. T.T *falls*

yay. i think eunice is watching xman now. i'm happy. cause you get to see HOT DONGBANG. UBER HOT JAEJOONG AND JUNSU. and thebest thing. it is ENGLISH SUBBED. AINT THAT GOOD. XD WHOEVER WANTS. please come get that from me. xD i HIGHLY RECOMMEND THAT.

i shall go and watch project runway now. xD see you guys tmr or something. xD BYEE.

agnes.
251006
22:20
dongbang.
suju.

2006-10-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO. i've just decided to REVIVE my blog. sighs. it's been long since i've blogged. :x which is like HORRIBLE. as you can see. i haven't blogged for TWO MONTHS and TWO DAYS. pwwahahaha. :x horrible me. i shall do a quick update.

15 october 2006
donghae's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONGHAE OPPA. i hope you'll remain strong and go on with life. xD be happy always and enjoy life. <3
yunho got into a serious accident. it was LIFE THREATENING. he almost died. i wanted to kill the anti. how could she have done that to yunho. poisoning him with SUPERGLUE. that is absolutely UNHUMANE. and to think that she actually got RELEASED. i hope her face gets revealed. and we can be assurred to leave the rest to the fans. shall not go into detail and make the post SUPER LENGTHY. :x bah. what is this world coming to. like for example i dont like my sister's singing, i shall go poison her with superglue and deny it. RIGHT. those antis seems to have ALOT of time. go and get a life man.

20 october 2006
some korean called me twice and yes i called back. and it is NOT a GUY. T.T why do people have impressions that i ALWAYS have ASSOCIATIONS with GUYS. T.T anyway. she and i became friends after that. xD funny how i could understand her friends in korean but i dunno how to express myself in korean. :x

23 october 2006
yesterday. i had the nutrition course. and later went out with yanhui, cihui, denyse, weiling and melo. went to eat lunch first. then after that went bowling. first time bowling so i was like quite. T.T yeah. my thumb keeps getting stuck in the hole. so it got quite embarrassing. BAHH. MELOOOO. MY REWRITER IS INSTALLED BUT CANT WORKK. HOWW?!?!?! :x

24 october 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY. hope you're healthy and happy and all. XD all i can say is that. you're the best mum ever on earth. and i thank you for taking care of us and always being there for me when i need you. thank you for offering a listening ear when i need one, and giving precious advice. thank you for accepting me for who i am and giving me all the chances. thank you. i really appreciate that although i dont really show it. i have one thing to say. which is that i love you mum and thank you so much. i am depressed over the times which i made you sad, angry or disappointed. i dunno. but i guess i'm a really unfilial daughter. i havent really made you proud of me yet. i tried to make that up to you by making you laugh and smile everyday, cracking jokes randomly and doing funny things. i am happy that these attempts were successful and i felt that i have made that up somehow to you. however, i still have a LONG WAY to go in making it up to you. all the long years you have brought me up, 15 years to be exact, and how i had made you suffer. {:x} i know you wont be able to come across this {cause you dunno how to use the computer.}, or even if you do, you wont be able to understand this{cause you dont understand english}. i really hope that one day. i will be able to tell this straight out to you, or be able to express my love to you. i may look like one who is able to express well, or outspoken, but in actual fact when it comes to this sort of things, it is kind of hard for me to say. so please forgive me for that. :x
mum says that she doesnt want her present so soon. cause i promised her to buy her whatever she wants today when we go out shopping. but she postponed it to sunday. XD so yah. sunday shall it be.

anyway. as you can see. my blog has undergone a HUGE CHANGE. XD i took off my tagboard and decided to use haloscan. haha. XD and yes. I'VE CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN. i love it. it's so PRETTY. and yes, you can choose ANY KOREAN SONGS to listen to. just click on the song. or else it's be just playing the first song. which is currently. O-正反合{o-jung ban hap}. yah. go and leave comments! click t the comments button. XD i feel HIGH. cause i actually found topics to write on. and the whole post turned out SUPER DUPER LONG. like YAY.

i kinda miss my cousins in malaysia. i cant wait to go back to malaysia and see them. especially the youngest one. I CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW MUCH THEY'VE GROW. &how old i've become. :x

okay i shall go sleep now. although i dont see know how my eyebags&eyeshadows still DOESNT SEEM TO DISAPPEAR. GAHHH. i crap. and yeah. i shall promise to blog on a regular basis now. XD BYEE.

agnes.
241006
dongbangshinki.
superjunior.

2006-10-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

2006-08-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

hello.
today's denyse's birthday. so.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENYSE!

oh wells. i hope you had a really NICE day. i believe so! cause your kids were SO NICE to you. x) so you're just super HAENGBOK now.

anyway. you're older by one year now. and it is a GOOD THING. cause like that then you can FLY to KOREA and meet your KIBUM WANGJA. :X and get MARRIED to HIM and yeah. GET KIDS. :X thats sounds SUPER WRONG. :X and yeah. from now on. you'll be known as DENYSE KIM. MRS DENYSE KIM KI BUM! :X

denyse ah! kpop spazzment partner! {partnerinCRIME=tokidnapsuju!} lets hope one day we'll be able to fly to KOREA with connie and yeah. commit our CRIME. AHAHA. anyway. yeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i have a lot of things i really want to say to you and tell you. but i am not knowing how to express my feelings into words. :x

denyse is lucky to get born right AFTER KIBUM'S BIRTHDAY.

chinese conversational was kinda screwed today. :x no laptop. no powerpoint. but got visualiser. PHEW. if not i think i'll DIE. what the hell. all in all it was just a tiring day lah. but still it's a NICENICE DAY. CAUSE IT'S DENYSE KIM'S BIRTHDAY.

okay. byeee. :/
220806
22:10

nothing much to say. okay i shall put the dancing out lyrics here!
dancingout.
SuperJunior, "Dancing Out"Credits to La'MISS:fairy at juniorsource.com
ROMANISED:
(EUNHYUK) 2006 SMTOWN right now, Sapphire blue is Super Jr.
(ALL) Dancing out on the EdgeDancing out on the Edge
(HEECHUL) Areumdawoon geudaewa na sesang bakkeuro na aga
(SHIWON) Jomduh manheun gotdeureul bogo neukkidorok haebwa
(HANKYUNG) Apeun mamsoge doogo okjiro wooseuryuhgodo haji ma
(KYUHYUN) Naega yuhpe inneunde non mwoga gokjongingoya
(RYEOWOOK) Nawa soomchage ddwiuh jo deulpaneul dallyuhSankkogdaegiesuh keuge sorichyuhbwa
(SUNGMIN) Muhmchuji ma ee motjin sesange I'm alive Nawa hamkke duh Dancing out on the Edge
(DONGHAE) Achim iljjik iruhna bamneutdorok irhaessuh
(EUNHYUK) Swigo shipo jil ddae handoo buhn anya
(LEETEUK) Ddangeul balbgo inneun nado gakkeumeunSaedeulchorom narabogo shipossuh(KANGIN) Kkwak maghin gaseum ddoorhuhjuge mandeul bihaengeul
(SUNGMIN) Nawa soomchage ddwiuh jo deulpaneul dallyuhSankkogdaegiesuh keuge sorichyuhbwa
(YESUNG) Muhmchuji ma ee motjin sesange I'm alive Nawa hamkke duh
(KIBUM) Doo pareul deulgo sonppyuhgeul moriwiro himgguht duh sori jilluh
(SHINDONG) Doo pareul deulgo sonppyuhgeul moriwiro himgguht duh sori jilluh
(KIBUM) Dalligo shipo, dduhnago shipo Super Junior wa ui shigan
(SHINDONG) Dalligo shipo, dduhnago shipo Super Junior wa ui shigan
(KYUHYUN) Saramdeul sogesuh nawa woori doolman inneungol that's cool
(RYEOWOOK) Geu nugudo sondael soo obneun sarangeul wihae
(ALL)Nawa soomchage ddwiuh jo deulpaneul dallyuhSankkogdaegiesuh keuge sorichyuhbwaMuhmchuji ma ee motjin sesange I'm alive Nawa hamkke duhNawa soomchage ddwiuh jo deulpaneul dallyuhSankkogdaegiesuh keuge sorichyuhbwaMuhmchuji ma ee motjin sesange I'm alive Nawa hamkke duh
(ALL) Keuge sorichyuhbwaDancing out on the Edge
(HEECHUL) Doo pareul deulgo sonppyuhgeul moriwiro himgguht duh sori jilluh
(ALL) Keuge sorichyuhbwa
(EUNHYUK) Gokjong malgo nawa gatee rideume momeul matgyuh
(ALL) Keuge sorichyuhbwa(Kibum) Doo pareul deulgo sonppyuhgeul moriwiro himgguht duh sori jilluh
(ALL) Dancing out on the Edge

TRANSLATION:
(EUNHYUK) 2006 SMTOWN right now, Sapphire blue is Super Jr.
(ALL) Dancing out on the EdgeDancing out on the Edge
(HEECHUL) I go into the world with you, who are beautiful,
(SHIWON) to see and feel many more things
(HANKYUNG) Don't try to laugh when you are hurting inside
(KYUHYUN) I'm by your side, what are you afraid of
(RYEOWOOK) Breathlessly scoot around the field with meScream loudly on the top of the mountain
(SUNGMIN) Don't hold up in this marvelous world I'm aliveTogether with me more Dancing out on the Edge
(DONGHAE) Wake up early in the morning, worked late into the night
(EUNHYUK) There isn't a time or two I have wanted to rest
(LEETEUK) I stand on the soil and sometimes I too,like a bird, want to fly
(KANGIN) I want to fly away on a trip to refresh my heart
(SUNGMIN) Breathlessly scoot around the field with meScream loudly on the top of the mountain
(YESUNG) Don't hold up in this marvelous world I'm alive Together with me more
(KIBUM) Throw your arms up, and with your hands over your head scream louder(SHINDONG) Throw your arms up, and with your hands over your head scream louder(KIBUM) I want to run, I want to leave, time with Super Junior
(SHINDONG) I want to run, I want to leave, time with Super Junior
(KYUHYUN) We are apart from the crowd, it's only the two of us that's cool
(RYEOWOOK) For the love that is untouchable to anyone else
(ALL)Breathlessly scoot around the field with me Scream loudly on the top of the mountainDon't hold up in this marvelous world I'm alive Together with me moreBreathlessly scoot around the fieldScream loudly on the top of the mountainDon't hold up in this marvelous world I'm alive Together with me more
(ALL) Shout loudlyDancing out on the Edge
(HEECHUL) Throw your arms up, and with your hands over your head scream louder
(ALL) Shout loudly
(EUNHYUK) Don't worry and let your body flow to the rhythm with me
(ALL) Shout loudly
(KIBUM) Throw your arms up, and with your hands over your head scream louder
(ALL) Dancing out on the Edge

2006-08-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! i'm like SUPER tired today. and i dunno why either. T.T so crap.

today is 기범오빠's birthday! YAY!
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KIBUM!
i hope that you'll like open up to people and not keep to yourself la. cause everytime i see you, you seem to be alone. and like bottling everytime up within youself. so yeah oppa! hope that you'll stay HAPPY and HEALTHY! :x okay i know this is so crappy. :X {sorrydenyse&eunice}

okay. shall i talk about past events? cause i havent been blogging for VERY LONG.

not long ago, 동해오빠's daddy passed away. and it was like really sad. i mean for all the suju fans and everything. and especially 동해오빠. i mean it's like. he hasnt SEEN his parents&family for SIX YEARS. and six years isnt a short period of time. and all of a sudden, donghae gets told that his dad passed away. it's like a super huge 打击 for oppa lah. i shall put the post i replied to juniorsource about this incident. :X it's SUPERLONG. &of course. emotional. :X

THE CONDOLENCES:
okay. i heard about this from my friends.and i'm like. shocked. it was like unbelievable. i'm like really still very shocked to say anything else.
no words can express my agony. this is like. all too sudden. i mean like. although like we know that we're all going to die one day; everyone's like born to die. T.T but still it's like. VERY SUDDEN.
i'm feeling really sad for donghae's loss of his appa now. i tried to imagine how he's like now, to try and understand how he feels now. but i know. i wont be able to really feel his agony. the loss of a family member is like the saddest thing on earth. no one will ever be able to feel how you feel like, unless you have experienced it before. to think of the times that your family member has spent with you really. hurts.
in donghae's case. it's his appa. the man who brought him up. the one who cared for him when he is sick. the one who plays with him. the one who piggybacks him. the one who braved through the storms with him. the one who supports him throughout.and to think that he hasnt been home for six years.to think that he hasnt been able to stay by his appa's side at his last moments. to think that he hasnt been able to see his appa alive for the last moment.to think that his appa hasnt been able to see his son for the last moments of his life. and to think that both of them hasnt been able to meet for so long.and his appa parted with him without being able to see his son for six years.it's as though, fate is playing with us, taking us as toys. when fate feels like playing with us, we wont know what'll happen to us. fate can bring us to success, and when you're at the peak, fate throws you down, HARD. like what's happening to donghae now. fate's best at cruelty. fate has really been cruel to donghae's family. fate pulled donghae apart from his family. and then death took donghae's appa's life. donghae hasnt seen his family for so long. and when the time comes for him to see his family again, his appa has left and he wont be able to see him again.
as a fan. i know i wont be able to understand your feelings and agony for your appa, donghae oppa. but i know, you're suffering. i know this is a really hard blow on you. and it'll take very long before you're able to calm down again, and recover from your loss and hurt. and during those periods of time where you are trying to recover. you still have to force out your smiles and act happy in front of the camera. i cant bear to see that. my condolences, donghae oppa. i really dont know what to say to you to make you feel better.

oh well. aint it SUPER LONG? T.T
cause this is to really WASTE SPACE la. cause in the end i didnt know what to blog about. :X LALALA. oh wells.
희철오빠 got into a car accident after paying respects to donghae's daddy.
and thats super SAD. like. FREAK. ohwells.

okay i know my post suck la.
i really apologise. cause i didnt promise to GIVE a WONDERFUL POST. i'm too tired. :X
anyway. lit observation was really FUNNY today. :x
so was HANDBALL. x)
hais i really dont know what else to say.
okay la. i shall go and sleep.
seeyou.
BYEE!

agnes
210806{KIBUM'SBDAE!}
22:40
superjunior&dongbang

2006-08-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

hello.
sorry people.
i havent been really blogging alot.
and this is NOT going to be a decent post. so erm. yeah. please forgive me yah. i will really POST and UPDATE a decent post for EVERYONE tomorrow okay. and i'll say about some of the stuff that happened last time and yeah. i dunno. yeah.
today i'm not really going to blog about anything lah. i'm going to leave everything to tmr for me to NICELY blog. x)

limeng left us today.
it was kinda sad. i'm serious.
even mrlam&mrslam&mrschia came to send her off.
*sighs*
what to do leh.
just wanna say that.
limeng, must jiayou over there in uk& take care okay.
and also have fun. x)

and anyway.
new background music!
super junior's dancing out!
such a cute song. :X

i'll be back tomorrow. to blog PROPERLY. T.T which means this is going to be like a FEW PAGES long. :X
so see you guys. X)

2006-07-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

hello. I CHANGED MY BACKGROUND MUSIC. >< it's addictive. x)
FLY TO THE SKY: SEA OF LOVE.
and btw. fly to the sky is a two person band. not a five person band. T.t alot of people had that misconception. haha.

2006-07-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

hello!
i know i havent blog for very long again. T.T anyways.

10 JULY 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 희철오빠!
just wanna wish you a happy birthday. && you'll always be the PRETTIEST in 슈주! x)
it was a nice day today! not as bad as what i had thought it to be. <3>11 JULY 2006
connie told me superjunior reached malaysia already.
and i cant go.
and we are supposed to be living in the same hotel as them.
what the hell.
do not come and provoke me now.
i'm feeling DAMN EMO.
if you dare come, i swear, your head will be ruthlessly torn from your necks.

and i saw the airport pictures.
DARN.
시원오빠 is like DARN HOT LAH. with his WHITE long

sleeved shirt.

동해오빠 is SO CUTE. x)

and both of them are wearing SPECS.

HOW HOT IS THAT. <333
and i cant go.
what the shit lah.
sorry. i'm just damn EMO. T.T

TODAY, 12JULY2006
feeling better now. not as EMO. but still EMO. T.T
i'm feeling nervous now. it's O's CHINESE ORAL TOMORROW LAH. FREAK FREAK FREAK.
and i still have to do my 口头报告can. SOMEONE KILL ME. ><
죽겠습니다! hmph.

but today was FUN.
WE DISSECTED A HEART. a sheep's heart.
it was a GOOD experience. though the heart stinks and my hands{although we were wearing gloves} STINK TOO. bloodstink&rubberstink. T.T we were just sticking our fingers around through the vena cava &aorta& practically EVERWHERE. x)
i LOVE BIOLOGY!

oh well. i'm just sacrifising my time here to blog when i'm not supposed to, especially when i havent finished my emath homework. T.T darn. and there're SO MANY COMMON TESTS NEXT WEEK. 죽겠습니다! there are:
-geography common
-biology common
-lit unseen common
-add math common.
so now. we should give a conclusion. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE?! T.T they're just out to kill us. T.T

okay. i shall end. i need to do my emath homework! ROAR. T.T

agnes.
120706
20:20
슈퍼주니어&동방신기

2006-06-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
i'm really HIGH!
cause i just FIXED THE TAGBOARD! YAYNESS.
yeah. anyway. nothing much to say anyway.
except that i REALLY want to watch the king and the clown. and yeah.
i watched almost love with connie already. lame show. and it really became LAME in the end. shall not comment to anything in case it spoils the whole thing. :X
yeah. PIA HOMEWORK. T.T
i bet simin is having a FUN TIME at JJ's concert! HAHA. :X
thats all bye. T.T {i'msocraptoday}
and school is reopening soon! {ihateit}

agnes
240606
23:34
dbsk&SUJU <3

2006-06-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

hello. I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN. x) HAHAHAHA. as you can see. i was driven CRAZY {althoughimustadmitiwascrazyalreadybeforethat:X} by the HEAPS of holiday homework still left UNDONE. so i've came to spread my craziness around. T.T i'm going to DIE.
죽겠습니다=i'm going to die soon= chu kei si mi da. T.T stupid shiwon. :XX

AH. >< and i dunno what happened to my flooble tagboard. it just doesnt appear. RAWR. *stabs self* anyway. yeah. if it doesnt appear again. i shall use cbox lah. x)

one more thing. I AM SO HIGH WITH LOVELY DAY. it goes like:
i wanna hold your hand; {everytime i'm thinking about you}
i wanna kiss to your lips;
i wanna fall in love with you;
it must be beautiful lovely day;

LOVELY DAY is like so yummy can. feel like biting it. for no reason. T.T
HEH. as you can see i'm trying to make my blog post LONGER. T.T
yeahyeah. damnit. i'm really. 죽겠습니다! :x okay i'm being lame.

I WANNA WATCH THE KING&THE CLOWN=王的男人=왕의남자{wangyehnamja}
but it's like NC16. RAWR. okay nevermind.

i shall go and sleep le. tomorrow still got training. yeah. okay. byee. x)

agnes
200606
23:47
dbsk&superjunior<333

PS: in THIRTEEN MORE MINUTES. it'll be CONNIE'S 남자=RYEOWOOK's BIRTHDAY! so happy birthday! saeng chu ka hamnida! x)

2006-06-18T00:16:00.000+08:00

hello people. i know i havent blogged in like. one month and i dunno how many days. T.T i cannot sleep now. so i've came to blog.T.T

anyway. went for CIP today. have been repeating, "hi! would you like to make a donation for children's cancer foundation? thank you!" for so many times that i DIED. and i did it so fast! ahahaha. i was so proud of it. HEH. cause i did this whole sentence in just seconds. x) so fun. yeahyeah.

one funny thing. my first 'customers' were actually koreans! and i didnt know until they started talking to each other in korean. x) HAHA. so the whole thing went like this. "hi! would you like to make a donation for children's cancer foundation?" and they were like ?.? haha. then after that one of the girls {therewereTWO} asked, ' what is this for?' {inperfectENGLISHmindyou}. me 'children's cancer foundation' *SMILES* and they started talking in KOREAN. AHHA. then yanhu was like nudging me like siao lah. AHAH. they bought a collarpin for TWO DOLLARS. and after that. i said ' kamsamhamnida!' and both of them got a HUGE SHOCK. they were like. 'OHH!' HAHA. like in SJ'sfullhouse. when superjunior found out that anna&eva could speak korean, that kind of reaction. AHAHA. then they asked of we were in highschool. yanhui said no, before highschool. yeah. i asked if they were tourists. {iguesstheydidntunderstandtourist,causetheydidntreply:X } HEH. so i rephrased my question to:' do you'll live in singapore?' and they went like, 'er no. we are here to...' and i went like ' oh okayy!' haha cause i know they didnt knowhow to say they were like touring here. T.T and they requested to take a picture with us. SO CUTE RIGHT. HAAHHAA. actually wanted to ask them if they know dongbang and suju. but yeah. didnt in the end. T.T kinda regretted not to. HAHA. :X could have made two more friends you know. okay. more like two UNNIES. x) cause i have no elder siblings/cousins. i'm the oldest you see. T.T

yeah. so bored. tomorrow still have to do CIP. last time already. yeah. ^^

and i am going to DIEDIEDIE for holiday homework.
cause i still have CRAP ALOT TO DO. T.T RAWR. T.T ew. T.T

okay. i shall go and sleep now. it's like. 12:30am now can. :/ yeah. okayy. bye. T.t

agnesHOLEE/CHOI/KIM {holeelookslikehyolee&soundslikeholy:X}
180606
12:30
SUPERJUNIOR
DONGBANG

ps: i intend to change my blogskin soon. x)